Pretty..

well well well

2006-06-02T07:59:00.000-07:00

well well well...

Hmm... wala lang.. kanina natulog ako ng 4am.. yeah.. Katext ko kasi si steppi.. wal alng.. kung ano ano lang pinagusapan namin.. hmmm.. tapos.. kanina.. nag brownout pa.. amf... habang ka chat ko si alex.. ayun.. tapos.. kanina nag chat din kami nila hans, gens and ayeth.. saya.. namiss ko sila sobra.. hmmm... tapos biglang may nagtext sakin.. si asuit.. nandito daw siya sa villas.. pagtingin ko sa labas.. andun nga ang loko.. ahahaha.. at pawis na pawis.. kasama si Tuz.. Galing kasi sila ng G4.. eh.. nakita nila si madski.. and hulaan nio kung sino pa nakita nila?! si ANDREW E. ahahhaa.. whatever!.. ahhaha.. ayun.. nilakad daw nila jayz from G4 to Villas.. ahhaha.. lakas ng trip nio.. adik mehn.. anyway.. wala lang ako magwa ngayon.. kaya naisipan ko mag blog.. malapit na rin pasukan namin.. ayoko pa pumasok.. katamad eh.. sana sa states nalang ako.. ehehe.. pero.. oh well..

OI ALEX PASALUBONG KO WAG MO KALIMUTAN!

ahahaa... paalala lang..

o xa sige.. tinatamad ako.. bye!

busy

2006-05-13T06:56:00.000-07:00

BUSY..

yeah ang dami kong inaasikaso ngayon.. haaaaaaaay.. natotorete na nga ako eh.. anyway..nag pakulay ako ng hair.. ahahha.. wala lang.. trip trip lang.. para maiba.. namimiss ko na yung LONG BLACK hair ko.. grabe... as in.. dibale.. gagawin ko ulit one length hair ko.. pahahabain ko ulit.. huhuhu.. kakalungkot..

lam nio ba lately.. ang dami kong napapanaginipan.. really.. kung ano ano.. halo halo.. minsan may about sa, school, friends.. minsan love life... minsan.. may mumu.. ahahhaa.. totoo.. minsan magigising nalang ako.. its only a dream lang pala.. pero minsan.. sasabihin mong "sana totoo yun" lalo na pag ang dream mo maganda.. ahaha.. ewan ko ba kung bakit ang dami kong napapanaginipan ngayon.. siguro sa kakaisip ng mga bagay bagay...

Yoan kasi eh.. masyadong nag aalala...

my mom is sick right now.. sana.. gumaling na sya..

sana.. sagutin na ni GOD prayers ko.. :) i really hope God will give me a chance... haaaaaaaaayy.. basta.. faith in him will lead me to success..

"The life you have... is the choice you made..."

machete ko

2006-05-07T21:01:00.000-07:00

MACHETE KO

yes... machete ko.. ahahha... I miss him.. si machete.. Kilala niyo ba yun? harharhar.. wala lang... mag kaaway kasi kami eh... eh namimiss ko na siya.. hmmm.. bakit ko kaya namimiss ung lokong yun?!

haaaaayy.. we went to batangas.. nag outing kami.. ahaha.. at medyo.. umitim ako.. huhu... pero sabi naman ng mom ko mawawala din yun... sobrang saya.. sayang hinde ko na picturan yung sand castle na ginawa namin.. ang kyoot na eh... anyway..

Nilagay ko sa status ko sa YM "aalis na ako.. bye guys mamimiss ko kayo huhuu..."

ahaha... grabe ah.. dami nag tanong kung saan daw ako pupunta,,, yihee... mamimiss nio ako noh?!

eto ung mga nag tanong...

+jayson
+simon
+carla
+maico
+erika
+miguel aquino
+alex
+Albert
+tabing
+josh
+ayeth
+mara
+mae
+ianne
+dana

ahahaha.. sa batangas lang po ako nag punta.. ahahhaha... kala niyo kung saan noh?!

sige sige.. babush...

I MISS MACHETE..

new layout...

2006-05-03T07:37:00.000-07:00

New Layout..

Yeah.. new layout.. astig.. vintage! hahaha.. anyway.. I feel really sad right now.. Wala lang.. Kasi.. meron akong isang taong i really like.. Pero tipong crush lang.. well.. naging crush ko na siya before pa.. nalagay ko na nga siya sa previous entries ko.. haha.. so i can say na.. hinde siya bago.. ahaha.. sasabihin niyo na naman "may bagong lalaki si yoan" ahaha.. ang panget pakinggan.. well actually.. pag nagkakagusto ako sa guy.. siya lang.. hinde naman ako ung tipong.. palit ng palit.. i admit.. marami akong naging crush.. pero.. matagalan naman.. and.. pag gusto ko ang isang tao.. I'm telling the truth.. siguro.. kaya lang minsan.. umaayaw ako.. dahil siguro.. meron siyang ugaling hinde ko nagugustuhan.. or sometimes.. kinakainisan ko dahil.. ginagawa akong PANAKIP BUTAS.. "hinde ako pang rebound" haha... o diba? ang taray...

Hinde ako nag hahanap ng PATCH! ok? pag may gusto akong tao.. its true.. hinde siya patch.. ok? so dun sa nag aakalang.. pag may gusto ako.. at sinasabi niyong "patch mo lang yun" well.. you're wrong my dear..

I know naman na sasabihin niyong.. "mahal mo pa siya eh" well.. I'm still in the process sa pag move on.. and if you think its easy.. well.. im telling you now.. that it's not.. coz i'm still suffering.. the pain is still there.. okey? There's nothing wrong naman siguro.. kung mag karoon ako ng CRUSH lang..

Dun naman sa mga friends ko.. na pinag dudutdutan na mahal ko pa yung tao.. stop it na! Its annoying me already! I'm sorry to say.. but you're not helping me! you're just making me mad..
I get irritated kasi when you do stuff like that!..

DUN NAMAN SA TAONG GUSTO KO

well.. i like you.. kasi.. mabait ka SAKIN.. ahaha.. just kidding.. anyway.. ayun.. and napaka caring mo.. sweet.. and very thoughtful.. and very funny..

dont think na.. ginagawa lang kitang PATCH.. coz that's not true.. gusto kita dahil sa ugaling pinapakita mo saakin.. iba ka.. iba siya.. I hope you wont compare yourself with him.. because.. there's a difference.. between you and him..

AGAIN.. Hinde kita ginagawang Patch.. ok? Believe me..

desperate..

2006-04-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

Desperate..

okei.. haha.. meron akong nalaman.. yep.. and.. actually.. i dont care.. pero.. nabadtrip lang ako.. when i knew na he likes the girl.. kasi.. Concern ako dun sa babae.. there are people na talagang desperate magkaroon ng girlfriend.. well.. actually.. napag usapan na namin to ng mga bestfriends ko.. yep.. so hinde na ako na shock.. and.. all that matters to me.. is that.. wag niyang gagaguhin ung girl.. haha.. bagay naman sila eh.. parehong......._______

adik sa text..

ahahahahha..

kaya lang he's really weird.. he courted me.. and.. everyone's telling me.. na wag ko raw sagutin! haha.. because of his past.. and.. may nalaman ako.. from someone close to him.. buti nalang! I dont feel anything for him.. siguro ung sinabi ko before.. is nothing.. naaawa lang siguro ako talaga saknya.. he's saying i love you na.. well in fact.. days palang kami nag uusap.. ahahaha.. weird noh? so yun nga.. pinasabi ko dun sa girl [someone close to me].. he should stop bothering me na.. coz im not yet ready.... and i dont really feel anything for him.. naaawa lang talaga ako.. anyway.. yun nga.. after that.. the guy and the girl.. started talking on the phone for hours.. ahaha.. that's good kasi.. wala ng istorbo.. thank god!! tapos yun... nag sabihan na sila na they like each other.. haha.. okei?? take note.. wala pang 1 week simula nung mag stop siya manligaw.. tapos..nag confess na siya dun sa girl? ahaha.. oh well.. ganyan talaga ang mga desperate.. siya mismo nag sabi sakin nun ah.. na desperate siya.. kasi daw.. hes needs tha CARE.. the LOVE.. haha.. okei? and my friends really do care for me a lot.. nainis sila sa guy.. kasi.. medyo may attitude problem.. na kinainisan talaga nila.. so ayun.. and tinalikuran ko na once yung friends ko.. and i wont do it again.. they know me better than myself.. and alam nila na.. hinde ako ready.. dahil na sa stage pa ako ng Moving on.. half na.. hahhaa.. im such a liar!

To the girl: you know that i love you so much.. and i really do care for you.. ang nakakinis lang.. hinde mo sakin sinabi... well i dont really care about that guy.. pero.. sana you informed me.. this is not the first time na nangyari to.. you have a lot of secrets.. is that how you treat your BESTFRIENDS? you're not sharing.. that's the problem with you.. ikaw ang lumalayo samin.. if you dont have that guilty feeling.. you have the guts to tell it to me! straight to my face.. pero hinde yun ung nangyari eh.. after all na nangyari nung nainis yung ibang friends natin sknya.. inentertain mo pa rin siya... remember mas matagal mo na kaming nakasama kaysa dun sa guy na yun.. but still nag side ka parin sknya.. i understand that you both wanted someone who will love and care for you.. kaya nga bagay kayo eh.. oh well.. I just want you to take care.. and goodluck nalang sayo.. and with that guy.. i wish you happiness and.. im STILL here.. if ever he hurts you.. okei? AGAIN... hinde ako galit.. nagtatampo lang ako sayo.. because you didnt tell me.. this is not the first time.. and i dont think you still have my trust... im sorry.. anyway.. istill do love you!

To the guy: it's okei naman.. and actually.. Im happy for you.. pero dont you dare hurt her.. if she's happy with you.. then.. We, her bestfriends.. will be happy for her... Sana.. you're not courting her just because you're very desperate having a girlfriend.. I know that you wanted someone who will care for you.. and i tell you.. she's the perfect person.. so dont ever hurt her.. sana you're courting her.. because.. you love her.. i mean.. you should be sincere.. You should mean it.. Remember.. 1st boyfriend ka niya.. [if ever].. why am i telling you this? its not because i care for you.. but because.. i care for my bestfriend.. hope you understand..

Dont be mad at me for posting this.. i have the right to let my feelings out.. since she is my bestfriend.. and this is my blog.. i can do whatever i want.. sana walang ma offend.. Im just trying to be myself.. kung tinamaan man kayo.. im sorry.. but this is me.. you have to accept it..
and I'm happy that finally.. i was able to let my feelings out.. so.. i will end the issue here..

bye..

waht a day

2006-04-15T07:14:00.000-07:00

What a day...

I woke up @ around 10 am.. ahaha.. Its kinda late.. since i went to sleep @ 3 am.. Alex called me.. around 10 pm.. and finished talking @ 1 in the morning.. I started watching Charmed.. I got addicted watching DVD series.. I'm a charmed fanatic by the way.. ahaha.. so I woke up @ 10 am and my mom told me to get ready because we're going to MArket Market to buy something for my cousins and Buy a gift for Carla Hutchingson's parents.. since His dad and my dad are good friends.. they moved to Marina homes..

While looking for a place to eat.. we went to the supermarket.. looking for a SUBWAY.. I told my mom I wanted to eat sandwich.. haha.. but didnt find any so we decided to go to pancake house... on our way to the escalator.. someone called my name.. ahaha.. its Jayson asuit... He came to me.. then I introduced him to my mom.. ehehe.. Too bad i didnt get a chance to talk to him a little longer since we're in a hurry.. Anyway.. its nice to see him again...

After eating.. we went straight to marina homes.. where carla's family lives.. The house was really nice.. and we ate pizza... did some chitchat.. and everything..

oh well.. got home by 10:45..

about love...

2006-03-27T19:10:00.000-08:00

I wanted to share you something about love..

Okei… everyone’s looking for their true love.. hmmm.. sino nga ba true love ko? I believe that I will be able to find my true love maybe when I go to work na.. Yes I know that I am very mature at my age.. but still.. diba?? Hinde pa ako ganun ka mature.. there are still lessons to be learned and Experiences to encounter… MAhaba pa buhay ko. I guess… ahhaha… pero…. It can wait naman eh.. ehehhee.. right?

For now, Siguro I wanted to find someone that will make me happy.. someone who will care for me.. Im not saying na.. I wanted to enter into a new relationship.. siguro friends muna.. Coz Im not yet ready for that.. I guess.. But.. you’ll never know.. But as much as possible… Friends muna…

Haaaayy.. They always tell me na.. I can’t move on without someone replacing that pain to love again… I guess they’re all right!... ewan ko.. One reason na rin siguro ung.. I get envious when I see someone with their loved ones... another reason.. siguro kasi.. Napaka lonely ko.. and.. If I will describe myself.. ako ung person na wanted to express my feelings for others… Mapagmahal kasi ako na tao… Pag meron akong isang tao na gusto… I’m doing my best to let that person know that I love him…

Siguro dun sa past relationship ko.. naka move on na ako.. nagyon ko lang na realize na…. kaya ko palang mag move on? Ahhahaha.. unang una.. hinde ko na nakikita yung taong yun.. Alam ko na.. lagi kong sinasabi na naka move on na ako.. pero “hinde naman”.. pero now? I can say na.. naka move on na ako.. haaaay salamat at college na rin ako…

My mom is right! You cannot move on if you see that person EVERYDAY… that’s true… kasi… syepmre.. pag nakikita mo siya.. bumabalik at bumabalik yung feelings mo for that person… hinde mo maiiwasang hinde tumingin saknya.. right?? Tapos.. whenever you see him flirting with someone na sasaktan ka.. diba??

Kasi nga.. sabi nila.. “if a person loved you once, even after a hundred years.. there will still be Some of that love left.. No matter how much that person denies it”…. Hinde basta basta nawawala yun… kaya wag niyong sasabihin na.. “hinde ko na siya mahal” kasi that’s not true… siguro u can say.. na naka move on ka na.. pero… meron at merong paring pag mamahal na matitira…

Ako.. Im not saying na hinde ko na siya mahal… Nag move on lang ako.. ni reready ko lang sarili ko na… if ever that SPECIAL SOMEONE comes.. Pwede na ako mag mahal uli… diba? Hinde naman kasi mawawala yung pag mamahal ko sa isang tao eh… He made me realize that there is someone better who deserves me… a better person who will make me happy… kahit na sinasabi niya he doesn’t love me anymore.. I don’t care… ang alam ko lang.. I gave him everything… Hinde ako nag kulang…

Well Thanks to him kasi.. I learned a lot…

Nung birthday ko lang na realize na… I should stop thinking about him.. Kasi.. ako rin yung mahihirapan.. tyaka wala rin mangyayari if I will still continue to think about him! Magakakaron lang ako ng wrinkles aahahhaa… Joke..

Kaya sa mga taong.. Malungkot because of love.. don’t be! Kasi…. There’s someone better out there… who deserves you!..

Dun sa mga hinde maka move on and galing sa break up… think twice if that person deserves you… kung hinde.. aba.. Pupukin mo sarili mo ng martilyo para magising ka!.. ehehehe pero seriously.. Gusto kong ma realize niyo na… hinde lang siya ang tao sa mundo.. Yun kasi ang na realize ko.. lately lang…

At dun naman sa mga taong in love… be sure.. na love niyo siya… kasi… if you’re not surebaka makasakit lang kayo ng feelings… always remember na when you love.. expect that there will always be pain…

Dun naman sa mga nasa relationship… make sure na ingatan niyo ung relationship niyo.. and be open with each other… be understanding narin.. kasi kung wala kayo niyan.. hinde magiging string relationship niyo… and try to treat each other as bestfriends… if ever na mag break kayo… try to keep that friendship.. don’t be bitter with each other… kasi.. it’s not healthy for your relationship… so as much as possible… keep the flame Burning! Ahahahhaa… Pakaligaya kayo!

eto ung isang bagay na natutunan ko.. that I wanted to share everybody..

ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT… LOVE A PERSON.. WITH OPEN HEART… AND TRY NOT TO HURT THEM.. COZ ONCE YOU HURT THEIR FEELINGS.. THE WOUNDS ARE HARD TO HEAL… AND MOST IMPORTANLY.. IT MAY LEAVE A SCAR IN YOUR HEART…

Ayos ba mag bigay ng advice? Ahahhaa..

Sad Birthday... No jobert.. =(

2006-03-24T08:13:00.000-08:00

Sad Birthday... No jobert.. =(

Haaaayyy... wala lang... kahapon birthday ko.. hmmm... marami akong hinde ineexpect... hmm.. well.. okey naman.. duamting ung mga teachers.. and thanks na rin sa pag bati.. sorry kung medyo boring.. and sorry dun sa mga taong hinde ko na entertain.. anyway.. nakakinis lang kasi,.. kasi may mga tao akong ininvite na hinde naman pumunta... ineexpect ko pa naman sila.. haaaaaaaaaayy,,, hidne tuloy naging masyadong masaya birthday ko..

Sana pala nandun si Jobert.. kung nandun siya.. yun na siguro pinaka masaya kong birthday.. hehe... ewan ko ba...

Tapos.. Nung gabi na... kumanta ako.. actually wala na masyadong tao nun.. tapos.. habang kumakanta ako.. bigla nalang ako umiyak... ehehehehe.. oh well.. so sad kasi eh.. Sobra.. may naalala lang kasi ako.. tapos.. wala pa si Jobert.. Nakakapanghinayang lang.. siya lang okei na birthday ko.. ehehhee.. pero siyempre.. masya na rin.. kasi nandyan ung mga friends ko.. pero iba pa rin yung saya kung nandun si jobert...

tyaka sana nagkaroon man lang kami ng memories together.. lam mo na.. usap usap.. eehehhee.. haaaaaaaayy... mamimiss ko talaga yung mokong na yun!

Nakita ko nga pala siya kanina sa school... haaaaaaayy.. lagi na nga ako bumibisita sa school kasi... malamang hinde ko na siya makikita... pwera na lang kung bibisita siya dito sa villas.. or ako bibisita dun...

Sino kaya crush niya? ahhaha.. tanong lang... kung sino man ung babaeng yun.. ang swerte naman niya.. at napaka thoughtful ni jobert.. mabait pa pag dating sa babae.. sweet.. san ka pa diba? pero.. ahahhaa.. secret ko na yung pero na yun!

natatakot lang ako malaman niya na siya si jobert.. kasi.. baka mamaya.. mag ka-ilangan kami.. Yun ang mahirap sa mag kaibigan eh.. pag nagustuhan mo na siya.. mahirap na kasi.. baka mamaya.. masira yung friendship nio.. pero kung sa bagay.. sabi nga ni ZANJOE of Pinoy big brother.. ehehhee.. "Hinde naman kayo mag kaka-ilangan kung walnag SOMETHING eh.." tama rin siya dun.. ehehehe.. diba?? actually.. evrytime na nakikita ko siya.. parang gusto ko magtago sa ilalim ng dahon eh.. kaya lang hindee ako kasya.. sa Puno nalang.. ahahhaa.. baka hinde pa rin ako mag kasya.. joke..

basta.. siguro... pag nawala na yung feelings ko sknya.. tyaka ko sasabihin ng pabiro na.. nagkagusto ako sknya.. ahahha.. o diba? ibang level..

Ang corny!!!

haaaayy.. nako yang line na yan.. madalas ko ng mnasabi...

Ang corny!

anyway.. kanina naman.. farewell party ng varsity.. oh diba? ehehhe... msaya rin.. pero hinde kami complete eh.. oh well..sayang... ayun.. may pizza, chicken, adobo, donuts, buko pandan.. ayun.. tapos.. kantahan...

sa monday.. babalik uli ako sa skul para ibigay yung gradpic dun sa mga humihinge.. oh well.. tyaka para na rin makita ko sa Jobert.. kung papasok siya.. wish ko lang pumasok siya... ehehehe...

Mamimiss ko talaga si JObert... awwwwwww.. so sad.. =(

tapos.. siya gusto niya na kaming paalisin sa skul!.. bakit ba ayaw ng 3rd yr sa mga 4th yr? ang sama nio.. aahhaha.. ashu... if i know.. mamimiss nio rin kami noh!!! har har har..

wala lang

2006-03-17T17:00:00.000-08:00

WALA LANG..

hhhhaaaaayy... palapit na ng palapit ang vacation.. palapit na rin ng palapit yung araw na ang aming paghihiwalay.. haaaaaayy.. ang lungkot noh?? anyway.. ang dami kong mamimiss.. ehehhee.. yung school.. yung mga makukulit na tao.. yung mga teachers and everything..

haaaaaaayy.. ay nako.. actually wala akong masabi.. ang alam ko lang.. nilulubos ko na yung mga araw ko sa OB.. Yung mga taong kasama ko..

welll.. GOOD LUCK guys..

farewell

2006-03-12T15:15:00.000-08:00

FAREWELL

Hay nako.. bakit ganun? Pag masya ka.. Laging may kasamang lungkot? anyway.. ayun nga,. parang kahapon lang ang saya saya ko.. pakanta kanta pa ako.. ehehhe... sabi nga nila madel.. ganyan talaga pag inlove ang isang tao.. nagiging corny! Baduy,, aahhaha.. pero kasi.. pag inlove ka.. hinde mo namamalayan yun.. parang wala ka sa sarili mo.. kasi ang alam mo lang masaya ka..

Ngunit.. Kung ikaw ay malungkot.. asahan mong may darating na saya.. Kung ikaw naman ay masaya.. asahan mong may darating na Lungkot...

Ganyan lang talaga siguro ang buhay.. asahan mong ganyan..

Ngayon.. Nalulungkot ako.. kasi.. Nagiba na siya.. haaaayy..

GGraduate na kami.. Siguro ngayon masya na yung mga 3rd year at aalis na kami.. huhuu.. ako? nalulungkot.. Masya ako.. pero.. siyempre nalulungkot din.. sabi nga nila mika.. Na half of my life is spent here in OB,, second home na namin ito.. at hinde rin ako marunong maki halubilo sa ibang tao.. For sure mamimiss ko yung mga bestfriends ko.. and of course the rest of the gang,,,

Mga 2nd year mamimiss ko rin..

Lalo na si IANNE.. na every dismissal.. lalapit yan sakin.. hahalikan ako.. at may ikukwento..

Sa 3rd year naman..

Mamimiss ko si ALEX.. yung mga pag kalabit niya sakin pag snacks or lunch sabay belat! aahahha..

Si NINA... yung mga awayan namin dati! aahhaha.. joke... hinde.. siyempre yung mga kwentuhan ever namin about kay jobert..

Sila Anne carla. jason.. x.. at si Mabi..
Yung mga pangungulit nila..

Si ASUIT.. kahit hinde kami masyadong close.. mamimiss ko rin yung mga times na mamansin siya.. or mag bebelat katulad ni Alex.. ahahha.. tyaka yung pag silip silip niya sa Divider! [sorry ulit sa pag sugod!]

Si JOBERT.. maimiss ko rin.. Lalo na yung times na mamansin siya.. at kikiligin ako.. ahahhaa..

hinde ko mababanggit lahat.. ng 3rd yr.. pero kahit na gusto niyo na kami paalisin.. mamimiss ko talaga kayo..

sa 4th year namn..

Mamimiss ko tong batch na to.. eto yung batch na sobrang bonded.. Simula pag kabata mag kakasama na kami.. at masasabi kong kilala na namin isa't isa.. Pero.. sabi nga nila.. sa buhay ng tao.. may umaalis.. pero.. may dumarating din.. pano ba yan? kailangan na natin mag paalam sa isa't isa.. ang wish ko lang... sana lahat tayo maging successful.. siguro hinde na tayo mag kikita.. siguro.. may mga kanya kanya na tayong kaibigan sa college.. pero.. tatandaan ko.. na etong highschool life ang pinaka itetreasure ko.. para ko na kayong mga kapatid..

Naiiyak na ako...

ANyway.. we must move on.. pero.. sana.. lahat ng natutunan natin sa high school that made us better individual.. i apply natin yun sa college..

Sobrang mamimiss ko talga kayo..

jobert

2006-03-10T22:57:00.000-08:00

TPR

haaay salamat tapos na TPR.. corps si nina.. anyway.. nakakainis.. feel ko alam na ni jobert kung sino siya.. waaaaaaaaah.. sabi ko na nga ba eh.. haaayy.. ayoko na nga.. nakakinis talaga,. kaya ayokong sbhn sainyo eh.. kasi kau kinukulit nio ako eh.. grrrrr.. oh well.. sige.. fine.. baka mamaya magiba na treatment niya sakin.. naku.. nakakinis talaga.. GRRRRR... ayoko na talaga.. hinde na muna ako mag memessage sknya.. pero pag siya ang nag message.. hmmm.. kakausapin ko pa rin.. I will act normal.. Papansinin ko siya sa skul if ever na pansinin niya ako.. hmmmm.. basta ayokong mauna na kausapin or pansinin siya.. grrrrr.. nakakinis talga.. ggraduate na nga lang at hinde ko na siya makikita.. naging ganito pa.. haaaaaaaayyy.. wish ko lang talaga na hinde siya mag bago.. kasi kung mag babago siya malulungkot ako.. =( sayang naman diba? siya pa naman yung reason kung bakit ako nagiging masaya.. waaaaaaahhh.. SORRY JOBERT... SORRY talaga.. waaaaaaaahhh...

prom 2006

2006-02-18T10:05:00.000-08:00

Prom 2006

hehehe.. kei.. ayan ah nag update na ako.. well kakatapos lang ng prom namin and its 2am already.. ayun.. okei naman.. ehehee.. pero.. honestly mas masaya last year.. kasi mas exciting.. kasi siguro ngaun alam na namin ang prom.. that's why hinde na siya ganun ka exciting.. anyway.. at least.. nagkasama sama kaming magkakabatch! ehehe.. ilang weeks nalang mamamaalam na kami.. oh well goodbye OB.. pero.. U know wut guys? Highschool life is the most meaningful part of my life..kasi ang dami kong natutunan.. especially at this early age,., Actually ang sarap maging highschool student.. lalo na pag well bonded kau ng classmates mo.. diba? the best batch ever is the SAMBISIG.. hinde cheap.. ahahhaa.. may class.. ahahhaa.. hinde kanto girls and kanto boys.. ehehehe.. anyway.. sa highschool.. dun mo mararanasan lahat ng first mo.. well it depends naman.. alam mo un.. 1st bf/gf, first "true love", 1st heartbreak, first super kilig, first date.. lahat lahat na.. first kiss? ahahhaa.. ewan.. well.. i thank god naman for all the blessings he gave me.. ang dami kong nagawang mali.. na gusto kong itama.. pero hinde ko na magawa yun ngayon.. parang gusto kong i-rewind ang mundo.. kung pwede nga lang sana.. at if ever na pwede yun.. lahat ng gagawin ko itatama ko na.. pero.. syempre.. lahat naman tau nagkakamali.. minsan lagi nalang tayong nag aakala.. maraming hinde sinusubukan.. laging takot.. ang hinde natin alam,, yun pala.. yung mga bagay na hinde natin sinubukang gawin.. ay yun pala ang makakabuti.. sa bagay,., nasa huli nga naman ang pagsisisi..

Well.. siguro ganun lang talaga ang buhay.. hinde natin alam kung ano ung susunod na mangyayari.. pero.. syempre we should always remember everything happens for a reason.. And its god's will.. diba? si god lang nakakaalam ng lahat.. kaya nga in everything we do.. dapat we should do our best.. para wala tayong pag sisihan..

hmmmmmm...

PROM QUEEN SI ERIKA and PROM KING SI ALBERT..

per branch na yung prom king and queen..

PROM PRINCE SI ALVAREZ and PROM PRINCESS SI MILA..

COngrats sa mga nanalo! ehehhee..

LET'S CELEBRATE LIFE!! NAKARAOS DIN ANG PROM..

till next blogging! bye..

conflict

2006-02-01T03:35:00.000-08:00

what's happening?

haaayy.. ang daming nangyayari talaga.. and i really dont know where to side.. basta.. Guys.. let it pass.. okie? everything will be alright.. and dont worry.. malapit na tayong umalis.. i guess.. ggraduate nga ba tau? ehehehe.. well..

Tama nga yung iba.. This is a blog.. and this is where you put all your opinions.. and everything.. pero sana naman guys.. wala ng magaway just because of this.. kasi.. para naman ang kikitaid ng utak natin.. Para naman tayong hinde nag aaral sa OB.. ano ba kayo.. I told you naman guys na hinde makakabuti yung laging mainit ang ulo.. I know that we all have are own problems.. pero Please calm down.. mga hot headed kasi kau eh.. Try to calm down.. and believe me.. it will be better kung mahinahon kau.. okie? please..

Good luck nalang sa lahat ng tao.. and I just hope na everything will be okey now.. back to normal.. okie..

carlos my seatmate

2006-01-30T06:10:00.000-08:00

He's my seatmate.. =s

guess what?! seatmate ko si Carlos.. oh well.. hinde ako sanay.. nakakailang.. and.. I really can't express myself.. Its like.. "THIS IS NOT YOU JOHANN" I mean.. Its okey.. pero.. things are different pag siya yung nandyan..

So here's the thing..

They all suggested to have a new seat plan.. They were all excited.. and I was not!.. pano naman kasi.. natatkot ako mapunta sa likod.. ehehehe.. yun lang yun.. anyway.. guys went first.. Paolo.. got B6 and CArlos got b3.. tapos.. he told paolo.. na change nalang sila.. coz.. CArlos was sitting at B6 since 2nd quarter.. he doesnt want to make adjustments anymore.. i guess..anyway.. ayun so ngaun.. si carlos sa b6 na.. and paolo.. sa b3.. okei..

Its our turn naman.. ako yung 2nd to the last na bumunot sa girls.. and talgang kinabahan ako.. kala ko kasi sa likod ako noh.. anyway.. ayun... habang nasa CR si Carlos.. Genesis asked me kung anong seat ko.. i told him na G6.. and he was like.. "HAHAHA.. UUUUYYYY"... pinalo ko siya.. ahhaa yun naman lagi kong ginagwa eh.. tapos.. madel asked me.. sabi ko G6.. ayun.. sinabi kila mika.. and they were all shouting.. and singing.. nangaasar.. pati si ma'am naki asar! hmmmmp!.. so.. nilipat ko ung things ko.. and pag balik ni Carlos.. he was really shocked! actually i dont know how to react also.. ayun.. siya nakaharap sa likod at sa may left side niya.. while ako naman.. i was facing the other way.. sa harap.. sa may right! ahaaahha.. weird noh?

Ganun talaga eh.. ewan ko ba.. its like.. this kind of treatment has no end.. sabi pa nga ni ayeth "GITNA NIYO SASABOG"
ahaha.. its really a bomb!.. "KABOOOM!"

Sabi naman ni ma'am.. "be a gentleman.. alagaan niyo seatmate niyo"

GAlit yata siya.. ehehehe.. well.. okey lang yan,, ilang weeks nalang naman graduate na tayo noh.. konting tiis nalang!..

Nakwento ko na rin sa Mom ko.. ehehhee.. ang taong nag bibigay sakin ng advice.. well she told me na to just ignore nalang daw.. and baka this is god's plan daw.. baka eto na daw yung way para magkabati kami.. yun sabi niya.. well.. bati naman yata kami.. hinde lang talga nag papansinan.. I want to make friends with him.. pero ayaw niya eh..

wala naman akong masasabi eh..

"I'm leaving on hikouki!" I dont know when i'll be kaerimasu.." tama ba carla?? ehehe..

here's the new seat plan:

I made that! cute noh? ehehhee... oh well... sige guys.. bye! mwah!!

house party!

2006-01-29T07:25:00.000-08:00

House PArteeeeh!

We had our house party at bea's place.. twas fun.. but things are a lot better if the boys were there! 4th year girls loves bonding with the 4th year boys..! Things are very different when you put them together! things can go wild! You'll never know what will happen! you dont know what to expect! Its really exciting! >=D

Here are some pictures grabbed from bea's blog:

Bea, mae, queenie and nics

awwwww.. so sweet..

Addicted to pictures

boreddddddd..

Tribute to ayeth! ahahah.. Ayeth is that you???!

o tapos?

i love this pic!

SADAKO

NAkaktakot si SEIG! waaaahh! MUMU!

YAni! are you okie? natatae ka na naman ah!

sssssssshhh.. pwde na ba kami pumalit sa SOGO?? si gens yung customer!

Queenie, carla and chewey!

what da?!

uhhhh.. how sad..

Aw... Telly it hurts!! ahahha nice one!

friends at war

2006-01-29T05:53:00.000-08:00

Friends.. at war?

Im really confused.. Well LAgi naman.. Lots of problem.. About my friends.. haaaaay.. last week.. saturday.. my bestfriends and I had a heart to heart talk.. huhuhu.. bakit ganito.. sobrang daming problema ngaun.. sunod sunod.. non stop! Pero syempre.. kahit pinoproblema mo ung ibang problems ng friend mo.. minsan.. malalaman mo na masarap makatulong.. diba..? Pero na solve na yung iba.. ehehhe..

Si ayeth and Mila naman.. Wow.. World war 3 ito.. well.. I read mila's blog yeah.. and.. its really a bomb!! ahaha.. well.. Can't blame mila kasi.. she has a point.. and hinde ko mapagtanggol si ayeth kasi may mali din siya.. Im sorry.. pero.. guys.. maybe you should stop this na..

To ayeth:

you know ayeth na you're my friend.. and alam mo na mas close ako sayo.. pero.. bebe.. its not right to judge her.. and maybe you need to forget the past.. na carried away ka lang siguro dahil dun sa mga nangyari.. the best thing you can do is to stop this.. forgive and forget..

To mila:

Kahit na hinde tayo close.. hmmm.. I know you're a good person.. hinde naman kasi kita kilala.. pero.. minsan you should know your limitations.. wag mo masyadong dutdutin si ayeth.. I read your blog.. and nagulat ako.. ehehehe.. talagang pati intermed dinamay mo pa ah.. ahahha.. anyway.. may point ka rin dun sa sinabi mo.. alin dun? yung about kay desi.. and about sa christmas 2005.. kulang yung info.. tyaka cool ka lang wag masyadong mainit ulo.. magbati na kayo ni ayeth.. okie? siguro un ang makakbuti..

wala naman akong kinakampihan... kasi magulo eh.. sorry kung nakikisama kaming mga friends ni ayeth.. pero kasi.. ganun lang namin siya ka mahal.. bata pa yan eh!

Ikaw naman ayeth,, itigil na kalokohan pwede..?? ahaha.. bruha ka talaga! sarap mo sabunutan! pero i cant! love kasi kita eh..

haaaaaaaayy.. sa may mga problem din sa mga friends,, ayusin nio na yan.. mahirap yung may kaaway kau.. diba?

Ayeth.. Mila... stop the war! ahhahaa,, okie?? tama na awayan..okie? mag ingat kau.. love you guys mwah!

make-up

2006-01-14T06:33:00.000-08:00

Make-up

hmmm.. 14 pala ngayon!! wala lang may naalala lang ako ahahaha 2 years and 1 month na pala dapat kami.. ahahaha.... malapit na rin pala january 18.. hmm.. dapat 3 years na pala kami ni ALEX ahahaha... wala lang naalala ko lang..ahahaha sino kaya susunod? ahahaa joke lang... nga pala bukas may exam ako sa UST.. arrrgh.. tinatamad ako.. ahahahhaa... wala akong magawa... so nag search ako ng mga make up na gusto ko.. actually yung iba dyan nakuha ko sa magazine na ginagamit ng mga artist.. ehehehe.. and I really love the colors.. Sana mabili ko yan lahat!!... Waaaaaaaaaahhh... Ang luho ko talaga.. anyway... MEron na siguro ako niya before christmas! MUAHAHHAHAHA! I swear!!! ahahhahaa... yehey.. excited na ko!

Compact Anti-Shine by Smashbox Cosmetics $26

Special Effects by Smashbox Cosmetics $16

Blush by NARS Cosmetics $25

Lip treatment (Bee stung) by Tarte $12
for chapped lips! ehehe

Brown eyes eye shadow palette by Pop Beauty $32

Secret comouflage by Laura Mercier $28

Lip gloss Palette (sand) by Jouer $18

Pearl white make-up box by Shu Uemura $200
haha libre naman mangarap eh..

Eyelash Curler with case by Shu Uemura $33
The best eyelash curler in the world!!!

Chiiick bag by sephora $20
I really love this make up kit! I'll have this soon!!!! haha

Be girly mirror by Irving Rice $35
Ang cute noh??

Brands

the ultimate webcam whore

2006-01-13T06:23:00.000-08:00

The Ultimate webcam whore!

wow.. during math class.. ahahaha lahat ng boys namin nag lipgloss! astig! take note! color red yun ah... "nag chchange kasi ng color una wala pero meron!! ahaha"

ang gaganda pala ng BOYS namin!.. ahahahhaa...

according to the boys...(classroom only) ang hinde mag lipgloss BADING!

ahaha

so funny! hmmm hinde nag lipgloss si CARLOS and AARON nahihiya eh...

waaaah... nag cram kami kanina because of RHGP and HISTORY... waaaaaaahh

Kumain kami sa KENS! mmmmm... sarap!

well wala kaming magawa... so si genesis.. nagpasimula ng lahat... nag conference kami sa YM.. then ayun... different topics ang na discuss.. amp.. nag LIVE SHOW ako ahahah sa webcam!wala kasi akong magawa... ayun na SISA na naman ako.. okei lang minsan lang magwala! nanood sina yani, bea, ayeth, josh, desi, at gens... so cool.. here's the pic.. ginawa ni BEA.. ahahan i love you...

dehmonyita: yohann's way of self satisfaction....
Bea Hidalgo: yoan have mercy....
yani: natatae ako s mga poses m yo!
Gens: HALIMAW SA BANGA!!!!!
Josh Acosta: di na ako matutulog!

I love it!

loser guys!

2006-01-11T04:07:00.000-08:00

PUTANGINA niyong mga lalaki kayo!

Wala kayong karapatan saktan kaibigan ko!

Ang epal talaga! ang sasama talaga ng ugali ng mga lalaki! i hate you! sorry nalang kung guilty ka! wala kayong karapatan para saktan kaming mga babae! nuknukan pa kayo ng mga sinungaling! ang lalandi niyo pa! what ever.. well para naman dun sa mga "MABABAIT" well sana naman wag kayong tumulad sa mga iba dyan..

Alam niyo guys.. ang babae minamahal yan.. kahit gaano pa yan ka panget, ka flirt, ka bitch.. okei?! kahit anung sabhn mo.. kailanagn mong respetuhin at mahalin yan.. dahil.. madali kaming masaktan... madali kaming iwan.. at kung pwede sana.. maging honest naman kayo samin.. wag nio naman kaming ipag mukhang tanga..

Kung nasa isang relasyon ka.. advice ko sayo.. be loyal and faithful.. at be honest as well.. lalo na if you love her.. kasi once na mawala siya sayo.. you'll regret it! i swear.. dont ever lie to them kasi hinde mo alam kung gaano katindi ang binibigay nilang pagmamahal sainyong mga lalaki... sana naman ma consensya kayo.. wag niyo silang paiyakin.. kasi pag nag mahal ang isang babae.. totoo yun.. eh kayo mga lalaki? ang kakapal ng mukha nio! liligawligawan nio mga babae.. tapos.. pag sinagot na sa una lang sweet.. tapos pag nakuha na yung gusto, basta nalang iiwan.. wag naman ganun!!! hinde niyo ba alam kung gaano kasakit yun?? RESPETUHIN niyo naman kaming mga babae! REQUEST lang po..

pictures

2006-01-01T20:11:00.000-08:00

Photoshop...

I LOve this.. just exploring my photoshop!

I made this!

Paolo made this fror me! ahaha.. buti iniwan mo pa yung mukha ko! ahahah!

2006-01-01T04:27:00.000-08:00

Sometimes.. Letting it out can make a big difference..

Happy new year everyone!

Sa mga sad dyan.. this is for you...

Even in pain, even in anger, there remains a spark of love..

Time doesn't really heal all wounds. Nor does it always make letting go easier to endure.

Unintentional pain - is still pain.

For every loss, there is always something to be gained.

Maybe the worst pain of love are caused by the regrets

Maybe it's true. Maybe you really can hear a heart when it breaks.

Love hurts . . . That's what they all say,But I will love again when all this pain and sorrow goes away.

Understanding is an important part of loss. And, invariably, almost impossible to find.

Memories, binding us to a past we long to forget, can be difficult to escape

Whether spoken or silent, there is a promise in loving someone. When the love is lost, the promises broken, the pain still remains.

Sometimes you can reach and reach and reach, and still never connect.

The end isn't always just an end. Sometimes, usually, it's also a new beginning…

Even when a relationship is over, the love can still go on forever...

Para naman sa mga inlove!

Could You Be The One For Me?

Could you be the one for me?
Could you be my find?
Could it be, after all this time,
Fate is going to be kind?

Could you be the one for me,
The one to help me forget
The man that broke my heart, my soul
The man that haunts me yet?

You tell me that I'm beautiful
Something I've never heard
But the one still lives here in my mind
That couldn't spare a kind word

It's going to be hard to forget
And pick up the pieces he left
Could you be the one to teach
How to love again and forget?

Could you be the one to come
And mend my broken heart?
Are you willing to piece together
What another broke apart?

It won't be an easy job, you see
My road has been long and rough
And the heart that was once so soft
Is now shut, locked, and tough

But I can feel my heart open again
It's opening for you
Just come in, and love me back
That's all you have to do

I must ask you one small thing
Before we kiss and part
Please be nice and kind to me
I'm tired of broken hearts

hectic schedule!

2005-12-25T03:03:00.000-08:00

Hectic Schedule!

Tuesday-My relatives will be staying here to have a vacation! My Tita gave me lots of clothes, accessories, Bags.. from Gap and Banana republic! and Thanks to my Grandama! she bought me MAC COSMETICS! yahoo! I really love it.. except the color of the lipstick.. Its kinda light.. I want something bronze.. or light brown.. to make it alive! hmm.. it includes.. [mascara, pressed powder, blush, lipstick, lipglass(aka lipshine)] and my auntie gave me a lipstick from victoria secret and another lipshine.. what canI ask for?? I already received all the things I wanted for christmas! except the contacts! Im asking my dad to buy me some..

Thursday- hmmm.. we went to MAkati Shangri-la hotel to eat our lunch.. we always do that! whenever my uncle stays here for a vacation.. hhmmm... I really love their food.. and the drumblee is really good! their chef is really good.. the dishes were all good! ahahha REALLY GOOD! ALL GOOD! then we went shopping.. my Auntie bought me lots of clothes...

Friday- We had our dinner at Friday's! i really missed the down east fisherman's platter! my all time favorite!! hmm.. i wasn't able to finish my sandwich.. [chicken finger BLT] though its really good.. hmm.. maybe because they have a big serving!

Saturday- we went to the Hard Rock Cafe.. this is really my most embarrassing experience! its like this.. my mom, my dad and I were planning to wear shirt and jeans.. casual... then my uncle was looking at us.,. maybe he's wondering why we're wearing a shirt and jeans outfit.. because he thought it was a formal dinner so when we're already dressing up.. my dad saw my uncle preparing his Tux yeah... his Tux!! I mean hello....??? there's a live band and we're gonna dance all night!! and you want us to wear a formal outfit???? yeah i didnt have a choice but to wear a dress which is really uncomfortable!! i didnt dance.. I just ate my steak.. and watched the live band! i was suppose to stay there till 3 am! but because of embarrassment,, I am forced to go home early! around 10:30pm! too early huh grrr..! i really hate it!

Sunday- went to grandma's place.. we usually stay there every christmas with the whole family! eat lunch altogether and relatives go to different houses to ask for christmas present.. which is usually money! it was a disaster! really! coz there were people that just go into the house and ask for "PAMASKO"(the giving of money) and we dont even know them.. most of them are kids.. but the adults were also hungry for Pamasko! ahahhaa.. Well I also did Pamasko but only to my titos and titas! ehehhehe.. huhuhu.. last year is better! coz I collected around 18000[I used that to buy my digi cam].. huhuu now i think 1/4 nalng of 18000!!

15 years from now?

2005-12-22T10:41:00.000-08:00

15 years from now?

Hmm.. nagusap kami ni yani.. ehehe/... 2am na ngayon.. well.. naglolokohan lang kami,, iniisip namin.. what if eto ang mangyari,. 15 years from now? may mga nagartista.. naging pok pok.. nag karon ng kabit.. sumikat... nanganak... nagpaksal...nag sundalo.. nabading... naging model... madaming nangyari... ano kaya kung mangyari toh? hmm.. wag naman sana.. pero kung gusto niong malaman kung sino kau 15 years from now.. basahin nio etong tsismisan namin ni yani... walang maooffend dahil.. biruan lang eto... kung tamaan ka man sorryy.. pero wag kang KJ.. wag ma guilty dahil hinde naman ito totoo...

yani: kmsta k n?!
yani: long time no see ah
Chui: ahahahha
Chui: o san ka na ngaun?
Chui: malamig ba dyan?
Chui: ako eto naka heater
yani: ganda m n pla ah?!
Chui: ehehehe
Chui: oo nga eh
yani: adik k n b ngyn?!
Chui: kaw rin
Chui: pumayat ka ata?
yani: nga eh
yani: nag pupururot diet ako
Chui: ahahhaha masarap ba? todo ginhawa no
Chui: ?
Chui: ahahhaa
Chui: balita ko may bf ka na daw ah
yani: pumayat k dn eh...kya lng halatang halata n nag dadrugs ka eh
Chui: kwento ka naman
yani: nga eh
yani: sikat siya...
Chui: oo nga eh.. mga lecheng pusher kasi eh
Chui: di ako tinatantanan!~
yani: sikat na
yani: wait yn bf k muna
yani: !
Chui: ows?
yani: sikat siya...
yani: sikat na...
yani: golfer
yani: name nya...
Chui: ahahha
Chui: wow kau na pala ni junro?
Chui: congrats pare
Chui: ahahhahaha
yani: hnd chungak!migo ochoa...kilala m b sya?
Chui: lam mo bang nagkatuluyan kami ni migo
Chui: ?
yani: ha?!
Chui: syet 7 na anak namin ngaun
yani: akin yun eh!
Chui: may business nga kami eh
yani: kmi 7
yani: ...75
Chui: aahhahahahaha
yani: yung bf ko kilala siya sa tawag na...
Chui: baka ikaw yung sinasabi niya saking kabit niya?
yani: cguro nga
Chui: ok lang di namana ako selosa eh
yani: okay lng yan frnds share evrythng!
Chui: yep
yani: even guys!
yani: and *totoot!*
Chui: eehhhee
Chui: ahahhahaha
Chui: gago
yani: eheheh!
Chui: o ano na trabaho mo ngaun?
yani: ako nga nagpasikat dun eh!
Chui: kelan ka ikakasal?
yani: kya nga twg nila dun...
yani: kung kelan mo pirmahan ag divorce papers
yani: mag papakasal n kmi!
Chui: ah ganun ba...
yani: ni
yani: migo
yani: aka
yani: muging kahoy!
Chui: sige mag hintay ka nalang muna ng gold anni namin
Chui: ahhahah
yani: okay!
yani: im ready 2 wait
Chui: okie
Chui: no problem!
yani: ....ay wag nlng pla!
Chui: nandyan naman siya tuwing maddaling araw diba?
Chui: bakit namna>
yani: c erika nlng aagwan ko...tutal fiance plng nmn nya c pacman!
Chui: ows?
Chui: sige swerte mo dun dami kotse
Chui: ahahhaha
yani: nga eh!
yani: puro bakal nmn katawan!
yani: mabigat un!
Chui: oi nabalitaan mo ba si robin at bea ikakasal na?
yani: oo nga dw eh!
Chui: punta tau!
yani: c junro at c mika nga rn eh
Chui: march 11 daw
yani: o?!
Chui: oo
yani: hnd nga invited c jordan
Chui: ows? so break na pala si jayson at mika?
yani: ha?!
Chui: diba may isa silang anak?
yani: hnd # 2 nya un!
Chui: ah ganun ba
yani: c junro ang pakakasalan niya
Chui: aaaaaahhh
yani: ay johann may kailangan kng malaman!
Chui: ano?
yani: may # 3 4 5 at 6 ang asawa mo!
yani: c madel
yani: carla
yani: seig
yani: at
Chui: ok lang loyal naman sakin un kahit unfaithful
yani: dana!
Chui: ehehhehe
Chui: ahahhahaa
yani: ang alin ang loyal syu?!
yani: anung parte?!
yani: puso?!
yani: hnde rn!
Chui: hinde
Chui: yung toooot
Chui: ahahhahahahha
yani: akn n yun eh!kya lng ayw k n sknya!
yani: la nang pera!
Chui: ahahahahhaa
Chui: lam mo ba may tsismis!!!
yani: pinag paaral s mga anak nyo!
yani: anu?!
Chui: ahahahahhaha
yani: ang sakit n ng tenga ko!kaka hawak ng phne!
Chui: si nicole nanganak na! kambal!!!
yani: yn b ang tsismis?!
Chui: oo!
yani: o?!
yani: anung
yani: pangalan?!
Chui: hinde daw si hans ang ama
yani: rudolph
yani: at
yani: red nose?!
Chui: hinde
yani: oo alm k parehas silang R!
Chui: oo nga
Chui: at eto pa... si seig single pa rin ngayun!
Chui: himala diba?!
yani: anu k b!
Chui: ahahhaa
yani: # 5 siya ng asawa mo!
Chui: pero la parin anak
Chui: ahahhaha
Chui: baog daw si seig eh
Chui: si madel may isa pang asawa... nagkatuluyan pala sila ni genesis?
Chui: sweet naman nila
yani: oo nga dw eh
Chui: nakakinggit!
yani: ok ng baog c seig...
yani: at least
yani: nabawasan ang mga
yani: VATA d2 s pinas!
Chui: ahahahhahahahah
Chui: ganun ba?
Chui: lam mo bang nag babatuhan na ng mga gamit si desi at ayeth nagyun?
Chui: kakatawag lang niya sakin!
Chui: umiiyak na naman ang bruha!
yani: o?!
Chui: as usual!
yani: alm m bng
Chui: la naman nagbago!
yani: POK POK nko ngyn!
Chui: ows?
yani: kya k nga nakilala yng asawa m!
Chui: di ang yaman mo na pala?
yani: pero POK2 n may class
yani: escort lng!
yani: wlng sex
Chui: next week aalis na kami ng asawa ko eh..
yani: sn kyo ppnta?
Chui: magbabakasyon sa paris
Chui: 150th honeymoon! (since highschool days)
yani: kaya pla minove nya yng smn nxt month!
yani: oo nga eh!
Chui: san naman daw kau punta?
yani: ang hilig tlga ni migo noh?!
yani: db hs plng?!
Chui: oo nga eh
yani: mga tao tlga hnd nagbabago!
yani: kme?!
Chui: o nga eh
yani: dun!
yani: s vatican city!
Chui: wow
Chui: pasalubong ko ah
yani: pero tatakpan k siya lagi bka matunaw eh!
Chui: ahahahhaa
yani: sure anung gs2 m?!bagong rosary?
Chui: sige sana
yani: ay alm k n!
Chui: oi minsan bisita ka naman dito sa bahay
yani: babaguhn k nlng yng asawa mo!yun nlng x mas gft k syo!
yani: tps bebreakn k n sya!
Chui: sasabhn ko sa chef namin na ipag luto ka ng special na food
yani: pra 5 nlng kaagw m!
Chui: wala naman akong kaagaw eh..
yani: ay may chef kyo?!kala ko poor lng kyo eh!
Chui: hayaan mo sila
Chui: diba nga mag paparis kami?
yani: ah oo!
Chui: oi
Chui: kamusta na nga pala si czarina?
yani: hay nko!hnd k nnmn nabantayan ang wallet ko!
Chui: hayaan mo na!
yani: naka kupit nnmn ang asawa mo!
yani: c cza?!
Chui: oo
yani: ayn sila n ni paolo
yani: at ang mga anak...
yani: pag labas s nanay may salamin!
yani: o db?!
yani: sosyal!
Chui: wow!
Chui: kakaiba yu ah
Chui: mga dambuhla din ba?
yani: ikw nung nanganak k edi ang daming excess fats?!!
Chui: oo noh grabe
yani: oo pro mas malalaki ang nga ank mo
yani: btw
yani: pno nga b kyo nagka2luyn?!
yani: e dba galit n galit syu un?
Chui: well
Chui: hinde niya ako natiis
Chui: actually.. hinde nga yata yun ang nanyari
Chui: hinde ko na kasi maalala
Chui: ay lam mo ba
Chui: wag mo akong isusumbong sa asawa ko ah
yani: anu?!
Chui: may boylet ako ngayon
yani: buhay nanay tlga noh?!
yani: walang magawa kunde mag hanap ng...
yani: tsismis?!
Chui: ahahhaa
yani: dami mong alm eh!
yani: cnu nnmn boylet m?!
yani: ay huhulaan ko!
yani: c ACOSTA noh?!
Chui: actually kakatapos lang namin mag break
yani: ha?!
Chui: bago to pare
yani: loko2 k pla kya pla ganun c migo
yani: naglolokohn lng kyo eh!
yani: sumama k nga smn s vatican
Chui: ok lang yun... pareho naman kaming masaya eh
yani: sa bagay!
yani: correct!

yani: may tma ka!

yani: o cnu n yng boylet m?!

yani: c carla nga pla anu?!

Chui: si machang!

Chui: wag ka maingay ah! hinde alam ni mikha

!yani: natupad ang mga dreams cla n migo!

yani: oo cge!

yani: promise

yani: ikw nmn oh

yani: prng hnde mko kilala lht tinatago ko

Chui: uy alam mo bang artista na ngayon si abby

yani: o?!

Chui: oo!

yani: sn?

Chui: natanggap siya sa audition ng kampanerang kuba part 5

yani: o?!

Chui: oo

Chui: asenso

Chui: laki nga daw ng talent fee eh

yani: edi siya n ang bagong IMANG?!C

hui: hinde na daw kasi kailangan lagayn ng mg cosmetics

yani: ang pinakamagandng babae s balat ng lupa

Chui: ahahhaa

yani: ay eto pa!

yani: magpapakasal n dw c hans s bumbay!

yani: ang greatest fear nya datI!

Chui: ows?

yani: OO

yani: c mara sumali s filipino idol!

Chui: o kamusta namamn daw?

yani: at part time job nya nag pag hehenna tatoooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

Chui: ows?

yani: oo

Chui: edi malaki na pala ung businss niya?

Chui: may ari daw ng ABS-CBN ang napangasawa niya ah

yani: oooooo dw!

]yani: tgnn m yng pic nmn ang sweet noh?!

Chui: oo nga eh

yani: halatang halata bng ayw k s aswa m?!

Chui: ahhahaa

yani: pineperahn k lng nmn un eh

yani: sori ah!

Chui: ok lang

Chui: marami pa anamn kaming pera eh

Chui: lagi nag akong ginugulo niyan pag gabi

Chui: hinde ako makatulog

Chui: pinupuyat ako

yani: anung cnasbe?!

Chui: magtimpla daw ako ng GATAS

yani: ay sus kla k nmn kng ano!

Chui: heheehee

Chui: napano na pala si mae?

yani: well ayun

yani: nagkatuluyn cla n JL

Chui: wow good for them

Chui: balita o isang dosena anak nila ah

yani: nga eh!

Chui: mahilig daw mangalabit sa gabi si mae eh

Chui: nagaaya!

yani: nga dw actually mg thithirteen n

Chui: ows?

Chui: sosyalen!

yani: c paolo!?

Chui: wala na akong balita sknya

yani: nanliligw skn...

yani: at ky madel

Chui: ows?

yani: pti n rn ky mika!

yani: syo hnd b?

Chui: hinde eh

Chui: pero tinetext niya ako ngayon

yani: ay pare

yani: hnd!

yani: c gens pla un!

yani: c pao...ayn bumigay!

yani: na bading na!

Chui: ah ganun ba?

yani: oo!

Chui: kala ko magpapari un?

Chui: lam mo abng galit na galit si madel kay gens!

yani: nagka22o yng kinakanta k sknya ng hs...

yani: "oh noh!my bestfrnds GAY!"

Chui: ahahahhaha

yani: bkt dw galit?!

Chui: eh pano kasi noh! nag seselos si madel! napaka selosa talaga nun! ang daming model kasi na nag hahabol kay gens eh!

yani: oh?!

Chui: oo

yani: bench body model nga dw c gens ngyn

yani: actually...

Chui: grabe nga eh ang macho!

yani: model ng brief!!!!!!!!

Chui: balita ko lumaki daw ah!

yani: aln?

Chui: alam mo na kung ano ung tinutukoy ko!

yani: ah!

yani: ikw tlga L k prn!

yani: LOVELY!

Chui: eh sino ba nagturo sakin?

yani: c ****

Chui: well ganun talaga pag magaling!

Chui: flexible eh

yani: tinuruan k nya tps tinuruan mko...tps sya nm,n nagtuturo skn ngyn

Chui: galing diba?

yani: correct!

yani: mo!

Chui: masarap ba?

yani: i thnk ur going too far!

yani: its a BIG! secret

Chui: masarap ba?

Chui: masarap ba siya mag mahal?

yani: oo!

yani: pti mag luto!

yani: pro lagi kmng nagaaway

yani: eh

Chui: bakit naman!

Chui: binubugbog??

yani: oo paminsn minsan

yani: pro ang main reason...

yani: mas mahal nya xe yng ibng kabit nya kaysa skn!

yani: alm m nmn un!

yani: lagi aqng hinuhula hs plng

Chui: ganun ba?

yani: ooooo!

Chui: ok lang yan

yani: oi! c aaron n dw ang namamahala ng villa escudero

Chui: ows?

yani: mag papakasal n cla n steph

Chui: talaga?

yani: oo

Chui: invited ba tau?

yani: pro bgo nangyari un nalipat mna s pangaln n mika ang villa E

yani: so villa mika lee n yun

Chui: edi mayaman na pala si mika ngaun?

Chui: grabe

yani: hnd!pangaln lng sknya

Chui: ngak!

Chui: ahahahaha

yani: nabawe ng lawyer n aaron yng properties

Chui: aaaaaaahhhh

Chui: mayaman naman si junro eh

yani: nga eh!

yani: 10 dw nag bahay mgkakadikit!

yani: tps nag kokotche p s loob ng bahay!

Chui: sheeeett... gusto kong bumisita!

yani: sosyal!

yani: tara bisita tyo bukas

Chui: ok lang yun

Chui: sige sige

yani: may ampon nga dw cla eh...!

yani: ni mika!

Chui: bakit hinde natin imbitahin ung mga iba nating kakosa?

Chui: reunion tau!

Chui: babae o lalaki yung ampon?

yani: walang kasarian!

yani: ROBOT eh!

Chui: astig!

yani: ocge reunion tyo!

Chui: ay nasabi ko na ba sau na kakabili lang namin ni carlos ng kotse?

yani: san?!

yani: o?!

Chui: oo

yani: anung klse yun b yng lumilipad?!

Chui: sige lilipad nalang kami doon

Chui: oo

yani: bibilhn dn dw nya k nun eh!

Chui: di masya

yani: ui!

yani: c rambo dw

Chui: sinong rambo?

yani: anu k b changak c iris!

yani: ayun nsa mindanao!

Chui: o anung ginagawa dun?

yani: sumasaksak ng ABU CHUNGAXXXXXXX

Chui: bakit? ano daw problema niya?

yani: e xe...

yani: sundalo n sya!

yani: cguro kasali k dun noh?!

yani: eh chungax k dn eh!

Chui: ganda ng joke mah

yani: hnd joke un!

yani: seryosom aq

Chui: well hinde naman

Chui: hoy mare!

yani: anu?

Chui: kahapon pa tayo nag tsitsismisan!

yani: nga eh!

Chui: inabot na tau ng als dos

Chui: ng umaga

yani: baka abutn tyo ng 10 yrs dito!

Chui: ahahhaha

Chui: o basta magkita tau bukas ah

Chui: inaantok na ako eh

Chui: nangagalabit na naman mister ko

yani: cge!!!

Chui: magtimpla daw ako ng gatas

yani: it was nice talking 2 u again!

Chui: oo nga eh

Chui: namiss kita bruha!

yani: and finding out we have 1 thng in common!!

yani: ...!

yani: migo

Chui: ahahhahahha

yani: cge bye na!

Chui: my worst nightmare!

yani: ahaha!

Chui: rawr!

yani: sira!

yani: kabooooooooooooom

Chui: bye bye!

Chui: mwah

yani: sa mga makakabasa po nito!walang ma oofend ah!inembe2 lng nmn toh!walang magagalit LALO KA NA!IKW NA NAG BABASA nito!

feelings!

2005-12-20T06:51:00.000-08:00

"Love is what people can't skip in life"

-Carlos

Babalikang Muli

Pinilit kong limutin ka nang iwan mong bigo ang puso ko Nilimot na kita sa buhay kong mag-isa Nguni't bakit ngayo'y ikaw pa rin ang hinahanap ko Babalikang muli mga araw at sandali Kahit wala ka sa king piling iniibig kita Yan ang sigaw ng puso ko Saan ka man naroroon pa Una pa lang nakita ka ang buhay ko'y laan na sa iyo Kapwa tayong hibang nangakong mag-iibigan Binigay ko'ng lahat Minahal ka ng buong tapat Babalikang muli mga araw at sandali Kahit wala ka sa king piling iniibig kita Yan ang sigaw ng puso ko Saan ka man naroroon pa Hindi kahit `sang saglit Mawawaglit sa puso kahit kailan Babalikang muli kahit ako'y nasasaktan Hindi kita malilimutan kahit na sabihin Na luluhang muli sa `yo Ibabalik ko ang kahapon Ibabalik ko ang kahapon Babalikang muli mga araw at sandali Kahit wala ka sa king piling iibigin ka Sigaw ng puso ko Mahal pa rin kita Saan ka man naroroon pa..

Separate Lives

You called me from the room in your hotel All full of romance for someone that you met And telling me how sorry you were, leaving so soon And that you miss me sometimes when you’re alone in your room Do I feel lonely too? You have no right to ask me how I feel You have no right to speak to me so kind We can’t go on just holding on to time Now that we’re living separate lives Well I held on to let you go And if you lost your love for me, well you never let it show There was no way to compromise So now we’re living Separate lives it’s so typical, love leads to isolation So you build that wall Yes, you build that wall And you make it stronger Well you have no right to ask me how I feel You have no right to speak to me so kind Some day I might find myself looking in your eyes But for now, we’ll go on living separate lives Yes for now, we’ll go on living separate lives...

Perfect Christmas

My idea of a perfect christmasis to spend it with youin a party or dinner for two anywhere will do celeberting the yuletide seasonal ways lights up our lives simple pleasure are made special too when they’re shared with you
Looking through some old photograph faces and friends will always remember watching busy shoppers rushing about in the cold breeze of december sparkling lights all over town childrens carol in the air by the christmas tree a shower of stardust on your hair
I can’t think of a better christmas than my wish coming true and my wish is that you’ll let me spend my whole life with you
My idea of a perfect christmasis spending it with you

In the Name of LOve

I'd still remember The day we first meet There was love all around You and me You gazed me Like the morning sun Shining through my life But seasons changed Turned the sun into rain And love was gone Now we can't hold on I did everything in the name of love I did everything But the fights went on and on I tried to give in But you keep on breaking my heart Can't we just stop Make it right in the name of love In the name of love I can't remember The last time you said You will love me forever and everIf this is true we should make it last And start over again We need to change No more pride and the pain You'd understand me Coz I understand you..

Miss You

Miss you… Everyday and every night, this feeling I’d fight Try as I might but I won’t win, I surrender, I’d die You are winning here alright Every morning when the sun would shine on me I’d flash a smile but deep inside I feel so sad and lonely I need you here and now I miss you It’s crazy to pretend that I don’t think of you The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow I miss you Oh how much longer can I hold on to Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too Miss you… All I want is for this love to last forever You walked away, never came back, oh I tried to recover I can’t bear it boy alright When I hear a song that we had used to share I’ll try as I might to hide the tears, and when the pain is over I’ll wish that you are near I miss you It’s crazy to pretend that I don’t think of you The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow I miss you Oh how much longer can I hold on to Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too Miss you…

"You can break love, but it won't die"

-Johann

bivouac

2005-12-18T17:02:00.000-08:00

BIVOUAC

woohoo.. goodmorning ebwiwan!!! we had our bivouac yesterday! it was really fun! although the weather is not that good.. i really had a great time with my friends... On the first day.. we were so energetic.. grabe.. lalo na sa bus.. then.. nag firing kami.... well.. sabi ni kuya pwede na daw.. hihi... but.. carlos is really good... galing... 5 bullets malapit sa center.. galing ah! si erika din galing! anyways.. after that.. we went to alfonso cavite.. tapos un.. we weren't able to finish the 1st activity due to the bad weather.. then they allotted two hours for the chuva ever cooking.. so we were asked to get our things in the bus.. pero the driver was not there.. so we have to wait.. and it took us how many hours to get the things needed for the cooking and all that.. haha.. it was really memorable.. ahahha.. our gas range has a leak that's why we weren't able to stop the fire.. and the teachers asked the students to stay away.. coz according to our physics teacher and adviser.. [mrs. indiongco] it will explode.. and i was expecting that also.. but.. it didnt.. whew... buti nalang! ahahhaa... and because of that we need to share stove with our boys! buti nalang mabait sila.. so we decided to merge... haha.. the rice alone took how many hours bago maluto ..ahahaha.. nakakatawa talaga.. while waiting.. ayun.. bonding with mr. tabajonda and mrs. indiongco.. ahahaha.. kulit nila.. tawa lang kami ng tawa.. tapos yun.. ang tagal sobra maluto ng rice.. kasi sobrang dami!!! kawawa naman boys namin.. kumain sila ng BIGAS ahahahhaa.. meaning the rice is uncooked! ahahha.. oh well.. they need to suffer a little kasi gutom na talaga sila.. ahahaha.. haaayyy.. we didnt have our bonfire na.. huhuhu.. tapos yun.. pinatulog na kami.. grabe di kami kasya sa tent!buti pa yung boys namin 3 tent nila.. eh one squad lang naman sila eh.. so ayun.. yung isang tent for the bags and all the materials they brought and the other 2 tents para tulugan nila.. grabe! sana naman binigay nalang nila yun samin! ahahaha.. ayun.. the next day... nag fix na kami.. wala na kaming phyical training.. so nag luto na kami kaagad.. nauna na kami para naman yung boys maka luto din.. unfortunately the stove ran out of gas!!!! ahaha.. pero naluto na namin yung tuna with tomato! weird huh?! aahhaha... ngayon isa pang kawawa yung boys namin.. ahhaha.. hinde na sila nag luto.. nag skyflakes nalng sila and tuna.. so after eating.. me, madel, mika and seig went to the campsite of the boys.. kasi ang saya nila dun eh.. well hinde namin alam na bawal girls dun.. ang alam lang namin bawal matulog girls dun! aahahaha.. si junro kasi nag rarap! ang kulit.. nandun sin sila nina, cza, marielle and toni.. ahaahaha.. then mr. capistrano saw us! shocks!! "what are you doing here? diba bawal ang boys sa campsite niyo? same thing here.. kung pinag squat thrust ko sila.. dapat fair.. GIVE ME TEN SQUAT THRUST!!" tadah!!!! ahahahahah shocks.. the boys in that campsite were all looking at us! what a good morning!!!!!!!! ahahhahah.. pero ok lang.. kasi masaya naman eh.. tawa kami ng tawa.. ahahaha.. tapos nun takbo agad.. hmmm... because we need to form na? or because of embarrassment? ahahhaa... sabi nung boys dapat daw sila ang gagawa ng punishment namin.. how sweet naman.. pero hinde nila ginawa! ahahhaa.. ayun.. ginawa na namin yung other activities! rappelling, obstacle course and the slide for life! hooooo! sarap.. yung isang activity hinde namin nagawa.. yung rope course! ok lang.. at least nagawa namin yung slide for life.. sarap! ahahha.. tapos.. we also did our survival cookin.. wherein we need to cook our rice in a bamboo but of course we need to make a fire.. waaahhh.. we had a hard time making that fire! buti nalang nandyan si kuya! tinulungan kami! tapos yun.. kami unang nakaluto ng rice.. then we killed the chicken... kawawa naman.. yun.. ginawa nalng naming breaded boneless chicken! ahaha.. and it tastes like cockroach! eeeeww.. ung niluto namin red tilapia is really good.. we really thank god for all of that! tapos yun.. we were asked to fix our things na.. coz we need to go home already.. awwwwwwwwwww so sad... yun.. una.. kulitan sa bus pero after awhile.. natulog na din.. ehhehe.. ayun.. nakadating kami sa skul around 9pm..

"merry christmas everyone! 3 months nalng graduate na! huhu.. bye seniors! i will surely miss you! i love you guys! you will forever stay in my heart.. wlang makaklimot ha!"

field trip and xmas party

2005-12-16T02:00:00.000-08:00

Field trip and x mas party!

we had our field trip yesterday.. it was fun... i really had a great time especially with.. ibarra... yes.. i know you know him.. hmmm.. kulit nga eh.. kaya nga super duper saya ng field trip namin! atually hinde yung fieldtrip eh.. yung sa bus! ahahha Joyride!! astig

Kanina.. we had our xmas party.. ang babait ng mga pagsasarili children.. sobra.. ang kyooot... tapos kanina.. may tumataswag sakin.. si Ibarra.. hmmm.. binigyan niya me ng chocolate.. sweet naman! i love chocolates!!!!!!!! ahahhaha... hmmm,, kaya lang medyo nalungkot ako.. kasi.. kailangan niya na umalis nun eh.. o diba nag paalam pa siya sakin.. sabi niya na aalis na siya.. huhuhu.. kasama niya friends niya.. hmmm... namimiss ko na siya.. and mamimiss ko siya lalo ngayon xmas.. hmmmm.. di bale.. kita nalang siguro kami noh?? aahhaha... may webcam naman siya eh.. webcam nalng kaming dalawa! la pa nga me regalo sknya and sa friends ko eh.. bibili nalang me.. ehehehhe.. dito matutulog sila madel! yey!!!

I love this picture!

me and ...

again and again..

mymp and peter

2005-12-10T18:04:00.000-08:00

MYMP and PETER!

we went to concordia last night! ehehe.. with mika, dana, seig, yani, albert and some of the juniors! (alva, camz, x, anne etc..) ehehhe.. grabe that night sobrang united ang juniors and seniors.. parang walang intrams na nangyari! ehehehe.. and tuwang tuwa ung mga juniors kay yani! ang kulit kasi eh! ehehhehe..

nakakainis lang kasi ang daming nag perform na hinde naman namin kilala.. hinde tuloy nakin ma-appreciate! ahahhaha.. nakakinis nga eh..anyways.. habang nagkukulitan kami.. napatingin ako sa may right side ko...and I saw Peter! yeah.. haaayyy.. hinde na tuloy me nag enjoy! and yes.. he's with maiza.. his girlfriend! bruha yung babaeng yun! naiinis talaga ako saknya.. simula nung itext niya ako at sinabing tigilan ko daw ang pag text ko kay peter? WTF?!!! sino ba siya? bakit mag asawa ba sila? and first of all.. hinde ko nilalandi si peter! as if naman noh!? bakit masama bang makipag kaibigan sa taong dati kong minahal?? kapal naman ng mukha niyang siraain friendship namin ni peter! baka nakakalimutan niyang mas matagal kami nag sama ni peter kaysa saknya! bruha siya! ang kapal ng mukha niyang irapan ako! and one more thing! she doesnt have the right to judge me ok? sayang binibigyan ko pa naman ng advice si peter everytime na hihinge siya sakin dahil nag away kayo! alam mo.. kung hinde ka marunong makisama sa mga importanteng tao sa buhay ni peter.. mabuti pang iwan mo nalang siya! kaysa naman isa isang mawala yung mga taong nagmamahal sknya ng dahil lang dyan sa selos mo! okie? hinde mo naman kailangan mag selos sakin.. dahil hinde ko naman aagawin sayo si peter! at wala akong balak ok?! kahit tanungin mo pa siya kung gaano ko ka mahal yung taong special sa buhay ko! kung ano man yung nangyari samin before.. tapos na yun ok? sus! mga bata pa kami nun! alam mo ang masasabi ko sayo? ang swerte mo dahil mahal ka ni peter at masyado siyang pasensyoso.. malas nga lang niya dahil nag karoon siya ng gf na ang kitid ng utak at lahat ng tao pinagseselosan! alam mo hinde kau magtatagal kung ganyan nlang ang ugaling ipinapalit mo sa mabuting ugali na pinapakita niya sayo... napaka immature mo.. kung maiinis ka naman sa mga sinasabi ko ngayon sorry.. pero sinsasbi ko lang ang totoo! magagalit ka lang talaga kung guilty ka dahil sa mga sinabi ko! kung mahal mo si peter.. dapat mahalin mo rin yung mga taong importante sa knya at bahagi ng buhay niya! ok?

at isa ka pa peter! akala ko pa naman ikaw yung kaibigan ko na hinde ako iiwan kahit anung mangyari! yun pala girlfriend lang ang katapat mo.. tandaan mo na ang girlfriend mong yan maari yang mawala.. pero wag na wag mong tatalikuran mga kaibigan mo.. dahil sila yung taong hinde ka iiwan kahit na maghiwalay man kau ng gf mo.. alam mo hinde ko akalain na masasaktan ako ng ganito! ang laki kasi ng expectation ko sayo eh.. sayang lang talaga yung friendship.. nanghihinayang ako.. pero.. choice mo yan eh.. basta.. dadating yung time na ma rerealize mo kung gaano kahalaga ang mga kaibigan sa buhay ng isang tao.. kahit na isa lang akong nawala sa buhay mo.. wag mo na hayaang dumating yung point na isa isa silang mawala sa buhay mo..

yiheee..

2005-12-05T04:33:00.000-08:00

yiheeeee..

Yehey.. Im so happy today... ehhehee ang dami kasing nangyayari eh... anyways... grabe... ewan ko ba... una nakita ko na yung card ko and tumaas lahat... tapos.. kanina.. nagusap kami.. ehehehe.. yehey.. personal ah.. ehehhe.. loko talaga un.. anyways.. ewan ko ba.. ang saya ko talaga! kahit merong mga surot sa buhay ko.. na ayaw akong maging masaya.. eto parin.. gumaganda parin araw ko! bait talaga ni God.. he's so great! kahit na sobrang i feel down na talaga.. He finds a way to make me happy.. kala ko pag uwi ko sa bahay malulungkot me... ehehhee... hinde pala.. ahahhaha.. saya ko! basta yun na yun! kahit maraming may ayaw sknya for me.. ok lang.. kasi alam kong masaya ako.. I know na kahit ganun siya.. may good side parin siya.. diba?? ehehehe... bes supportive nalang! okie?? love you guys! mwah!

Eto pa.. Kanina.. we went to jollibee.. tapos.. ayun.. kwentuhan ever! at kilala na ni madski si JA RULE! ehehhe and take note.. ok lang daw sknya.. at sya pa nag sabi na bagay sila ni... toooooot.. basta yun.. ehehehe.. yehey.. wala ng secrets sa mag bebestfriends! so happy...

at last!

2005-12-02T20:36:00.000-08:00

At last! its finally over!

haaaayyy.. nakakapagod yung kahapon.. well buti nalnag tapos na.. wala na ko paki kung maging 4th man kami or wut... basta ang alam ko ginawa na namin yung best namin and tapos na yung cheering competition... eehhehe..

kahapon kala ko matatalo kami sa men's volley.. kinabahan ako dun ah... ang inaantay nlanag namin ung basketball.. double overtime! kaya sa tuesday na yung continuation ng game... during our assembly.. pati ung announcement of winners.. haaaayyy.. its all up to god.. he knows naman na we really did our best.. yung effort na ginawa namin... yung times na 2am kami matutulog making props.. and gigising ng 5:30 am for the cheering practice.. haaaaaaaayy

Kahapon.. grabe yung basketball.. intense!! haha.. galing ni Simon.. halos siya nga lang gumagalaw sa juniors eh.. pati pala si salvi humataw nung na fouled out si simon.. galing!.. Siyempre.. galing din ng Seniors.. si junro hanep eh.. ehehehe.. coach naman namin si masahiro.. galing talaga! ehehehe.. si Carlos nakaktakot kasi baka ma fouled out siya.. siya nalang pag asa ng Seniors.. sana galingan niya..

Tinawagan ako kagabi ni Ibarra.. as usual.. nagulat na naman ako.. ehehhe.. pano naman kasi noh.. pag inaantay ko tawag niya.. hinde siya tatawag.. pag hinde ko naman inaantay bigla siyang tatawag.. wala lang.. nakakgulat lang.. ehehehe..mainit nga ulo niya kahapon eh.. ehehhee.. dahil sa basketball.. hmmm... kamusta na kaya siya?? sabi niya kasi parang mag kakasakit daw siya eh.. sana naman wag.. sabi niya tatawag daw siya later.. eehehe.. sana naman wag niya makalimutan yun.. tsk tsk tsk.. or baka may kausapin na naman siyang babae... ahahhaha joke.. namimiss ko na siya..

haaaaaaayyy... aalis ngayon mga best friends ko.. hinde ako makakasama.. ehehhee.. no money eh.. ehehehe.. next time nalang.. haaaaaaaayy... sayang... di bale.. kakausapin ko nalang si Ibarra.. sige.. bye bye..

Kyoot ng pictures sa taas noh?? ehehhee

*edited* hihihi

what i really feel!

2005-12-01T05:05:00.000-08:00

What I really feel..

OH well.. Eto kakatapos lang ng Cheering practice namin dito sa house... 9pm.. 1st day of our intramurals.. sobrang boring!! bukas pa yung cheering competition namin..NAbabad trip ako ngayon.. and i dunno why... im really confused... well lagi naman eh.. ang daming pumapasok sa utak ko ngayon... YUng makati med, si ibarra, yung mga away away.. mga best friends ko.. yung cheering at lalong lalo na.. si "code name: BLUE".. haaaaaaaayy... diyos ko po! Sana naman matapos na lahat ng to... Bakit parang hinde na naman ako nagiging masaya? ano bang meron? bakit ganun??? kala ko ba okey na lahat? kasi naman eh noh!!! bakit pa kasi siya nag paramdam? ano ba ibig sabihin nun?? gulong gulo na kasi ako eh... hinde ko na alam kung ano gagawin ko.. unang una.. MAsaya na ako... tapos may bigla akong mababalitaan tungkol kay BLUE.. sige sbhn na nating magandang balita.. pero bakit naman biglang sususlpot yung mga ganung bagay kung kelan masya na ako? so ngayon tuloy... sobrang ang daming pumapasok sa utak ko! dapat ba akong maging masaya? maging malungkot? hinde ko na nga alam kung anong dapat kong maramdaman eh! hinde ko alam kung anong ibig niyang sabihin.. pero sana naman.. matuto siyang rumespeto ng damdamin ng iba.. sana naman wag siyang maging selfish at unfair! kasi marami na akong sinakripisyo.. gusto ko ng maging MANHID.. nagawa ko na yun.. pero.. ang hinde ko maintindihan.. bumabalik at bumabalik parin.. sobrang hirap na hirap na ako.. gusto ko na talaga mag college.. Mas magiging masaya ako kung makikita ko siyang maging masaya.. alam kong kayang kaya niya yun.. kaya sana naman.. hayaan niya na akong maging masaya.. dahil alam kong yun rin ang gusto niya para sakin.. at alam kong yon ang makakabuti para saming dalawa.. hinde mo maiiwasang ma miss ang isang tao.. pero kung desidido kang maging masaya at wag ng maskatan muli.. kailangan mong kalimutan ang lahat, mag tiis, at lumayo.. kahit masakit.. kailangan tiisin.. dahil yun lang ang paraan paramakamit mo ang tunay na KALIGAYAHAN!

HAHHAHA... drama ever.. nagsasabi lang naman ako ng totoo eh.. sige.. bye.. sleep na ako!

FORGET IT: POEM

2005-11-24T05:55:00.000-08:00

something from BEA..

F0RGET HiS NAME - F0RGET HiS FACE F0RGET HiS KiSS &' WARM EMBRACE F0RGET THE THiNGS HE USED T0 SAY REMEMBER N0W HE'S G0NE AWAY ... F0RGET THE THiNGS HE USED T0 D0.. F0RGET THE SHiT HE PUT Y0U THR0UGH.. F0RGET THE L0VE Y0U 0NCE SHARED' F0RGET THE FACT THAT HE 0NCE CARED F0RGET THE WAY HE SAiD Y0UR NAME REMEMBER NOW THiNGS AREN'T THE SAME F0RGET THE TALKS Y0U 0NCE HAD.. F0RGET THE TH0UGHT, iT MAKES Y0U SAD F0RGET THAT Y0U SAiD Y0U W0ULD WAiT REMEMBER N0W, HiS L0VE iS HATE.

Kyoot noh???? COPY AND PASTE MO NA!! don't hesitate! ahaha.. go girl!

emotions.. : ibarra, grad pic, prom

2005-11-24T05:14:00.000-08:00

EMOTIONS??

~~IBARRA~~

Oh well.. just finished talking to Ibarra.. ehehe.. he just called and i was expecting it.. nakakainis ang kulit kasi niya eh.. hilig pa mang asar.. pero its okie.. i know naman na magbabago yun.. kaya lang minsan nakakapikon.. pero bumabawi naman agad.. ahahha.. alam mo yung tipong.. mayabang pero nangaasar lang siya.. ahahha.. ang hilig pag tripan ang seniors.. GRRRRR...ayun.. medyo patapos na kami sa cheering.. polishing nalang.. anyways.. kanina.. sandali lang kami nag training.. kasi nag practice pa kami ng cheering.. and umalis si Mr. Sumatra (coach) yup..

Grabe.. ewan ko ba.. hinde ko lam kung ano ung nafifeel ko kay ibarra.. Nakakainis kasi.. bakit ganun noh? pag ayaw na sayo nung tao.. that's the time na magugustuhan mo siya,,, ehehe.. pero minsan nakakatuwa siya.. kasi MINSAN sweet siya... pero most of the time.. PANG ASAR!!! ahahha joke lang! love you! ahhahaha.. peace tayo.. tyaka mainitin ang ulo.. minsan nga hinde na kami nag kakasundo.. sa phone pa nga lang minsan nagsisigawan na kami.. uhhmmm.. merong nalilink sknya ngayon.. and may nalaman ako na merong may gusto sknya.. (sinabi niya sakin) ahahaha.. ikaw ha!! dami mo talaga babae! grrrrrr..! pero ganyan lang talaga si IBarra.. pero ang pagkakakilala ko sknya.. LOYAL yan.. ??????? kahit na minsan.. UNfaithful! ahhaha. JOKE.. love you! peace tayo...

well.. Kinilig lang ako sa huling part na sinabi niya sakin.. "sige bye na.. siningit ko lang tong phone.. tumawag lang ako para makausap ka" ahahahaha ok na sana eh.. kaya lang.. humirit pa.. umiral na naman ang kayabangan.. ahahha.. sabi "flattered ka naman!" grrrrr.. ewan ko ba dun... kulit talaga.. pero... salamat na din ah.. pinapasaya mo kasi Buhay ko! ehehhee ang corny naman.. ganun yata talaga pag inspired eh.. insipired nga ba?

~~GRAD PIC~~

kanina.. nag papicture kami.. ehehe.. ang kyoot ng make-up ko kanina.. galing talaga ni ate.. ahahaha.. mahal nga lang.. 300.. kinuha ko ung package four! 2300 lang naman! grr mahal!... w/c includes 8x10 na colored, 8x10 na B&W, 20 pcs. wallet size colored, and 20 pcs. wallet size B&W. ang gaganda ng mga batchmates ko kanina..

~~PROM~~

well as usual.. palapit na rin ang prom.. and Im really excited.. ewan ko kung bakit.. eehehehe.. siguro naman isasayaw ako ni IBarra noh.. eheheh.. uhhmm.. pinagiisipan ko kung anung kulay ng gown ko!! at kung anong style... uhhhmm.. Yellow, white, LIme, or orange.. ahahha.. basta gusto ko bright colors... ayoko naman ng purple kasi pang matanda.. uhhmmm.. pero 1st choice ko is yellow.. ehehhee.. sino kaya prom date ko??? hmmm... feeling ko kilala ko na kung sino! aahhahahhaa.. goodluck nalang sakin... :D

maico and carlos driveng

2005-11-19T05:29:00.000-08:00

Maico and Carlos.. Driving...

Okie.. well.. im so tired.. kaninang umaga.. we went to carmona sports complex for the cheering practice... then after... papunta na kami kila maico.. then nakita namin yung car nila and his dad.. so we decided to stop by.. ahaha... we were surprised.. seeing him without his shirt.. ahhaha anyways... pinapaalis niya na kami nun... sabi niya he'll just follow.. tapos un.. so nagstay muna kami sa store nila to buy some snacks.. tapos... biglang lumabas sabi niya kung gusto daw namin.. antayin n anamin siya.. sabay nalang daw kami saknya.. sya daw mag drdrive.. hehehe... dapat sabay na kami kaya lang sabi ni yani kailangan daw niya munaumuwi.. kaya yun.. hinde na natuloy.. so.. nung nandun na kami kila yani... kumain muna kami saglit.. then alis na din.. punta na kami fort para mag practice ng volleyball.. ehehhe... so dun muna kami dumaan sa meeting place sa starbucks.. actually hinde nga kami dun nag kita eh.. sa may ice monster.. eheheheh.. labo!

so nandun kami nagkita kita.. ehhehehe.. pagdating namin dun nakita namin si albert and maico.. inaantay si gens.. so pinaalis na namin ung driver nila yani para sabay nalang kami kay maico.. habang inaantay namin si gens.. nasa jollibee naman sina francis, pada, iris, luigi, marielle.. at syempre.. hinde kami aalis ng wala si erika.. kaya inantay pa namin siya.. kahit na sinabi ni erika na umalis na kami at susunod nalang siya.. hinde paring pumayag si maico.. ahahhaa.. sus.. yun pa??? anyways.. 15 kami lahat sa FORD E150.. o diba? astig.... pinag drive kami ni maico.. so ayun.. dumating na kami sa gym.. pag dating namin dun may gumagamit pa ng court.. so medyo nag intay pa kami ng ilang minutes.. ayun.. dad yata ni carlos ang nag bayad or something... so ayun.. nag volleyball kami.. varsity vs. non-varsity and pati yung boys din namin.. in fairness galing nila mag volleyball ah.. CHAMPION ever!

tapos un.. kanina nga kinabahan ako eh.. ehehhee.. kasi nandun yung dad ni carlos/... eh may napanaginipan pa naman ako about dun.. ehehhe.. tapos umalis na si maico at eriks.. ahhaha nag date yung dalawa.. hinde man lang kami sinama para group date.. ahahahha anyways..nakita namin si cecon.. tama ba spelling ko? anyways.. he's still the same.. nung time na pinakilala ako ni carlos sknya sa g4..pero i dunno if he still remembers me.. pero i doubt! ehehhe.. kulit nga naming mag bebestfriends eh.. ehehehe.. si madski, dana, mika at ako.. pano naman kasi pinag uusapan namin yun.. ahaha.. yung about sknya and kay christine cruz.. ahahhaa (ex gf ni cecon na former classmate namin during our intermed days..) nainis si madski kasi daw hinde kami initroduce ni carlos.. ahahhaa... sira ulo talaga yun..

hinatid rin kami ni carlos sa may chowking.. pero hinatid muna niya si cecon.. siya ang nag drive.. ehehhee.. ayun.. kulit talaga.. tapos.. tumuloy kami sa g4.. grabe.. sakit na ng paa namin.. dapat makikipag date kami eh.. ehehehe joke.. dapat manonood kami ng harry potter.. ehehhe.. eh so many pipol eh.. kaya kumain nalnag kami sa mexicali.. tapos.. nag pasundo kami kay kuya ivan.. at grabe ang tagal niya ah.. 1 hour kami nag antay.. ahahhaa.. tapos.. nag online na ako.. at eto ginagawa ko yung online journal ko.. haaaaayyy.. sige sige...

magulo utak ko ngayun.. pano naman kasi noh.. ang daming humahadlang sa mga plans ko sa buhay ko.. lalo na sa love life ko.. actually hinde naman tao ang humahadlang eh,.. i dunno.. basta.. tadhana ang gumugulo sa akin ngayon.. kainis!!!!!!!

im back

2005-11-18T05:37:00.000-08:00

I'm back!

Wow.. its been a long time.. I got a chance to use the internet.. Coz we already have our DSL.. kewl! well.. I'm missing Ibarra already.. yep.. I dunno why i like him so much.. hay nako.. ehehehe.. ang daming nangyari sakin this past few days.. and now.. I'm really confused.. kasi naman noh.. ang gulo ng utak nung isang tao dyan.. anyways.. I dont wanna talk about it.. all I know is I'm happy.. yep.. buti naman noh.. ang dami na kasing nangyari sakin na puro sad things.. and now.. Im Thanking God for giving me happiness.. yeah../! KALIGAYAN ever... hihihi.. kaya lang.. medyo nag iba na si Ibarra.. bakit kaya ganun? wala na siyang initiative na makipag usap sakin.. unlike before.. na pupuntahan talaga niya ako.. tatawagan niya ako sa phone.. pero ngayun? bakit ganun? iba na.. haaaaaaaayy.. sabi ni yani.. nahihiya daw siya sakin.. kainis naman!... grrrr.. anyways.. sige.. bukas nalang ah.. meron pa kaming cheering bukas sa may PRC and volleyball, basketball, and badminton practice sa Fort.. then on monday,, may game kami sa CSA.. hehehehe.. hectic ang sched ko eh... feeling!

i thought

2005-09-17T20:35:00.000-07:00

I thought...

You know what.. nung retreat namin? dun ko nalaman na may mga nagmamahal pala tlaga sakin.. dun ko nalaman na mahal pala tlaga ako ng mga kaibigan ko.. well.. na touch ako sa sinabi ng mom ko.. sabi niya.. na kung akala ko daw na wala siyang pakialam sa break up namin ni migo.. mali daw ako.. kung nasasaktan me.. mas nasasaktan daw siya.. akala ko kasi na.. pag nag kwento ako saknya.. wala lang saknya yun.. well.. she always tells me na i just have to let go.. yung mga un daw.. is the lesson that i need to remember..

Binasa niya lahat ng letters ko.. sabi niya.. "madami ka ngang letters.. pero.. yung most important letter that you expected.. hinde mo na receive.." yeah she's right.. yung pinaka important na letter.. yun pa ang wala...

Marami ngang nagmamahal sakin.. pero yng love na i ever wanted.. ay hinde kasama dun sa mga nag mamahal saakin..

Bakit ganun? Akala ko ba bawal siya mag karoon ng girlfriend.. pero bakit ang dami niyang crush.. or should I say love? bakit ganun siya?... Ngayon.. masya siya sa piling ng iba.. habang ako.. nandito.. umiiyak.. nalulungkot.. nag iisip.. nag tatanong kung bakit ganito ang nangyayari..

Siguro.. sasabhn niyong madrama.. Pero.. Ganito talaga ako.. Dun sa mga letter niyo saakin.. wala kayong sinabi kung di MAGHANAP AKO NG IBA! or MAG MOVE ON KA NA! or MARAMI DYANG IBA.. alam niyo.. its easy to say that.. pero.. its hard to do.. Yeah i can tell na nakapag move on na ako kahit papano.. katulad ng sinabi ko right?

MAsakit para saakin yun.. akala niya kasi.. wala akong pakialam.. akala niya kasi wala akong care.. akala niya kasi.. ok lang sakin.. akala niya kasi hinde ako nasasaktan..

bakit ganun? bakit ganun? bakit ganun? mAY mahal ka na bang iba? tuluyan na ba akong kinalimutan? di mo na ba kailangan ang pagibig na dati'y walang hanggan? paano na ang mga panahong nakalipas? tuluyan na bang ibabaon sa limot? Buksan mo naman ang puso mo.. Hinde mo ba ako maintindihan? sa tuwing sasabihin ko sayo ang nararamdaman ko.. bakit ganun? laging negative reaction..

masaya ka na ba ngayon? talaga bang mahal mo siya? talaga bang kinalimutan mo na ako ng tuluyan? pano na ako ngayon? paano na yung pangako mo? paano na yng mga nangyari satin?

If ever man na mabasa mo to.. sana.. maisip mo na.. nandito ako.. hinahanaphanap ung pagmamahal mo.. nagtatanong kung bakit... kung bakit bigala nalang nag laho ang dati mong pag ibig na akala ko'y walang hanggan..

hahahaha ang drama ko talaga ever.. ahahahhaha...

more than friends-poem

2005-08-26T05:28:00.000-07:00

More than Friends
by: JOhann Medina

We started as Friends
I thought it would never end
As time goes by
Another step came by

You and me were meant to be
Im glad that it was made to be
Our love was against all odds
But we can't deny that it was really love

We felt happiness
But here comes sadness
we were torn apart
And it breaks my heart

I kept on Crying
felt like dying
but I need to carry on
And learn how to move on

Here I am thinking about you
Hope you're doing the same way too
My heart is oh so true
Saying baby I miss you

I can see that you are happy
And seems I have nothing to worry
Seeing you with her is like hell
But what can I do? All I can say is "Oh well"!

If I could turn back time
The time you were mine
I would give you anything
Coz you are my everything

Promises is not a bet
Therefore it must be kept
so please say I love you
Coz "f*ck" I still do love you

Let's heal the wounds
I know we could
Being apart is better
Than before when we're together

It's time to say goodbye
Though you might cry
Don't ask why
Just let it Fly..

hinde ko alam kung bakit nakasulat ako ng ganyan.. that's fr our P.E. class.. hehe.. well.. it's based on my experience.. ehehe.. yeah.. masarap gumawa ng poem.. lalo na pag na experience mo na.. hehee.. that's for no one.. I just wanna share it..

weeee..

2005-08-21T06:58:00.000-07:00

weeeeeeeee...

Alex, JAson, Dana, Chui, and Yani

Okie... Last thursday.. AUGUST 18, 2005 nagpunta dito sa bahay si alex, jason alva, dana and yani! ahaha.. I will never forget this talaga! sobrang happy kami... pano naman kasi noh.. nakaktawa sila!! lalo na si AJ tawa nga kami ng tawa nila dana eh.. ahahha.. tapos ang kukulit ng mga pictures naming lima.. para kaming mga ewan.. sana nga maulit yun eh.. oh well.. those pictures kasi para sa engagement game namin eh.. ahahha.. para kunyari mag asawa talaga.. Una nga pinipilit ko si dana na mag picture sila ni jason.. kasi nakakahiya namn kung kaming dalawa lang ni AJ ang mag pipicture.. so.. pinuntahan namin si jason.. at take note.. naka pambahay siya nun.. pero gwapo parin! ahahha.. so edi yun.. etong si dana.. sobrang nahihiya pa siya.. ang kulit.. pero I told her she will never regret it.. o diba?? ahahha.. sobrang bagay sila ni alva! as-in.. sana sila nalang dalwa.. I like them! weeee... if you want to see the pictures go see my multiply.. http://pinkemotions.multiply.com there you go..

PArty!

Last friday.. after the casa chuva orientation.. we went to boca-boca! sa may sahng! wow.. its really fun.. una kinakabahan pa ako kasi baka hinde ako payagan ng mom ko and everything.. tapos.. sobrang happy ako kasi.. pumayag siya.. so ayun.. tapos.. nag dress up na kami ni mika.. nakakinis nga sila eh!! alam na nga nila na naka mini skirt ako eh!! tapos nag jeep parin kami! papunta kila madel! sabi ko mag tataxi nalang kami ako mag abbayad! grrr! pero ok lang.. buti nalang alang masyadong guy! ehehehe.. tapos.. nagpunta pa kami kila yani.. para kumain.. then nag punta kami sa boca-boca.. then nag order ng COCKtail drinks! ahahahhaha.. bawal pa kasi ang alcoholic drinks! baka mag sara bar nila yani! ahhaha.. tapos yun/.. FINGER foods.. sarap.. yummy! ang saya ng YAMENASAI GROUP sobra.. kami pa yung unang group na nag pa greet dun sa pasage na band!

"happy birthday to madel from yamenasai group!" ahhaa

tapos yun.. ung 1st set... nakinig muna kami.. dapat mag sasayaw na kami sa dance floor kaya lang nahihiya sila.. oh well.. and take note!! gwapo ang vocalist.. sa malayo! ahahaha pag malapit di na gaano.. tapos sa 2nd set.. nag pa bati nanaman kami.. ahahhaa yeah!!

"happy anniversary to the following:
dianne and luis
mika and ralph
madel and mark
johann and ****
yani and jai
DAna and JAson

congrats to:
valedictorian- erika chua
salutatorian- carla gregorio

I love you robin from bea
I love you rolan from nicole"

hahaha.. o diba? ayus ba yung greetings namin? ahahhaa tapos we danced all night! sobrang Hot kami.. ibang level.. tapos.. sobarang nag papawis na kami.. sobrang active kami.. ibang level! pati nga si erika nag wawala eh.! yeah

Boodle Fight

Yesterday naman.. august 20 2005 well... nag CAT kami.. I woke up at around 7am na! and Im not prepared! ahahha.. Napag sabihan pa ako ni nina! ahahha.. sorry! well next time promise! complete na yan! ahahhaa tapos may punishment pa kami! 100! ay ibang level ah.. ang sakit sa tyan and legs.. tapos nakakahilo! and nakakapang hina!.. edi yun.. tapos pinractice kami ni nina.. nag drill kami at di na kami nakapag rifle.. =( masya yung drills namin! ang kulit kasi eh.. tapos kailangan i-maintain namin yung distance and alignment namin! syempre proud samin si nina! diba?? sabhn mong hinde??? ahahha galing nga namin eh.. although kailangan pa ng konting practice!! tapos.. pinag prepare na kami for the boodle fight! hihihi.. kadiri nga eh.. diffferent kinds of tuna tapos may sardines pa! yuck.. grabe yung mga officers! as-in kinamay nila talaga ha! sa una nakakasuka.. pero nung makita ko sila.. na kumakain.. ahaha.. kumain narin kami.. grabe.. buti nga meron kaming 20 merits.. kasi yung sa side namin naubos namin.. galing nga eh.. ehehe.. ibang level si mr. alo.. ang takaw.. hihi *peace* basta masaya!

Hay.. sa monday.. problema na naman! EXAM RESULTS na.. huhuu

If you want to see the pictures punta lang kau sa multiply ko! okie?? weeeeeee!

Infatuation

2005-08-17T03:16:00.000-07:00

Infatuation!

Everything is ok now.. yeah i think so.. This is what i've been waiting for.. at least.. ahaha... well so happy to say.. [FULLY RECOVERED]! im so good! 110%= my love for him well that was before haha.. now... 3%= ??? ahahaha.. yeah at least there's still 3% remaining! ahaha.. Nag iba ihip ng hangin eh.. I dunno.. There was this strange feeling.. and I really think that I'm falling for him.. or maybe this is just.. infatuation.. ahaha... kasi naman noh.. Nagiging close ako sknya which is not right! at hinde dapat lagyan ng malisya! but i really can't help it.. I wanna see him everyday.. i wanna talk to him.. I dont know.. but.. I've already felt this before.. yeah.. the first time He told me that he likes me.. huhuhu.. but iono.. well.. nagcucutan lang naman ako sknya.. I dont think this is love.. and Im not ready for that! ahaha.. hanggang crush lang muna.. pero hinde naman yung to the point na pahalata! halata nga yata eh.. basta ewan... ang alam ko.. CRUSH lang tlaga,.. pero if he likes me haha then better! joke! ahahha.. well i know naman na he loves someone eh.. yep.. and its kinda.. OUCH for me.. but its ok.. ahahha.. i miss him.. yep.. di kasi nag tetext eh.. nagaaral daw siya.. ahahah.. asus.. oo nga naman.. kaya nga ang talino eh...

My dream guy:

-Tall
-handsome
-mabait
-sobrang sweet
-caring
-mapagmahal
-hinde ako aawayin
-who will respect me! both body and soul ahahahah!
-naka gel lagi
-neat
-mabango
-skin complexion: either dark or fair
-MACHO! para masarap i-hug! pero if not.. ok lang din.. But i prefer macho.. hihihi..
-tantalizining eyes!! yeah i really like the he looks at me!
-hinde MASUNGIT!!
-hinde ma-PRIDE
-matyaga!
-yung ipag LALABAN AKO!!
-yung hinde ako iiwan
-yung hinde ako ipag papalit kahit kanino kahit na may mangyaring problema sa relationship namin!
-yung papansinin ako if ever na mag away kami
-yung magsosorry sakin kahit na ako may kaslanan
-yung susuyuin ako
-yung hinde ako minumura kahit na may ginawa akong katrantaduhan
-yung tutuparin ang mga PROMISES niya sakin
-he should TRUST me..
-yung lagi akong tatawagan
-yung taong hinde ako makaklimutan
-yung taong pag sinabing babalikan ako.. BABALIKAN dapat ako! dapat tuparin yun!
-yung taong ikekeep yung memories namin!
-yung taong ilalagay yung pictures ko sa wallet niya
-yung taong kayang iwan ang RAGNAROK o kahit anong computer games para saakin!
-yung taong hinde magsasawa sa sorry ko
-yung taong bibisitahin ako dito sa bahay lagi
-yung taong mag dadate sakin!! lalo na pag ANNIVERSARY namin!
-yung taong hinde makaklimot sa bday ko!
-yung taong dadalhin ako sa isang formal dinner!
-yung taong isasayaw ako sa mga sayawan
-yung taong icocomfort ako pag umiiyak ako..
-yung taong concern sakin
-yung taong pag sinimulan niya ang panliligaw dapat tuloy tuloy na! ayoko ng puro simula lang!
-yung hinde flirt!
-yung hinde maraming babae!
-yung hinde two timer!
-yung hinde ako papagalitan sa harap ng maraming tao
-ok lang sakin kung pakialaman niya the way I dress pero wag OA!
-yung hinde umiinom ng softdrinks!
-yung generous! :)
-yung bibigyan ako ng ring na may naka engrave ng tawagan namin or names namin
-yung bibigyan ako ng flowers pag may occasions! lalo na VALENTINES!
-yung bibigyan ako ng LOVE LETTERS!!! every hour!
-yung bibigyan ako ng sweet little things just to know na kahit san siya nag pupunta naalalala nia ako!
-yung taong mag sasabi ng I LOve you evry second!
-yung taong hinde ako ikakahiya
-yung taong kaya akong iapakilala sa FAMILY niya..
-yung taong tanggap ako kung ano man ako.. [bitch ako sorry! ahaha]
-yung taong ipagkakalat sa buong mundo na kami!
-yung taong kayang i express yung feelings niya
-yung hinde violent!
-soft lips!
-yung taong ihahatid at susunduin ako sa bahay!
-kayang maghintay
-hinde lumilingon sa ibang babae!!!!!!!!
-laging magtetext ng sweet things!
-laging nandyan
-matalino
-magaling sa lahat ng sports!!
-dadalhin ako sa magagandang places
-dadalhin ako sa iba't ibang countries
-bibigyan ako ng bahay!!!hahaha yung malaki! sa forbes ah!
-bibigyan ako ng maraming car!!! hahaha
-yung brown eyes!!
-magaling kumanta!!
-magaling sumayaw!
-BASTA YUNG MAHAL AKO NA HINDE AKO IPAGPAPALIT KAHIT KANINO! FOREVER!

kilala niyo ba kung sino yan?? well.. dream guy lang yan! ahahah,.. wala namang ganyan na tao eh.. perect na yun! well.. sana may ganyan noh?? ahaha

I LOVE DREW! yun lang ang masasabi ko! wakekeke..

dad?? fuck off!

2005-08-05T09:30:00.000-07:00

wow!! MY real dad? leave us alone!

grabe.. Kanina.. My mom told me something.. its something about my dad.. MY REAL DAD.. yeah.. i was surprised to hear that! REALLY!!... so its like this.. Someone called.. yeah.. sa states.. and then.. my tita answered the fone.. she said she was lucy something.. [forgot] and then she was looking for my mom.. she said that she's a former officemate of my mom in IBM.. which is not true.. hinde siya pumasok sa IBM.. FYI... so un.. i think she was checking if my mom lives in california already with me.. so this lady.. named lucy..

the conversation: (this not the exact one but it goes something like this..)

Lucy: May I speak with odette? this is her former officemate in IBM..
Tess[tita]: She's not here..
Lucy: Diba husband niya si Giovy?

**giovy is the name of my real dad**

Tess: No.. si Jojo ang husband niya..

**Jojo is my step dad.. which i consider as my real dad**

Lucy: Diba may baby sila?
Tess: oo.. si Jia

**Jia is my step sister.. 1 yr old..**

Lucy: diba johann ang name nun??

And tapos un.. My tita was wondering.. kasi she's asking too much information about me and my mom.. and she thinks na my real dad asked her to call my grandama's house in california.. my real dad is actually staying there in the states.. And I dont know where the hell he is! and I dont care!!

So they were asking me.. kung ano daw gagwin ko kung makita ko siya.. sabi ko.."ano gagawin ko sknya? sus! di ko naman siya kilala eh"

Pero sabi nila.. i should still respect him.. wow!!!! respect??? did he ever respect my mom?? I really hate him! after all those years? I mean i havent seen him! since birth!!!! go to hell!!!

Kapal ng mukha right??!! he left my mom hanging!! and I'll prove it to him that my mom raised me well!!! I dont wanna see his face ever!! asshole! i really hate him..

and i dont want to talk about this ever again!! i dont wanna bring out this topic anymore!!!! NEVER!!

I just wanna let this feeling out! the anger that im feeling right now!! he should go to hell! and DIE!!! I dont want him to be my dad! i hate him! i hate everything about him! i hate those kind of guys! those kind of people!!

If he wants us to be happy.. Then he should leave us alone! we dont want to see his face!!! he's a PARASITE!!

I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE EVER!!!

diba sabi mo you dont recognize me as your own daughter? then I also dont recognize you as my FATHER!! for me YOur already dead!!!!! already in hell! paying for your sins!!! Tanga mo kasi eh!! BOBO! ang BOBO BOBO BOBO mo!!! leche ka! lahat na ng bad words!! sana mamatay ka na! i will be happier kung mangyari yun!

** i need someone to talk to.. someone who will listen.. someone who will comfort me.. PLEASE.. guys i need your help.. I need a friend! i really need your help **

thanks...

poor country

2005-08-05T09:17:00.000-07:00

I want to leave this poor country!

well.. I want to leave this country na.. yeah.. I don't wana stay here.. My uncle is fixing my papers already.. Just finished talking to my mom.. Yeah.. probably next year I'll be staying in california.. I don't want to stay here anymore.. But.. I'll be missing my friends.. yeah.. So im still having second thoughts.. But.. If i will be given the oppurtunity to stay there! i will grab that right away! hehe.. well.. that's the only way to start my life again.. I want to study there! but I want to have my debut here.. ahaha.. well.. I need your prayers guys.. I want to stay there.. the problem is.. my parents will be staying here.. so its kinda sad.. but I also want to be independent.. and I want to earn my own money.. so i can buy anything i like..

I want to go to hongkong this november [sembreak] sana matuloy!!!! i wanna see Disneyland! ahaha.. and probably tour with alex! coz.. kuya aaron is staying there.. so maybe.. he can tour us around! I think alex will have his vacation there.. iono.. im not sure.. pero sana matuloy! yey!

I want to go to Japan.. la lang/.. gusto ko lang

I want to go to china! sa Olympics! yeah! sana isama ako ng uncle ko! ehehe..

Basta.. ayoko na dito sa pilipinas!! hinde na UMUUNLAD!! tyaka masayado ng maraming memories dito!! i want to start a new life again! yeah! a better one! Kung gusto niyo sama kayo sakin! hahaha.. maraming cute dun! wahahhaa joke lang!

back in manila!

2005-08-05T08:56:00.000-07:00

I'm back!

Well... Galing me china.. sobrang mas ok ang life dun.. everything is cheap.. yun nga lang kailangan mong mag aral na mag chinese.. well.. saya.. Medyo umitim ako.. and..nag punta kami sa forbidden city! sobrang haba! ang daming temples! 999 rooms! grabe..

Inakyat ko ung GREAT WALL OF CHINA! and I'm so proud of myself coz i was able to climb the 5th tower! and its about.. more or less 600 steps! so cool!

I met a lot of filipino friends!.. some of them live in the states.. but filipinos!..

Our tour guide is so cute! aahaha!

I enjoyed a lot!

pictures will follow!!

I have pasalubongs for my classmates!

Sorry kung hinde kita classmate..

Limited lang kasi eh..

Next time..

Promise!... hehehe..

ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO:

ALEX JOHN B. SEVILLA august 11

and

MARIDEL T. SEBASTIAN august 13

china

2005-07-29T18:46:00.000-07:00

Im going to CHINA..

I was absent yesterday.. fixed some documents.. we went to DSWD.. because im goin to china with my grandma.. yeah.. Engagement game will start on august 1.. and thats on monday already./ at wala ako dito.. MRs. INdionco said na we need a ring na daw on monday.. Im quite excited.. ahahhaa.. ayoko lang talaga ng essays.. nakaktamad gumawa eh.. anyway.. Bibilhan ko nalang kau ng pasulubong.. ok? im excited to see the great wall of china.. i'll just post the pictures in my multiply when i get back.. ok?? see you guys next week...

Flight.. August 1.. 9 am..

I need to be there by 7 am I guess..

I'll just call you...early morning! toooot.. to say goodbye.. okie? Gumising ka nalang ng maaga.. may pasok ka nun!

Sorry na rin kung hinde ako nakapasok ng maaga yesterday..

Na LATE ako sa pag gising! as always.. aahahaha

2005-07-24T22:59:00.000-07:00

River flows..

Yeah,.., We're friends.. kung ano yung sinabi ko dati.. tutuparin ko! hinde ko binababa ang pride ko para sayo! ginagawa ko to dahil naawa na ako sa sarili ko! tama si ate ia.. na dapat ko rin isipin ang sarili ko.. wala kang kamalay malay kung ano ang mga nangyayari sa paligid.. bata ka lang.. hinde dapat kita patulan.. natural lang para sa isang katulad mo na humanga sa isang lalaki.. hinde ko naman sinasabing inaagaw mo siya sakin dahil ni minsan hinde siya napasakin! hinde ko rin sinasabing bawal siyang ibigin dahil hinde ko naman hawak ang susi ng puso niya.. Nilagyan ko na ng isang malaking pader sa gitna naming dalawa.. Panahon nalng ang syang bahala kung kelan ito masisira.. "I'll just go with the flow".. ika nga..

Matalino kang bata... pero.. hinde pa sapat ang iyong kaalaman para maintindihan mo kung bakit ako nagkakaganito.. tinatanong mo kung bakit.. hinde pa panahon para malaman mo.. maaring hinde rin sapat ang kaalaman ko.. pero.. may pinagdaanan din ako bata.. kaya kahit papano may alam din ako..

bigyan mo lang ako ng ilan pang buwan.. dahil.. pag umalis na ako.. makakahinga ka na ng maluwag.. wala ng mang aaway sayo.. haha.. ang sama ko noh?? moody lang talaga ako.. minsan may pag ka anghel minsan may pag ka demonyita!

Siguro may mga tanong ka rin na tumatakbo sa isip mo.. pero.. miski ako hinde ko rin alam kung bakit minsan hinde ko masagot ang mga tanong na iyon..

kung meron kang gustong liwanagin sakin.. PM mo ko sa YM.. sasagutin ko ang mga tanong mo.. maaring masagot ko yung iba.. pero.. hinde ko sinasabing masasagot ko lahat ng katanungan mo!

Mag s-smile ako.. hinde dahil sa sinabi mo :D .. kung di dahil gusto ko.. :P hehe!

im so good

2005-07-24T22:23:00.000-07:00

Im so good~

Marami na akong nasakripisyo.. para saknya.. Marami na akong nasaktan dahil sknya.. Sino ka ba para gawin tong mga to?? nagbubulag bulagan ka kasi na parang walang ng yayari!! hinde rin naman kita maintindihan parekoy kung bakit kailangan mong magpaka manhid!! alam ko naman na hinde kita pag aari.. alam ko naman na marami pang iba dyan na humahabol habol sayo.. pero bakit ganun? sa tuwing may ginagawa ako.. bakit kailangan mo pa akong pakialaman?? ano bang ibig mong iparating?? natutuwa ka sa tuwing nag papaka tanga ako sayo! masaya ka dahil nagseselos ako?? wow.. isang palakpak para sayo dahil nakamit mo na ang gusto mo! sa tuwing tumitingin ka sakin.. hinde ko alam kung anong mga tumatakbo sa isip mo.. isipin mo na kung ano gusto mong isipin.. sabhn mo na kung anong gusto mong sabhn.. sawa na ako na umiikot ang mundo ko sayo..ilang beses na akng humiling na sanay magkaayos tayo.. hinde para maging tayo.. pero para maging magkaibigan tayo! binibigyan mo kasi ng ibang kahulugan eh.. OO inaamin ko! minahal kita,, pero sapat na yung mga ginawa ko! at sumusobra ka na.. hinde lang ako ang may kasalanan! pareho tayong nag kasala! masyado ka kasing nag mamatigas! sige kung yun ang gusto mo ibibigay ko sayo! pero huwag mong sabhin na ni minsan ay hinde ko binaba ang pride ko para sayo! hinde ko sinsabi ang mga to para mag matigas ako.. hahayaan na kita.. alam kong bumitaw ka na.. kung alam ko lang sana na nangmangyayari tong mga to.. di sana hinde ko na pinaubaya ang puso ko sayo! [yuck ang drama haha] alam ko naman na sa simula pa lang na ang mga pangakong binitiwan mo ay mapapako lamang.. pero kahit na ganoon.. nag tiwala parin ako sayo.. katulad ka rin ng ibang lalaki! sa bagay.... alam ko naman na naramdaman mo rin tong mga to noon.. kung nakaya mo alam kong makakaya ko rin... magiging masaya ako hinde pa ra sayo! pero para sa sarili ko! nyahahhaa,.. im so good!~

2005-07-24T21:53:00.000-07:00

Sus..

Ok I wanna say sorry because of what happend last night... I didnt mean to say those words aight?? Its just that I can't help it.. Hinde ko rin alam kung bakit nag kakaganito ako just for grrr.. sus... I hate this attitude.. Sorry ah Makitid kais utak ko when it comes to him.. and lam nio naman siguro kung bakit.. Sorry ah/.. Masyado kasi akong selfish,, LAgi kong iniisip sarili ko.. hinde ko alam na.. nakakasakit na pala ako ng ibang tao.. HInde ko naman intention na manakit ng tao eh.. Hinde ko rin gawain na makipag away.. Talgang pag dating lang sa guy na yun.. wow.. Naiiba ang mundo ko.. Sorry.. Dahil sensitive ako sa mga ganung bagay.. And i admit na masyado akong self-centered person.. I wanna say sorry din dun sa mga bestfriends ko.. waaaaahh.. Im sorry.. kung msaydo akong nag taray sainyo dahil lang dun.. Kasi naman noh.. Magbibiro nalang kayo bakit yun pa diba?? Im sorry kung minsan moody ako.. HInde niyo tuloy alam kung kelan ako magiging mataray.. kung kelan ako magiging mabait.. lately lang kasi talaga.. Nagkakaroon na ako ng emotional disorder masaydo ng magulo utak ko para dagdagan pa.. Im sorry for those people na na hurt ko because of my attitude.. I'm so sorry talaga sa mga bestfriends ko.. I owe you pa naman a lot.. Kasi everytime na im down you're always there for me.. and I should not trat you that way.. KAsi kung hinde dahil sainyo.. Maybe.. NAtuluyan na akong mabaliw.. I dunno how to thank you guys.. pero I want to let you know na im very thankful for having you guys.. KAsi kahit na may pagka SISA ako.. hinde niyo parin ako tinatalikuran.. I mean.. Alam ko naman na naiintindihan niyo ako eh.. alam niyo naman kung bakit diba?? sorry ah.. I tried naman changing this attitude eh.. sorry for being such a BITCH.. o yes i admit that Im a BITCH.. pero guys.. I also need your help.. I wanna forget all those things na.. basta about him.. I dont wanna hurt someone's feelings just because of him.. Ok lang naman sakin kung ano itawag niyo sakin.. I will accept that naman eh.. HInde niyo kasi alam kung ano yung mga nangyari sakin.. for the past 7 months.., hinde niyo alam.. WALA KAYONG ALAM.. kaya.. naiintindihan ko kayo.. ako dapat ang umintindi sainyo dahil wala naman kayong kinalaman dito... hinde ko kayo dapat idamay... and im willing to give him up just for he sake of friendship.. sorry for being so selfish! i love you guys! mwaaah!

Ok another bitch!~

2005-07-24T09:04:00.000-07:00

The bitch is still alive and kicking!!

I dont hella care from what family you came from aight??! kelan ba kita inapi?? haha.. inapi pala kita?? ahaha.. talaga??ahaha that's funny nagpa api ka naman?! Look! it's not my fault ok?! I tried making friends with you! and hinde ako PLASTIC! ok? ikaw yun! i know that i don't have the right! pero you know the reason! sinabi ko na sayo diba???! i already told you! You kept on denying that you never liked him! oh really?! haha.. you're fooling yourself! look.. i admit that im a BITCH! so what?! eh ikaw? tiningnan mo na ba sarili mo sa mirror??! haha.. dont you dare do it! baka mabasag pa! well.. Look at yourself first! ikaw sa tingin mo hinde ka judgemental?? sa tingin mo hinde ka bitch? sa tingin mo hinde ka tanga?? sa tingin mo hinde ka plastic??? so what do u call yourself?? MS. PERFECT??? wow! im impressed! really!! wag mong sabhng yung mga iniisip ko ay hinde tumutugma sa mga sinasabi mo?!!! haller???! okey ka lang?? so what are you saying na BOBO ako?? ahaha.. wow grabe! sorry ah! ang talino mo kasi! kaya ba hinde mo maisip na tanga ka rin pala?? kaya ba hinde mo maisip yun dahil sa sobrang katalinuhan! oh well! sorry po ah! MS. PERFECT[daw]!! whatever!!

Sorry po ah!! MADAM! NAg promise ako na hinde na ako makikipag away! pero you forced me to do so! kung gusto mo siya??! sige lamunin mo! sabi mo naman yameh siya diba?! isak sak mo sa baga mo! oo nga naman! tama ka rin! hinde ko naman siya pag aari! at marami na rin akong naabala dahil sknya!! pero hinde ko kinakahiya yun! kaya kung gusto mo siya! then go for him! wag ka lang mag paka plastic na you never liked him!! haha!

sige sayo na! sayong sayo na! lamunin mo ha??! kung gusto mo idikit mo pa siya sa pw*t mo para hinde na siya makawala sa tabi mo! well i know naman na gagawin mo talga yun!

Yeah im tired of this! from now on hinde na ako magsasalita ng tungkol sankya! marami na akong nakakaway dahil sknya! sorry sa mga sinasabi ko! sorry talaga! mainit lang ulo ko! marami lang kasing linta sa mundo! wala ka ng maririning sakin! sayo na siya ok?? sorry po kung pikon ako! i admit naman po eh madam! hinde ko dinedeny yun! at kung ano talaga yung tingin mo sakin! i will respect that! sorry po madam!

-End-

*kung ano man i-reply mo i dont care.. i'll end this for good.. from now on.. you won't hear anything from me..*

Depressed!

2005-07-17T05:38:00.000-07:00

Depressed!

Ok.. i feel so lonely.. really.. and I was absent for almost a week.. y? because i have this sort of illness.. ever heard of "lovenat?" haha.. yeah.. I was so disappointed last acquaintance party.. and i know that you already know the reason y guys.. well.. last sunday.. july10.. yeah.. i was talking on the phone.. with marianne.. til 2 am.. ang i was kept on crying.. and i dunno y.. then.. the next morning.. i had a headache.. tapos yung eyes ko sobrang namamaga! ahahha.. you know wut i mean? basta when you cry diba minsan your eyes its like namamaga.. yeah yun ang nangyari.. so.. i didnt go to school that day.. ok.. then tuesday.. im still depressed.. and my head was still heavy!! so i didnt go to school.. instead.. i went to the hospital.. on our way to the hospital.. [inside the car] my mom told me that maybe im just depressed.. and that's really the reason why I'm sick!!! ok.. we arrived just on time.. and the doctor said that he didnt find any serious illness or whatever.. and he even asked me if i have a problem!! oh god! i think im having an emotional disorder!! then the doctor said.. maybe its a systematic viral illness.. and he said i need to rest for 3 - 5 days! and i guess i really need that to think!!! and to recover!! then.. wednesday.. my mom gave me this novena to the sacred heart of jesus.. maybe she knows that no one can help me.. except god.. so she gave me this novena and if i have any petition then all i have to do is to do the novena to the sacred heart of jesus.. at first.. i was ignoring it.. but then.. i realized that.. if only i have this strong faith.. then maybe.. god will hear my prayers..since its july 14, thursday, i started doing the novena.. so i always make 9 copies everyday and i should go to the church for 9 consecutive days and bring those 9 copies to the church.. Its actually my 4th day..

I'm very thankful for that guy.. for making me down.. y? kasi.. because of him i became closer to god.. he's the reason y im praying so hard.. and because he treats me differently compared to my other friends.. I became so weak.. and i felt so.. lonely!!! but then.. my mom opened my heart to god.. and now.. im asking strength just to carry on.. well i know i can do it.. i know i can..

thanks to that guy... though.. i was really hurt.. ouch..

Acquaintance Party

2005-07-09T18:23:00.000-07:00

Acquiantance Party

Day before the party.. I bought a costume with siegrede.. wow grabe.. Ibang level.. hirap mag hanap ng costume for the acquiantance party! at inabot na kami ng closing!! well.. ayun.. tapos.. sobrang gutom na kami ni seig and masakit na paa namin kasi naka heels pa kami.. so we decided to eat at Inasal.. Yeah.. then we saw madski and her mom.. pina join kami.. ehehe.. ayun.. tapos kami ni seig di na kami nag sasalita dahil we're so hungry.. aahhaha nakakatawa nga eh.. nakakahiya kami! grabe!

Tapos.. Nung mismong day ng party na.. well tinatamad na kami mag class.. ahaha.. tapos nag report pa ako sa english ng Iliad.. ahaha tapos binilang ni mika yung uuuhhhmm ko.. yeah! 18 daw.. yon tapos halos 1 hour lang yung computer subject namin kaya.. nag prepare nalnag kami for the party..

ayun.. inubos nila yung make-up ko!.. nagkanda wala wala! ahahaha.. tapos nung mismong party na.. wow saya! sobra! as-in.. we enjoyed a lot.. Tapos may school band na kami.. 'kekko desu" yeah.. sila bea, mara "vocalist", francis "drumer", and albert "extra".. hehehehe joke lang albert.. pero grabe galing nila.. tumogtog rin si alva.. galing nga niya eh.. tapos si mikha kumanta! galing nga eh.. kaya lang medyo may sakit sya nung party.. pero ok lang!.. magaling parin siya!! go miks! maaga natapos yung program.. at eto pa.. grabe ibang level si jonah! my golly! di ko carry yun! aahahha.. kasi na nominate siya for best in costume at.. sobrang todo sa pag rampa! ahahha.. at pininturahan pa niya yung photographer! ahahaha.. at nung huli na.. aba.. di pa nakontento at inuha pa ang spada ni ESCUCHA! ahahahaha.. grabe ka jonah! the best!!! ahahha

Tapos nung free dance na! grabe.. ang saya! lahat ng tao hyper! which is sobrang saya talaga! unlie last year may sarisariling mundo ung mga levels.. pero kami.. wow sobrang joint together! my gosh! nakakatawa pa sila..ahaha lalo na si ms. castro.. kakaiba.. nagwawala.. ahahhaa.. tapos si antonio nakakatawa rin siya nung nagsasayaw siya ng le jah lejah! ehehehe..

Nung slow dance naman.. ehehehe... masya na rin ako.. ehehehe.. kasi sinayaw ako ni alex.. tapos yung song tatooed on my mind.. ahhaha ayun.. habang nag sasayaw kami naguusap din kami.. sabi niya na ngayon niya nalang daw ako ulit nasayaw.. ehehe.. una nahihiya pa ako.. ahaha.. di ko na carry yun! tapos nandun pa kami sa gitna nag sasayaw.. baka daw magalit si migo! ahahaha sabi ko naman saknya.. hinde yun magagalit kasi wala na yun care sakin! ahahaha.. nakakatawa nga eh.. natatakot daw siya kay migo kasi daw baka sapukin siya! ahahha.. isang pitik lang daw sknya tatalsik na siya! ahahhaha ang kulit nga eh.. kasi naman noh! cmpare mo naman katawan nila ni migs.. eh sobrang laki ng katwan nun.. parang bakal! ahahha.. ang macho! anyways,,. edi un natapos na yung song.. hinatid pa niya ako sa upuan ko.. ang bait niya grabe.. caring pa sa friends niya.. at lagi kang icocomfort pag may problem ka.. yan si alex!!

Pinatugtog yung BROWN EYES! grabe.. ibang level! nakakaiyak ung song na yun.. yun kasi yung kanta ko kay bebe.. yeah.. pero ok lang naman kahit hinde niya ako sinayaw eh.. no big deal.. basta masya siya at marami siyang nasayaw ok lang.. hehe

Pinatugtog yung the day you said goodnight! ehehe yeah.. everytime na magkausap kami ni aj sa phone kakanta yun bago ibaba yung phone! ahahha.. isa yun sa mga kinakanta niya sakiN! tapos yun.. sinayaw niya ako ulit.. hehee.. sabi niya kumanta daw ako.. habang nagsasayaw kami.. kaya yun.. kumanta ako.. tapos siya rin kumakanta.,. ang kulit nga eh.. tapos ang kulit ni kevin kasi habang nagsasayaw kami umiiko ikot siya dun samin! ahaha tapos ang pinaka nakakakilig! nung sinayaw ni alex si camille! yeah! go camille! magkasundo talaga kami ni camille! tinutulungan ko kasi na magka balikan na sila eh.. kasi alam ko naman na mahal na mahal nila isa't isa diba cams??? uuuyyy.. ahahhaa...

nung medyo last 2 slow dance eh bigla nalnag akong nawala sa party.. yeah.. alam niyo kung nasaan ako?? nasa likod.. dun sa may cr.. i can't believe it.. umiiyak ako nung time na yun.. tapos bumalik ako sa quadrangle.. pero di ko talaga na carry.. kaya nag pasama ako kay dana.. at kinomfort niya ako.. yeah..naiyak din tuloy siya sakin.. ahaahhaa.. tapos biglang nakita ako ni alex na umiiyak.. grabe.. talagang nag stay siya dun sa may likod sa may CR para lang i-comfort ako.. ang bait niya kasing kaibigan.. siya yung taong napaka caring sa lahat ng tao.. tapos halos 1 hour yata kami nadun sa likod.. at pinapatawa nila ako ni dana.. tapos nakita rin ako ni junro na umiiya.. kinuhaan pa niya ako ng tubig! salamat junro! my partner sa dance hehehe.. edi yun.. tapos nagkukulitan kami sa likod.. ang pinaka nakaktawa nung nakita ako ni ms. castro.. tapos.. tinanong ako kung bakit ako umiiyak.. ang sabi ni alex at ni dana.. sumalubsob daw ako! ahahahha grabe kayo ah! ang galing galing niyo talaga! as-if naman maniniwala un! eh gas gas na yung line na yun! ahhahaa

over-all masya ang acquaintance party.. and kahit na may isang taong hinde ako sinayaw ok lang,.. kasi.. nag enjoy naman ako ka sayaw ang mga friends ko! yeah.. i love them! so much! tyaka expected naman un eh.. kasi galit siya sakin.. hehe.. pero ok lang.. wala na akong magagawa dun.. tyaka wala naman akong ginagawa sknyang masama eh.. haha.. sige bye chat muna kami ni alex.. babush!..

now i understand

2005-07-01T16:47:00.000-07:00

Now i understand..

Okie.. We are suppose to do our collage today... but unfortunately.. migo can't kasi.. ngayong morning he's playing golf.. and later this afternoon he's going to school for the parent orientation.. pero.. that's better.. sunday morning.. kasi.. mga 10am we are going to borrow my french costume tapos mamaya mag wawall climbing kami.. so.. im quite excited.. pero no money.. papagalitan na naman ako ng mom ko! ahaha.. kaya buti nalang sa sunday morning pa pwede si migo.. kung hinde.. hinde na kami makakapag wall climbing.. hehe.. la lang.. yesterday.. which is friday.. o my gosh talaga.. si junro kasi.. SM nako.. inaasar tuloy ako nila genesis, hans, at paolo.. ang swerte ko daw kasi partner ko si junro! AS-IF nako.. i told junro na sweet dapat.. kasi yung sasayawin namin is love song.. and it should be sweet! NO INTENTIONS dapat.. pero nako.. pati nga mga sophomores tinatawanan ako... (ianne and idge) kasi si junro noh! tapos ung mga expressions pa niya whenever we dance.. ayun.. nung thursday nga.. grabe sa lahat ng girls.. ako lang yata yung pinagpawisan!! ahahhaa. pinagpawisan sa KABA?? ahahhaa... tawa nga ng tawa si marianne eh.. tapos sinasabi nila sakin kung ano ung mga expressions ni junro!! hay nako.. tapos nagkatinginan kami ni AJ ahaha.. tumatawa siya! kasi kinuwento ko sknya yung about dun kay Junro.. ahahaha.. sana man lang.. bumalikyung dating may nag tatanggol sakin.. lalo na pag may mnga nangmamaniac! may nangaasar sakin.. pag may nangungulit.. ahahaha wala na kasing nagsesermon sakin like before.. nakaka miss rin pala noh? dati dati.. ayaw na ayaw kang ipahawak kahit kanino... tapos pag aawayin niya yung mga friends niya na guys pag lumapit sakin! ahahhaa.. ngayon? wala na.. wala ng nag tatanggol sakin! now i understand na talaga! kaya pala.. oh well yun pala yun.. kaya pala lagi akong sinesermonan! ahaha.. gusto lang pala niya ako pangalagaan.. ang sweet naman.. nakakmiss yung mga ganung araw na lagi akong sinesermonan! tapos pag sumobra yung pag sermon sakin napapaiyak niya ako.. tapos sasabhn niya na hinde daw niya ako pinapagalitan.. ahahha.. sinasabihan lang.. waaaahh..[pero pa sigaw at nanlilisik ang mata at nakakatakot talaga] ahahaha.. la lang.. masya na ako pag nakikita ko siya.. hehe.. ang kulit kulit nga niya ngayon eh.. sobrang kulit grabe.. ang ingay ingay pa.. pero ngayon ko lang siya ulit nakitang masaya.. kaya masaya ako na malungkot.. masya ako kasi masya siya.. malungkot ako.. kasi masya siya dahil wala na ako.. ahahhaha... oh well that's life you know.. all i can say is I MISS YOU SO MUCH PAREKOY! [code name niya parekoy] haha..!

adventure to the maxx

2005-06-25T19:40:00.000-07:00

Adventure to the maxx!

Last friday.. Its a holiday.. MAnila day.. and we don't have classes.. well.. We went to UP to get our exam permits.. And The time and date was given to me was a Sunday august 7, 6:30 in the morning! my gally! ang aga nun! baka di ako magising! waaaaahhh.. well.. tapos.. we went to Ms. Delos reyes' House.. we ate ISAW!!! sobrang sarap talaga! super.. walang kapantay talga.. Im with bea, dana, and Kuya Ivan.. tapos.. tinour kami sa UP diliman Campus.. we went to the lagoon.. its so peaceful.. and we saw the oblation! as in malapitan.. if you want to see the pictures.. go to my multiply account! Im going to upload it later after this.. tapos.. Nilibre kami ni Mrs. delo ng Merienda.. Guluman and Squidballs! the sauce was really good.. Then Coach brought ralph with him.. ang cute cute niya.. he's an Irish citizen! Tapos after that.. we went to bricky's place..sa forbes park.. its really big.. and the house was really beautiful! haha.. then.. kuya ivan taught bricky how to drive the manual! we rode the L300! yata?? tapos.. grabe mag drive! parang feeling namin ni bea we're gonna die! grabe! sobrang bilis! parang nag dradrag racing! waaaah! pero it was really fun! sobra! i enjoyed a lot! ahaha.. tapos we got home at around 10pm?? yeah..

Tapos.. Nung saturday! we had our Cat! yeah.. Mr. Alo is so kyoooooot! sobra... crush siya ng mga seniors! ahaha.. tapos.. we went to yani's place.. and nag wall climbing kami! well naka tapos ako ng 2 wall yung beginner's wall kasi.. di pa naman ako ganun ka galing.. I was dissapointed! kasi di ko na tapos yung wall 1!!! nakakainis.. half lang nun! then ang ginawa ni yani.. nilagay niya yung picture ni migo dun sa pinaka top! as in yung end ng wall 1.. eh medyo masakit na yung kamay ko! at yung braso ko! grabe.. na dissapoint ako sa sarili ko! hinde ko naabot yun! waaah.. talo pa ako ng mga kapatid ni yani! ahahaha.. well.. next week humanda yang wall 1 na yan! aabutin ko na talga yung picture na yun! promise!! ahahaha.. nakakainis talaga! i hate myself!!! grrrrr.. tapos nag inquire kami sa tennis and swimming lessons!! hehee..

Ei seniors!! swimming tayo sa saturday! just bring 250 pesos.. 80 pesos for the entrance.. tapos 170 pesos for the food.. okie?? swim tayo! bonding ever! yeah! sana matuloy! ahahha...

Simon...

2005-06-18T21:52:00.000-07:00

State of shock!

A lot of things.. happend today.. so i need to blog.. though, i really can't tell it all.. I woke up around 8am and took a bath aroung 9 am.. I need to go to mitsubishi to get the pictures.. for the UP application form.. I was in hurry.. coz i might not catch the deadline.. and it will be on june 22 already.. Well.. Im sure that im not gonna pass that UPCAT.. but.. who knows.. I might.. there's nothing wrong.. if try.. ehehe.. Went to school.. then.. suddenly.. my cellphone beeped! ahaha (i love you baby.. mwahmwahmwahmwahhhh) i was excited to see who texted me.. it was around 10 am.. and saw.. simon's name.. he said something.. i was shocked!! until now.. im still in the state of woow.. ahahaha.. well im not yet sure.. if its true.. waaaaaahh.. anyways.. i was sleeping.. then my phone rang.. it was DESI.. yeah.. ayeth it was desi.. I really dont know what he was saying.. kasi im still sleeping.. all i know is he mentioned something about la salle... the application form.. its 500 pesos.. and i need to pay him.. yeah desi.. dont worry ill pay you.. pero.. i'll ask my money from my mom! ahahhahaha! I am chatting right now.. with ayeth.. junro... camz.. and nina.. la lang... and texting.. with.. richmond, simon, jonathan.. dianne.. nothing to do here.. im bored.. im sleepy.. bye..

school!!

2005-06-17T07:32:00.000-07:00

School

well.. grabe... ngayon nalnag ako nakapagupdate.. this past few days.. uhhmm.. ok naman.. masaya.. malungkot... mahirap.. magulo.. ahahha.. lahat lahat na.. Im so happy to see kuya erick again... yeah! kuya kcire!!! na miss kita! oh well.. si ate jepp at iya na kita ko rin kanina sa school! grabe na miss ko kayo! wala lang.. well.. malapit narin kaming mag graduate.. 10 months nalang.. my gosh.. konti nalng yun.. and now.. pina process ko na form 137 ko for UP application for college.. wala nga ako 2x2 na pic eh.. madami ring nangyari kanina.. kahapon nung isang araw.. ahaha.. kanina.. nag punta si wig-wig sa school mga 6:30?? yeah.. binisita niya si dianne! alam nio ba.. grabe ang sweet sweet nila! sobra.. parang kami dati ni.. grabe! na inggit tuloy ako!! waaaaahh.. grabe.. totoo! tingin nga ako ng tingin sakanila eh.. kasi.. sobrang sweet.. parang kami ni ano talaga.. totoo.. PDA! ahaha.. joke! If i could just turn back time.. I will bring back those memories we had together.. mas sweet nga lang si wig-wig kaysa kay ano... ahhaha.. well sorry pero yun ang totoo.. takot kasi mahuli ng teacher! you know.. di kasi "kami" legal sa parents niya before.. sa parents ko legal kami.. ayun.. ay ano ba yan! bakit ba yan ang pinaguusapan?? hay nako.. past na yun!! well nainggit lang tlaga ako kay dianne at luis.. sobra.. kahit tanong niyo pa si dana!! Pero sana.. matupad ko yung bet namin ni hans.. na no boyfriend.. for 1 yr and six months.. ngayon?? Uhhmm no boyfriend for 6 months already.. 1 year nalang! Sabi ba naman ni hans.. na pag natalo ako.. hahalikan ko daw si junro?? HALA! Nako! Wag naman! Takot tuloy ako! Ahhahaha!

kanta kami ng kanta kanina.. la lang.. nagkwentuhan with alex kasama si dana, dianne, and luis.. nag basketball kasi sila ni steph!... ayun.. sige.. wait lang ah! may tatawag pa kasi dito sa bahay eh.. next time nalang ulit..! sa monday susuotin ko bracelet namin! yung silver? or baka ung blue nalang! bahala na!!! ehehehe sige!!

excited

2005-06-05T09:27:00.000-07:00

Im excited..

Can't wait til wednesday.. yeah.. but i still dont know where to get money! ahaha.. gigimmick ako ng walang money? ahaha well just gonna ask some from my tito.. I'm currently listening to MYMP's tell me where it hurts... its so kyoot! right?

we're goin to G4 on wednesday.. 1pm at starbucks.. im really excited to see my classmates again.. though we're really gonna see each other soon.. once the school starts..on june 14.. I'm talking to andrew, paolo, and mae right now... haha.. making plans for wednesday's gimmick.. they're trying to invite christina and jonah.. setting a blind date? for.. haha.. basta kayo na bahala dun.. its already 1 am.. haha.. babaksak na eyes ko.. waaahhh.. I want to invite my friend.. si.. ** sa wednesday.. la lang.. namimiss ko na kasi yung mokong na yun eh! well i want to see ** na..

Nga pala.. thanks kay.. dana, ivan, bea, nicole, nashla, neliza, felise, and tita liz for coming to my sister's bday! and thanks for the gifts.. jia loves it so much!

Jia'S BIrthday today!

2005-05-31T02:45:00.000-07:00

Jia's Birthday Today!

Yey.. It's Jia's Birthday Today! yeah.. my Sister.. We're going to celebrate today.. Just a Simple Dinner with our relatives.. She's already 1 Year old.. I really love my sister so much.. Anyways.. The big celebration will be on Saturday.. Yeah.. Complete! with my friends.. HAha.. I'm quite Excited.. well that would be all..

wee hours!

2005-05-25T07:44:00.000-07:00

Wow.. telebabad!

yeah.. last night nag usap kami ni mae.. tabing.. and Mel.. ahaha.. eto nangugulo na naman kami ni mae.. si mae pasaway talaga noh? ahaha.. kasi kung ano ano sinasabi niya sa phone.. GREEN MINDED tlaga.. wow.. anyways.. usapan naming tatlo.. wala ako dun.. eh amf naman.. kasi si andrew eh.. BULGAR.. wah.. sa bagay ako naman nauna eh.. ahahhaa.. pero okie lang yun.. di naman totoo mga pinag sasabi ni andrew eh.. ahaha.. well ngayon naman.. nag upload ako ng peekchurz.. sa multiply account ko.. http://pinkemotions.multiply.com yeah.. ahaha.. ang kyoot nga eh,. nagalit yata sakin si andrew ngayon.. dahil sa status ko kanina.. well Sorry po andrew!! wah.. hinde na nga ako mang aasar.. nakakinis naman eh.. haayy.. ayun.. last night.. maaga kami natapos.. mga 12 mn.. eh nung isang araw natulog ako ng 3am.. si mel.. 2am.. and si mae 4am at si andrew.. 6am.. the hell.. mga vampire.. ahahaha.. joke.. gwabe.. may insomia yata si tabing! ahahha.. sige that's all..

Its been a year since i last updated! ahaha!

2005-05-11T23:02:00.000-07:00

Its been a year since i last updated! ahaha!

ok.. well.. sorry dun sa mga tao.. ehehe.. sira kasi browser ko,. that's why i cant go online.. and that's one reason why i didnt update for how many weeks.. another is.. im quite lazy.. ahahha

anyway.. theres so much things happened to me.. yep.. I cant blog them one by one.. since that's to many..

so i'll sum it up to one blog..

ok..

(1) My uncle.. had his vacation here in manila.. and that keeps busy.. yeah.. busy goin shopping.. well.. Bea and i went to Shangri-la makati.. and we ate there.. the food was pretty ok..

(2) I already know my crush's name.. yeah.. (review center)

(3) I have a new bestfriend! si paolo Datu.. yeah.. bespren!!!! wah i miss u dude pare tol tsong.. anyway.. he's really nice.. and we're pretty much comfortable with each other talking on the phone for hours,. haha.. well he's really funny.. and that's true.. he is very makulit! super!!!!! and he's good looking.. naks! tama tama.. I am influenced! yeah.. this past few days.. I was kept on saying tama tama and anlabo ahahaha.. i got it from him! he influenced me! ahahha.. im gonna make a testi for him after this..

(4) nicole bea and i went to glorietta yesterday.. haha.. we bought some stuff at KARTOn.. yeah.. i bought a SCRAPbook ahaha.. its for me and.. tooot.. secret.. ahahha.. and i also bought a book.. princess diaries.. its different compared to the movie.. and I also bought "my memory box" yeah..

(5) Im chatting with Paolo right now..

(6) Nicole taught me yesterday how to play the piano... and guess what? I already know hoe to play the piece.. "All I ask of you" my favorite!!!

(7) I saw someone in my tag board.. named traufer.. is it you? traufer osumo? well if that's you.. I just want u to know that I really do miss you a lot.. sobra.. I want to talk to u na ulit sa phone like before and make kwento anything under the sun.. I miss you sobra.. when are you coming back? vacation? if you have plans.. go see me at villas.. or call me.. I hope u still know my number.. here's my add.. yohannies14@yahoo.com if you have YM just add me.. so we can communicate..

(8) TO jason manalo.. I already moved on! yeah.. slight! ang labo ko!! anyways.. Somehow.. What Im doing right now is to hate him.. though.. Kuya erick told me not to.. just go with the flow.. if he does something bad to me.. then replace it with a good one.. ahaha.. mag papaka anghel ba daw?!

(9) Di ko na nakakachat si Jonathan ngayon.. wala na akong balita sknya.. though he's my kapit bahay.. ahaha..

(10) Kanina.. gumawa ako ng scrapbook.. at nag print ng pictures! naubos ung ink namin! syet! ahahha.. lagot ako..

(11) Malapit na B-day ni mae.. and I do hope na hinde siya makapunta.. magkaka-ilangan lang kami! baka mag ka war pa! nako.. I really hate him! a lot!!.. subukan lang niyang awayin ako.. nako.. subukan niyang mag parinig.. papatulan ko siya! if ever na awayin niya ako.. pero as much as possible.. I'll keep my mouth shut!!

(12) Nakausap ko pala one time sa phone si luigi.. haha,. usap usap.. about sa love life..

(13) nagpunta siya sa CSB last friday.. and he's with Pada,.. tapos.. we went to robinsons after classes.. kasama namin sila.. then we ate at KFC my favorite! kaya lang that time wala ng coleslaw!!!!!!!! I can't eat KFC without coleslaw! tapos.. we decided to go to Masahiro's place! haha.. nag tago pa kami ni nicole! hehe.. nagulat siya.. kasi ang alam niya si frans, pada, at luigi lang ang kasama.. napaka hospitable ng taong yun! aahahhaa.. ayaw kami bigyan ng tubig! at ayaw kaming papasikin sa bahay nila! magulo daw! pero di naman..

(14) -ang panget ng number na to-

(15) nagkausap din kami ni peter one time sa phone.. at nagkukuwento sya about her gf.. may problem kasi siya eh.. kaya yun.. just wanna help..

(16) Nag 3-way kami nila mel and pao.. gwabe.. sobrang kulit nila.. ahahhaa.. inuipluwensyahan kami nila bea at nicole!

(17) Nagalit si hans kay nicole.. for some reason... I can't tell you guys sorry..

(18) Nag break si Camille and Alex.. yeah.. tinawagan ako ni camille sa phone.. telling me what happened.. and I tried talking to alex.. pero di mo naman makausap ng matino eh.. ang kulit eh.. nasa antipolo siya eh.. at kami ni camille we both hate antipolo! right cams?! haha.. ganda ng name mo pare! Camille.. Cams.. Sana ginawa nalang K.. hahahha Kamille.. Kams.. amf..

(19) gumagawa ako ng invitations ng kapatid ko.. malapit na bday niya.. sorry dun sa mga hinde ko maiinvite ah.. kasi limited lang eh.. di ko naman party yun noh.. hehe.. gumawa rin ako ng VTR for my sister..

(20) I ste Chocolates.. nung medyo depress ako! haha.. that's why I do.. to forget problems.. kaya whenever you see me eating chocolates.. tanungin niyo ako.. baka may reason kung bakit I'm eating chocolates! yummy.. (black forest- cadbury- my favorite!!!!)

(21) Gumawa ako ng fruit salad.. kasi.. mixed emotions ung nararamdaman ko.. nung time na.. basta.. yung tungkol kay ano!

(22) Ang hirap ng MAth!

(23) Kumanta ako nung saturday sa bahay,. at syempre,. ang aking tatay nang asar na naman.. kanino ko daw dinededicate yung kanta.. mahirap ba daw kalimutan si migo?.. nag ddrive na ba daw si migo?.. matagal ba daw ako maka recover?.. Mas gusto daw niya si migo kaysa sa mga nagiging crush ko! amf!! walang kwenta.. tama ba naman yun? sorry dad.. pero ayaw na ng Mommy kay migo.. ahaha.. sinaktan kasi ako eh.. yan tuloy.. ayaw na din sanya tuloy ng mga tita, tita and pinsan ko.. wakoko.. syempre inignore ko lang dad ko dun sa mga tinanong niya.. aahahhaha...

(24) nakatext ko si nina.. yeah.. usap about? kanino nga un nina?? ah.. lam ko na,, kay simon.. kay charles.. kay jan.. kay kristine.. at sa kambal.. kasama ko kasi si bea nung mag katext kami.. kaya yun mga napag usapan! bea talaga.. basta pag dating kay robin.. nako.. nagiging loka loka..

(25) Nag beach kami sa batangas with the whole family.. saya.. next time na yung pics.. tinatamad ako mag upload eh..

(26) busy mga tao ngayon.. maguusap na kami ni pao sa phone.. bye...

sa susunod nalang ulit..

review center

2005-04-19T23:30:00.000-07:00

I was kept on crying at the end of the day..

I’m not really in the mood for blogging. I don’t feel well, but since there’s a lot of thing happened today, I’ll blog for good. I’ll just brief you of what happened.

I woke up at quarter to six to feed my baby sister then went back to sleep. 30 minutes later I stood up, took a shower, and I’m all dressed up for school. (Review Center). I was calling Nicole for 7 minutes and no one’s answering. Finally, her mom answered. Nicole told me that she’s trying to call me.

So we’re off to CSB (College of St. Benilde, in case you didn’t know), dressed up like a college student with our own totes.

It was our first time to commute without the accompany of adult. It was 2 rides from villas to CSB and we are actually running out of time. We left the house at 7:30 am and we need to be there at exactly 8 am. Thank God we arrived just on time. We were asked to sit for awhile and somebody will assist us leading us to our respective rooms. We waited so long then a teacher came to us and told us that he’s been waiting for us.

We are seated in front and we are chilling so it requires us to bring a jacket of our own. I saw one of my classmate way back during my Formative years in Maria Semper Fidelis School. My former school! She’s still the same, nothing’s changed. Nicole and I decided to introduce ourselves which they also did.

And guys, the test was pretty strenuous. Really. I can’t even recall what I’ve learned in Chemistry, Biology and Math. I mean that was months ago? Hahaha. It’s a right minus wrong test and I was a little bit anxious because our class will be divided into sections based on the exam taken. Particularly the diagnostic test! duh! what else?

The school was Over, and not to mention the difference between High school and College way of reciting. I was asked to introduce myself. So, I stood up. Not knowing that when you enter College you don’t have to stand up. You just have to sit down and recite. It doesn’t matter. Well I’m just applying what I learned in my beloved Alma matter which is OBMC. This institution has taught me lot of things. That Includes Manner, Social graces and how to be polite. One more thing, you don’t have to ask permission to go to the CR, you just have to go out and be back after 15 minutes (that’s a very long time). In College there’s no more “Good morning Mr. blah blah blah” or “Good bye and Thank you Mr. Blah blah blah” (with matching intonation pattern haha..). And lastly, Teachers will not tell you whether you are dismissed or not, they’re just going to step out of the room not knowing that you are already dismissed. Weird.

We took our lunch at Mc Donald’s beside DLSU (De La Salle University). Then we went to St. Scholastica after to get the report cards of Nicole’s sisters (Nashla and Neliza). It was really scorching outside and we’re sweating. So we decided to buy some refreshments.

We got home at around 2:30 pm, and then called Bea telling her that we’ll pass by. I got a chance to chat with Wig-Wig and Ayeth as well. I saw Bea’s room and it was all in yellow! We tried inviting Bea to join us but her mom said they’ll talk about it later.

We went to Nicole’s house together with Bea to have some munchies, watch DVDs and make a phone call to anyone we like. (Hans, Garcia brothers, and Migo)

Hans and Nicole had an argument which started by who else? Of course Nicole. Bad Girl!

Next was the Garcia brothers, and Bea was jumping all the way and her heart was pumping really hard! But unfortunately they’re not there. They were at Shangri-La Mall which is just 5 minutes away from their house. Too bad Bea didn’t get a chance to talk to robin.

After some time, I tried browsing Bea’s cell phone and it has a recorder so I recorded my voice telling about sweet things to Migo. It was s actually a 6 minutes and 40 seconds time of recording.

Bea was trying to call up Migo for about 3 times? But he’s still in bed. Maybe got tired of training for his incoming tournaments in Jungolf.

When we got home, Bea called Migo to tell him about the recording stuff which I did a while ago and I really didn’t like what I just heard from Bea.

Bea called me telling me what happened after the call. I felt like crying after hearing those stuff and it really hurts. I’m upset.

I tried texting him asking him why but then he can’t answer my questions. He’s totally different now and even told me not to bother him tonight because he’s mentally preparing for tomorrow. So I decided to end the conversation and told him that I’ll pray for him. Well, for always. He’s always in my prayers. He’s different now and because of that I’m losing hope. Yes I am. Well I do understand him somehow.

I called Marianne with a crying voice. Yes, I was kept on crying like it was the end of my life and I really can’t stop it, until now. Good thing my best bud was there to comfort me. I’m really thankful for having her in my life and I know she understands me a lot. Whenever I fall she always catches me, she never leaves me even though at times we have some misunderstandings. I love her forever!

All I can do now is to prove him that I’m better this time around. I’ve grown up and I’m ready to face the world again. I’m ready, and I know GOD will always be there for me. He will guide me in whatever difficulties he’ll give out.

Im happy.. but I was kept on crying at the end of the day!

2005-04-19T20:54:00.000-07:00

I was kept on crying at the end of the day!

I'm not reALly in the mood for blogging.. I don't feel well but since there's a lot of things happend yesterday.. I'll blog for good.. I'll just give you a brief.. of what happend..

I woke up at quarter to six to feed my baby sister.. but since im still sleepy I went back to sleep.. then woke up at around 6:30 am.. went to shower.. and I'm all dressed up for school.. review center actually...

I was calling nicole for about 5 mins.. and no one's answering.. finally her mom answered... nicole told me that she was calling me.. So.. we're off to CSB (college of st. benilde, in case you didnt know) we are all dressed up like a college student with our totes..

It was our first time to commute without the accompany of adults.. It was 2 rides from villas to CSB.. we left at 7:30 am and we're running out of time because we..

***To be continued.. hehe.. mamaya.. wait.. my mom is calling me eh..***

Kuya EriCk

2005-04-17T00:24:00.000-07:00

Kuya Erick..

waahh.. syet.. ang galing ni kuya erick mag guitar.. well actually kakagaling ko lang sa site niya.. and narinig ko yung mga ni record niya.. ang galing mag guitar.. kaya ako nag blog ngayon.. coz.. I'm very happy.. kasi.. yung mga tinutugtog niya sa school maririnig ko parin kahit wala na siya sa school! galing kasi eh.. Before.. Kailangan antayin ko pa mag uwian.. tapos go sa green tables in front of the computer lab.. then jamming doon!! kaya nung nag graduate na ang 4th yr.. nalungkot ako.. kasi.. wala nang kuya erick na magaling mag guitar.. yung taong tutugtugin yung here there and everywhere!! haha.. yung lagi kong request saknya.. at favorite ko rin yung all i ask of you and somewhere in time.. nakaka in love kasi.. sobrang ganda yung song na yun.. lalo na pag tinugtugtog sa guitar.. well actually.. yung somewhere in time.. narinig ko na siya before sa tape ng mom ko.. kaya gusto ko yun.. and naponood ko naman sa phantom of the opera yung all I ask of you.. at yung here there and everywhere.. dahil kay kuya erick kaya ko nagustuhan yun kasi.. tinugtog niya sa guitar.. tapos.. nagandahan ako.. kaya everytime na mag giguitar session kami.. never nawawala sa request ko ung here there and everywhere!! wala lang.. haaayy.. nakakainis naman.. wala na si kuya erick!

HOY KUYA ERICK.. MAMAYA LIMAKI ULO MO DYAN NOH!! PINUPURI KITA.. PERO JUST FOR NOW.. DAHIL SA MGA FAVORITE KONG SONGS.. HAHA.. JOKE.. PERO SA TOTOO LANG! GALING MO TALAGA MAG GUITAR! MASTER!! IDOL! PAK CHET!

I dont Understand Myself!

2005-04-16T08:31:00.000-07:00

I can't understand myself!!

I cant understand myself.. bakit ganun? ewan ko lang ah.. kasi pabago bago ung feelings ko.. haayy.. ang gulo talaga.. ang hirap.. di o malaman kung ano susundin ko! waaahh.. ang daming pumapasok sa utak ko na I really cant understand! I mean.. You know guys.. minsan.. hindi ko siya mahaL! ahaha.. minsan naman sobrang Love ko siya! waaahh.. tulungan nio naman ako.. SPEAK UP! waahh.. I need help.. mag comment kayo.. naguguluhan kasi ako.. grabe.. maybe kasi.. pag nakikitang kong nakikipag flirt siya sa iba.. parang nawawalan ako ng gana saknya.. yes.. waahh.. parang feeling ko.. mas ok na nakikipag flirt siya sa iba.. haha.. weird ko! hindi kasi.. parang pag nasasaktan me.. nwawalan ako ng hope.. at yung iba namang mga tao.. they're trying to put me down.. Like the two bitches Im talking about! yeah.. I-primary photo ba naman ang pictures! baka gusto niyong i post ko ung buong friendster ko ng pictures namin! baka gusto niyo pang makita nung naka yakap siya sakin ng mahigpit na ayaw ako pakawalan?! haha.. wala pa yan sa pictures naming dalawa noh!.. ahahaha.. mga chungak! anyways.. tama si Ate Ia.. aahaha.. Malalandi kasi.. wakokoko.. mga feeling kasi eh.. they are acting like my love's girlfriend! in your dreams bitch! ahaha.. maasar na kayo sakin!!! and I dont fuckin care!! waaahh.. ang gago ko talaga! grabe! syet! haha.. ndi.. galit lang kasi ako ngayon.. well.. right now.. di ko siya love ngayon! ahahaha.. weird ko!.. baka bukas love ko na siya ulit..nga pala! yung isang bitch! nagsusumbong pa! at inaaway pa yung love ko para lang magalit sakin at pag sabihan ako! amf!! eto lang ang masasabi ko! wag mong i-under ang love ko ok? wala kang karapatan awayin siya dahil love ko yun.. pinagtatanggol ko lang siya!! dahil ayokong nakikitang may umaaway sakanya! at ang sasabhn pa.. "naiinis na ako dyan sa ex mo ah..pag sabihan mo yan.. napupuno na ako" di siya exact.. pero it goes something like that!

Nga pala.. if ever na mabasa niya ito.. ng love ko.. nako.. wag mo akong aawayin.. dahil wala akong panahon sa two bitches na yan okie? kung gusto mo sila kampihan go ahead.. kahit murahin mo ako ulit ok lang po.. I'll accept it.. at least.. Inilabas ko na ang nararamdaman ko sa two bitches na yan.. I know I dont have the right to say those things to them.. at alam kong yan ang sasabhin mo.. pero wala silang paki!!! dahil Blog ko to.. and I'm not mentioning any names ok? Unless Guilty yung iba dyan!! at baka tamaan pa sila!! ahaha.. Basta.. alam kong magagalit ka sakin.. dahil syempre ako na naman ang lumalabas na masama!! kahit na may point naman ako.. ipagtanggol mo yung so-called friends mo.. basta nilalabas ko na lahat ng galit ko dito! hmmpp!! nagtatampo ako sayo ngayon!

nga pala my mom bought me new desktop! yihee.. la lang.. that's why Im in the mood for blogging! yep..

ANG DAMING SUMUSUBAYBAY SA LOVE STORY NAMIN!! ahahaha.. joke lang! PANG TELESERYE ITO! OR MAALAALA MO KAYA! OR MAGPAKAILANMAN! AHAHAHA...

ETO YUNG MGA TITLES NA PAGPIPILIAN KO!

*SUGGESTED BY BEA*

*Tanga ko sayo
*Lovers in OB
*Stained Johann
*It might be m*gi*g

*SUGGESTED BY WIG-WIG*

*Kay tagal mo ko pinaghintay
*Hiniram

*SUGGESTED BY SARI*
*Sana'y wala ng wakas

********kung meron kau suggestion sa title ng aming teleserye.. paki lagay nalang sa comment! hehehe.. okie?? wag sa tag!*******

2005-04-14T05:41:00.000-07:00

What a Bitch! What an a-hole! What a Shit!

okie.. so medyo mainit init ang ulo ko ngayun.. di naman masyadong halata diba? pero wait.. maya ko na ikukuwento.. ok.. My mom gave me a 14K white gold BVLGARI necklace and bracelet from korea.. its really cute i love it..

I have an upcoming project from Organon philippines.. elaine and I are going to set up a stage for their film.. they're going to make a movie or something..

so.. Im chatting with Ianne right now.. giving her advices!! haha.. go Ianne.. tke it from me.. the expert.. haha.. well.. I told her I've been through those things.. I fell in love and broken hearted as well.. I had some experiences.. from my 2 ex.. and its enough for me to say na may pinag daanan din ako.. so.. i told her.. na..

Chui: sige ganito..
Chui: if ever man
Chui: na magkabalikan kau
Chui: if ever...
Chui: dont give too much.. ok..
Chui: in a relationship
Chui: dapat
Chui: di lang give ng give
Chui: kasi
Chui: u should also take..
Chui: tapos..
Ianne: ano
Ianne: ???
Chui: u should know ur limitations
Chui: and dapt..
Chui: whenever u are in a difficult situation
Chui: lagi kang mag iisip
Chui: isipin mo ang mga magiging consequences..
Chui: dahil..
Chui: mahirap mag sisi sa huli
Chui: wag kang sugod ng sugod..
Chui: kailangan
Chui: alam mo kung ano ang ginagawa mo..
Chui: pero if you are sure
Chui: dun sa mga ginagawa mo..
Chui: go..
Chui: pero..
Ianne: ano???
Chui: isipin mo muna
Chui: mabuti
Chui: okie??
Chui: basta
Chui: maiintindihan mo din yan
Chui: hehe
Chui: take it from me
Chui: the expert
Chui: ahahha

okie.. now.. galing ko mag advice noh? hehe.. well anyway.. kahit naman na palpak ang aking love life.. I learned something.. and its for me to share it to my love ones who needs comfort.. kailangan din nila malaman ung mga natutunan ko.. base on my experience.. well..kung sino man broken hearted.. dr. chui is always here to help..

Mae.. Im sorry dun sa nangyari sa inyo ni john.. dont worry.. there are a lot of guys out there.. I know you love him.. pero.. u have to let go.. pero.. that doesnt mean goodbye.. your love for him will still remain.. and Nobody can change it..

Ok.. sakin naman.. well.. kahapon.. nag basa ako ng mga "pasa notes" namin ng ex ko.. before.. during class hours.. and I realized something.. dun sa mga letters na yun.. 2 letters lang yata ang may nakalagay na sweet.. but.. the rest.. puro sermon.. I realized na minahal niya talaga ako.. hindi ko akalain na ganun niya ako kamahal.. the way he writes his feelings on that piece of paper.. kasi.. before.. medyo may pag ka manhid ako.. and Im selfish.. sarili ko lang iniisip ko.. I didnt realize na.. meron din siyang.. own problem.. not only me.. and hindi lang ako ang nasasakatan.. siya din.. pero ang lumalabas kasi.. pinapapili ko siya.. na alam kong hindi naman niya kayang i-sacrifice.. both love and family.. one lang dapat.. and syempre.. hindi niya kayang i-sacrifice ang love over family.. yes I know... coz he cant stand on his own.. he still needs the company of his family.. and I am being so selfish.. dahil lang ba na pinapayagan ako ng mom ko na mag ka bf? I mean.. I should also understand his situation..and its really hard to choose amon the two.. kasi both na malapit sa heart niya.. though I know na mas matimbang ang family niya.. I know somehow na.. Importante rin ako sa buhay niya.. Mahirap isipin na ang isang tao ay wala na sayo.. pero let go na.. and I know na he loves me.. kahit na sabihin niya sa sarili niya na hindi na.. I can feel it.. he still loves me.. pero now.. its time to heal the wounds first.. be friends muna.. and when the right time comes.. its time to make a new decision.. wheather Im willing to open the doors again.. or will remain close but open windows.. Im letting go.. not because I dont love him.. Its because he needs to be free.. I dont own him.. and will never be.. Letting go doesnt mean goodbye.. I'll just take a rest.. we should both take a rest.. until we become mature enough.. and I promise we'll meet again and we'll together face those trials.. that we didnt face before.. I know you'll come back someday.. dont worry.. I will never give up on loving you.. My love will remain still for you.. I just need to set you free..

Now.. Yung kina kainit naman ng ulo ko.. oh well eto na naman.. medyo kasi nabawasan na kasi nailabas ko na yung feelings but then.. may sasabihin lang ako.. yung mga ibang Tao dyan.. particularly ung may mga gusto sa love ko.. na may picture pa with him.. and the other one also na she even croped the other person with the both of them.. and ung dalwang mag bestfriend dyan.. oh well.. eto lang masasabi ko.. if you both have a crush on him.. why deny it?? sasabhn niyo pa na kuya lang or bro.. haha.. di naman masyadong halata noh?? ilagay lang ba sa friendster.. at I-primary photo pa.. at yung isa.. sabi pa.. "friend ko lang po siya baka kung ano isipin niyo" well.. baka ikaw ang nagiisip ng iba dyan.. I mean.. Im not mentioning anyone.. pero you know who you are.. and wag kayong mapipikon kong sabhn ko man mga ito sainyo.. dahil ako nga dapat ang ma pikon ok?? dahil kami ang may pinag samahan.. di ko naman sinasabi na wala kayong pinag samahan dahil I know na friends niyo siya.. pero my gosh! stop dreaming! at wag kayong plastik sakin ok? somebody told me.. one of my classmates sabi.. na yung isang friend ng love ko.. tinataasan daw ako ng kilay!! pag naka talikod ako! or pag di ako naka tingin!!! aba!!!! at yung isa namang babae.. aba.. sabi ba naman kuya daw niya yun.. pero malalaman ko sa friend ko na naiinlove na pala siya dun.. well.. buti sana kung close ko kayo noh.. maiintindihan ko pa.. like.. hehe.. ******** joke lang.. hehe.. tinutulungan ko pa nga siya eh.. ehehe.. kasi close kami.. pag di ko kayo feel.. sorry.. di tayo friends! haha.. joke.. ang taray ko.. wala lang.. kasi lalo na ung dalawang babae.. may sungay yata eh.. kau yata nag lalagay ng sungay sa love ko kaya nag bago na ugali niya.. ibang iba na siya nung nakasama niyo siya.. haha.. pero.. sorry.. di mag babago pag mamahal ko dun noh!.. at di nyo ko kayang siraan saknya.. dahil alam kong minahal niya ako.. and.. kahit na.. galit ang pinangungunahan niya.. mawawala din yun.. dahil.. love will conquer all! haha.. sorry guys.. managinip nalang kayo.. sana wag kayo bangungutin! dahil alam ko naman na masarap manginip.. haha.. joke lang.. well.. inis lang naman to noh.. dont worry.. Im not mad..

**Sorry.. Kung mataray ako!! haha.. ganyan talaga ang pag ibig!!**

Office

2005-04-11T22:19:00.000-07:00

Office... work.. home..

Ok.. I've been here in the office of my mom since yesterday to do some stuff.. My mom asked me if i wanted to earn extra income.. and I told her yes.. I was really excited to get there and do those bundle of work papers.. Since I have nothinf to do at home.. I decided to just help my mom.. I was recommended by mom to be the encoder.. stuff like that.. to do the XLence Survey of the Organon Company.. and Right now Im still here at her office.. But.. since Im done with my work.. I decided to blog and share to you my experience here in the office.. well it may not be what you're thinking.. Like wearing those corporate Attire.. But then.. what matters is.. I met new people.. New environment.. had that experience.. and of course a new friend.. yes.. I met someone.. she's the niece of my Mom's boss.. and she's really kind.. Her name is Elaine.. she was also recommended by her aunt to be the encoder.. so that means we share the work that was given to us.. Uhhmm.. I just finished the part one of the files of my Mom.. Actually whenever I hear them talking.. particularly the reps.. and the managers.. I really don't understand.. But.. then.. Im trying to ask my mom about it.. or what it is for.. or why should they do those things... So It made me realinze.. that.. when you enter such company.. You really have to be aware of the things you're managing.. well in order to reach your target you have to be confident enough especially when it comes to promoting your product to the doctor.. because if you let anyone go beyond your territory.. you can never reach your target.. and in this company.. you should also know how to convince the doctor to get your products.. hehe.. Its like convincing the teachers to accept your late projects!! haha.. just kidding..

Yesterday.. I was asked to call all the reps who answered the XLence survey of organon philippines.. So it turned out like a call center! haha.. and they were like.. whoa.. who's this kiddo calling me and using the office's number.. haha.. so they were all asking me who I am.. So I tried to explain and that ate so much of the time because of just asking who I am.. But because my Mom is manager and she always make kwento to those reps about me.. when I mentioned my name they already knew.. right there and then.. they were like.. "aaahhhhh ikaw pala anak ni ma'am odette" hehe..

what is really hard about this work is that you are really exercising your brain.. that's why by the time you get home.. you're all drained up.. haha.. oh well... gotta go... till next time..

Queenie's Bday..

2005-04-10T07:19:00.000-07:00

I Love Having Fun!!

we went to Glorietta.. yesterday.. we had fun! hehe.. It's Queenie's Bday celebration actually.. well.. I enjoyed a lot.. although only the four of us.. [me, queenie, yani, princess] came.. As soon as I came.. queenie invited us to eat.. haha.. coz she's starving already.. so we decided to eat at yellow cab.. but because glorrietta is a small place.. we can't find it! haha.. then decided to eat at shakeys nalang.. then after.. a little walk.. to burn fats!! haha.. we saw some swim suits so queenie decided to try it on.. haha.. but didnt buy any.. though she really wants that pink swim suit! hehe.. we also went to greenbelt.. and we're actully planning to go to RED BOX.. since we only had 2 hours left.. we decided to go to TIMEZONE greenbelt.. haha.. the funniest thing is.. timezone has this sketch machine.. its van goh's i think.. haha.. we took some pictures.. for memories!! and we really look stupid.. but its really fun!! when we're about to go home.. i told mrianne to print our pictures from our cellfones.. and believe me.. it really took years!! to print those pictures!! the hell! though it was cheap.. 25 pesos.. 4 cute size pictures already.. hehe.. then we went to yani's house.. and take a look at the place.. it was nice.. really nice.. then had some conversation with her mom.. about this business.. yani and I were reminiscing.. haha.. about our.. school days.. looking at our pictures.. hehe.. well.. i really miss my buds!! my classmates.. huhu.. but dont worry we well be seeing each other soon.. very SOON.. so guys.. here are some of the pictures taken yesterday.. haha.. we look like idiots!

that's me and my best bud yani!!

Queenie.. Me and yani

Yani me and queenie.. at timezone.. haha

Me and yani again.. haha.. mukha akong naughty.. and si yani ung gudgirl! haha

Yani me and Queenie..

haha... we're so funny!

That's me!!

And here are the portraits! from van goh's!

Queenie and princess..

Me and Yani

and of corz... the three of us.. haha..

HAHA.. MUkha Kaming wAnteD sa Mga PoRtraitS!!

Whatever?

2005-04-05T06:14:00.000-07:00

It's good to be alone in the Dark.. with no one to hurt you like before..

**got that from paolo Cablay's Status**

I just want to let you know guys that I lost 7 pounds! yihee.. Im so happy... well Im on a diet right now.. and I just wanna prove something you know!!.. Hans kept on saying that Im saying those lines since I was in first yr and yet there's no difference and I still have those flabs!! well.. hans.. this time.. you'll see... haha!

Okie.. I'm chatting right now.. with jonathan.. well I call him Kulit.. he's so funny.. haha.. and Paolo Cablay whoa.. he still remembers me! naks.. well we're talking about things!! like how to move on.. Sabi niya magalit daw ako dun sa taong mahal ko! waekeke.. uu nga noh?? I should try that! u'll never know? maybe it'll work.. haha.. oh well.. I guess I should just enjoy my summer.. and just forget about those things.. forget about love.. yeah.. some of you would even tell me that there are a lot of guys out there.. more deserving.. who's worth it! Maybe guys its easy for you to say those things.. pero its really hard on my part.. coz its not that easy to let go of somebody.. somebody you loved.. and still is! I can't hate him! because I love him! duhhhhh! you cannot say na its ok.. kasi Its not ok.. and.. I think.. Im giving up.. I dunno.. Im all swirled up!! I can't understand this feeling.. tama kayo guys.. pero.. grabe.. ang hirap talaga.. yes.. I'm losing Hope.. but because I love him.. nabubuhayan ako ng loob.. siguro kung di ko siya mahal? Sumuko na ako matagal na.. duuuhhhhhh... kaya nga ako lumalaban its because I love him.. haaaayyy.. ano ba ito..

Well.. Im happy for him.. Kung san sya masaya.. ok lang sakin.. KAHIT MASAKIT!!!! ouch.. it really hurts talaga.. pero..if he's happy.. then I should be happy for him also.. if I love him then.. I should let him go.. If I love him I should be happy for him! though it really hurts!! di ko naman makukuha lahat ng gusto ko.. if he's not for me.. then I just have to accept that fact.. pero if someone comes into my life again.. I will not let him enter!! haha.. just kidding.. Im not yet ready to love again.. ano yun? panibagong relationship? panibagong love?? pero.. may kasama na namang pain?? well that's a no no to me!! i dont want na! i dont want to enter a relationship again.. next time na!! that is kung mawala love ko kay _ _ _ _.. haha..

I did not regret anything naman eh.. Im happy coz he touched my life.. Im happy because.. once in my life i met _ _ _ _.. Im happy for those memories... the things we shared together.. The times im in his company.. Im happy coz he loved me.. cared for me..

All I can say is.. Im missing him.. everything about him.. his sweetness.. you know wut guys.. he's really perfect for me.. yeah.. he's over protective.. pero I understand kasi.. he's doing that because he loves me so much.. Mabilis mag selos.. Mabilis mag tampo.. Mabilis magalit.. pero naiintindihan ko lahat ng yun.. I understand!! coz he loves me.. ginagawa niya lahat ng yun.. kasi MAHAL niya ako.. and Im gonna miss those things.. lahat ng ginagawa niya para sakin.. Kasi sobrang concern sakin yung taong yun.. I can say that he really loved me.. naramdaman ko yun!! sobra..

Namimiss ko na nga yung times na nag sasabi siya sakin ng I LOVE YOU ng pabulong sa loob ng classroom kahit na may teacher eh.. yung times na niyayakap niya ako at sinasabi sa friends ko na.. "mahal na mahal ko tong babaeng to".. Namimiss ko yung times na sinasabi niyang ako lang ang mahal niya.. yung mga araw na lagi siyang nasa tabi ko at binabantayan ako.. yung mga days na inaaway niya sila hans, paolo, at gens pag inaasar nila ako.. yung times na kinukwento niya ako sa mga friends ko at sinasabing.. "mahal ko si Johann".. yung times na tinitignan niya yung mga pictures ko sa wallet niya at sasabihing "ang ganda talaga ng baby ko".. yung mga days na magtetext siya at sasabihing "i miss you baby".. yung mga gabing mag uusap kami sa cellphone ng matagal dahil miss na miss na namin ang isa't isa at ayaw niyang ibaba yng phone kahit alam kong tataas na yung bill ng nanay ko! yung times na magtatampo siya dahil tinutulugan ko siya sa text.. yung times na nilalambing niya ako.. namimiss ko na rin yung times na gagawa siya ng banner na nakalagay i love you tapos i tataas niya pag naka talikod yung teacher.. namimiss ko yung papicture picture namin sa cellphone namin.. yung times na hinahatid niya ako dito sa house para maihatid ako ng safe! yung times na magagalit siya kasi maikli yung sinusuot kong short pag nag vovolleyball! yung times na papagalitan niya ako kasi plunging yung damit ko! haha.. yung times na magpupunta kami sa g4 and magpapakasweet sa movie house.. yung times na hinahalikan niya yung hand ko.. yung times niya hinahawakan niya yung hands ko.. mamimiss ko yung times na inaasar kami ng teachers.. [mr. alegrid, mrs. delos trinos, ms. delos reyes, mr. sison, mrs. escudero].. mamimiss ko yung times na pinapanood ko siya mag basketball at bigyan ng water pag alam kong pagod na pagod na siya.. yung times na itetext niya ako pag may tournament siya kahit na bawal yun at baka ma disqualify siya.. yung times na itetext niya ako sa umaga ng 5am at gigisingin ako at sasabihing papasok na ako sa school..

I miss everything about him.. lahat lahat!! Its not that easy to forget him!! kasi he's part of my everyday routine!! diba mahirap?? kaya sobrang laki ng nawala sa buhay ko ng mawala siya.. haaaayyy.. babalik pa kaya siya??

Here are a few reasons why guys like girls:

2005-04-04T09:43:00.000-07:00

Here are a few reasons why guys like girls:

1.They will always smell goodeven if its just shampoo
2.The way their heads alwaysfind the right spot on our shoulder
3.How cute they look when they sleep
4.The ease in which they fit into our arms
5.The way they kiss you andall of a sudden everythingis right in the world
6.How cute they are when they eat
7.The way they take hoursto get dressedbut in the endit makes it all worth while
8.Because they are alwayswarm even when its minus 30 outside
9.The way they look goodno matter what they wear
10.The way they fish for complimentseven though you both know that youthink she's the mostbeautiful thing on this earth
11.How cute they are when they argue
12.The way her hand always finds yours
13.The way they smile
14.The way you feelwhen you see their nameon the call IDafter you just had a big fight
15.The way she says"lets not fight anymore"even though you know thatan hour later....
16.The way they kiss whenyou do something nice for them
17.The way they kiss youwhen you say"I love you"
18.Actually ...just the way they kiss you...
19.The way they fall into your armswhen they cry
20.Then the way they apologizefor crying over something that silly
21.The way they hit youand expect it to hurt
22.Then the way they apologizewhen it does hurt.(even though we don't admit it)!
23.The way they say"I miss you"
24.The way you miss them
25.The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it
doesn't hurt her anymore.....Yet regardless if you love them,hate them,wish they would die
orknow that you would die without them ...it matters not. Because once in your life,whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.

Chat

2005-04-03T09:33:00.000-07:00

Chat

okie.. well.. we went to robinsons.. to buy something.. then church.. then go home and chat.. ehehee..

Dami kong naka chat na mga 4th year.. and its already 1:30 am.. di pa ako natutulog... kulit kasi nila eh!! lalo na si jonathan!! oi.. bago kong kapitbahay yan! ehehe.. dalawin mo ko dito jonathan ah!! ehehe.. yey.. anyways.. naka chat ko rin si wig-wig ngayun.. and si alex.. naka webcam sya and ako rin.. la lang.. usap usap.. kamustahan.. at staying cute parin siya.. ehehee.. oh well kinamusta niya lang ako pati ang aking love.. ayun.. pati ung kaaway ko! haha.. wait.. eto ung chat naming dalawa ni alex.. kung matyaga ka basahin mo.. pero alam kong tatamarin kau.. ahahaha..

here..

Chui: alex
Alex: hi
Chui: alex
Chui: ikaw ba yan?
Chui: oi
Chui: frend
Alex: oo
Alex: johann
Chui: sige nga
Alex: wait lang a
Chui: kung ikaw si alex kailan bday ko?
Alex: march 23
Alex: hehehe
Chui: ikaw ba yan?
Alex: nkalimutan ko nga igrit u e
Chui: kailan naging tau?
Chui: pati yr ah
Alex: jan 18
Chui: year?
Alex: ako to c alex pogi
Chui: ikaw ba yan?
Chui: yr?
Alex: 2nd
Alex: mag 3rd an
Alex: na
Chui: gagu
Chui: ahahhaa
Alex: ako toh
Chui: year naging tau
Alex: view mo cam ko
Chui: vuang
Chui: sige
Alex: panet ko e
Alex: kakahiya
Chui: asus
Alex: bagong gising
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: not available
Alex: bkt?
Alex: try ko ulit
Chui: ewan
Alex: naniwala ka na?
Alex: oi
Chui: uu na!
Chui: ahahahhaa
Alex: madilim dito e
Chui: uu nga madilim!
Chui: ang wafu mo naman
Chui: sino kasama mo?
Alex: ala me lang
Chui: sino ka chat mo?
Alex: kakaonline ko lang
Alex: kaw lang pati c step
Chui: step?
Chui: sabihin mo add ako
Alex: pano
Chui: add nya to
Alex: ok
Alex: ok
Alex: cge
Chui: yohannies14@yahoo.com
Chui: okie?
Alex: invisible lang ako
Chui: bakit ka invi?
Alex: gusto ko lang
Alex: brb
Alex: meron lang ako check
Alex: ok
Chui: anu?
Alex: bzta
Alex: ok
Alex: brb
Chui: okie
Chui: dalian mo
Alex: BUZZ!!!
Chui: ow?
Chui: ehehhehe
Alex: cno ka chat mo?
Chui: ung kababata ko
Chui: visit mo blog ko
Alex: co?
Alex: cno?
Chui: http://pink-emotions.blogspot.com/
Chui: basta
Chui: taga ob gh
Alex: haler
Alex: ang linaw a ng webcam mo
Chui: ehehhe
Chui: syempre
Alex: hehehe
Alex: hehehe
Alex: cute na cute pa rin
Alex: hehehe
Chui: syempre
Chui: bolero na
Chui: ahahhaha
Alex: smile nga..
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: he!!!
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: rabit
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: ahahhaa kapal!!
Alex: gabi na a
Alex: gcing ka pa
Alex: hindi ka pa antok?
Chui: hindi
Chui: ala naman pasok eh
Alex: hehe
Alex: anon
Alex: gnon
Chui: yep
Chui: ehehehe
Alex: mzta na?
Chui: eto sad
Chui: puntahan mo blog ko
Alex: bakit?
Chui: kasi di na yata ako love ni _ _ _ _
Chui: huhhuuh
Alex: hehehe
Alex: wawa naman
Chui: huhuhu
Alex: huhuhuhuh
Alex: ano sabi niya
Chui: http://pink-emotions.blogspot.com/
Alex: nakita ko na
Chui: na wala na daw siyang feelings
Alex: dami mo nga pics e
Chui: tag ka dun
Alex: ok
Alex: maya na lang
Chui: pag yan nakalimutan mo
Chui: nako
Alex: ok
Alex: cge
Alex: pwamiz
Chui: ehehehe
Chui: okie
Alex: mzta na c ____(kaaway ni chui)
Alex: ?
Chui: hay nako
Alex: flirt?
Chui: waitt
Chui: kita mo status ko?
Alex: oo
Chui: ahahah
Chui: sya yun
Alex: naka online sya a
Chui: uu nga
Chui: ahahha
Chui: ala naman name eh
Alex: BUZZ!!!
Chui: ow?
Chui: ano
Alex: kachat mo saiya?
Chui: ndi
Alex: nsa conference ka?
Chui: oo
Alex: johann bad ka
Chui: ahahahhaa
Chui: bakit?
Alex: nakita ko c ayeth sa enchanted a
Alex: nung wed yata
Alex: kasama c desi
Chui: oo nga
Chui: ehehehe
Alex: cla ba?
Alex: oi
Alex: psssst
Alex: wag mo na awayn
Alex: BUZZ!!!
Alex: johann
Chui: ahahah
Chui: ano ba
Alex: wag mo na patulan
Alex: hehehe
Chui: ahahha
Chui: di naman niya alam un eh
Alex: wat tym katulog?
Alex: antok na ko e
Chui: maya pa
Alex: brb
Chui: 1am
Chui: ahahhaa
Alex: tag lang ako
Chui: 1 am
Chui: off ko na web cam ko ah
Chui: o ano na aj?
Chui: BUZZ!!!
Alex: wag muna
Alex: bkt?
Chui: kala ko ba tulog ka na? edi patayin ko na webcam ko
Chui: ahahahha
Alex: maya maya pa
Chui: ehehhee
Chui: smile ka nga
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: hehehehe]
Alex: ano nang yari sa kabila?
Chui: san?
Alex: ano sabi niya?
Chui: umalis na sila
Chui: wala ahahhaa
Alex: a ok
Alex: natakot yata sayo c ____(kaaway ni chui)
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: ahahah
Chui: nye?
Alex: ?
Alex: cno kasama mo?
Alex: umiiyak ka?
Chui: hinde
Chui: dito?
Chui: maid
Alex: ok
Alex: mom mo?
Chui: sa taas\
Chui: tulog na
Alex: dad mo?
Chui: taas din
Alex: ok
Alex: hindi ka natatakot?
Chui: may kasama ako
Chui: yung mais
Alex: hehehe
Alex: mais ba o maid?
Chui: ung maid pala
Alex: heheheh
Alex: ok
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: hihihihihihihihi
Chui: ahahhaa
Alex: BUZZ!!!
Chui: ow?
Chui: la lang
Chui: tagal na natin di nag uusap ah
Chui: ahahha
Alex: oo nga e
Chui: anung gagawin mo dis summer?
Alex: bakasyon sa australia
Alex: cguro dis april
Chui: wow
Chui: aaahhh
Alex: kaw?
Chui: sa europe
Chui: sa june pa
Chui: ehhehhw
Alex: wow
Chui: ahahhaa
Chui: sige sige
Alex: san dun?
Chui: ay mali
Chui: wait
Chui: rome
Chui: paris
Chui: london
Alex: ang dami a
Chui: tyaka italy
Chui: ahahhaha
Alex: sama naman
Chui: yehey
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: libre mo ko
Chui: sige\
Chui: basta pamasahe mo
Alex: hehehe
Chui: aahahaha
Alex: libre mo nga ako e
Chui: ahahhaha
Alex: dali na
Alex: cge na
Alex: pliz
Chui: nek nek mo
Chui: ahahhaha
Chui: la ako pera
Alex: hahahahaa
Chui: libre nga lang sakin eh
Alex: gnon ba?
Alex: hehehehehe
Alex: hehehehe
Alex:
Alex: @];-
Chui: kulit
Chui: ahahha
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: wahahahahaha
Alex: cute talaga
Alex: ng pet ko
Chui: ahahhaa
Alex: hehehehehehe
Chui: sira ulo!
Alex: nice doggy
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: joks lang po
Alex: dont cry
Alex: hehehe
Alex: syempre
Alex: cute talaga c johann
Alex: smyl nga
Chui: nek nek mo
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: gabi na a.. staying cute parin
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: wahahahahaha
Chui: aahhaha
Alex: ano secret mo?
Chui: oo naman
BUZZ!!!
Chui: ahahha
Chui: sira ulo!
Alex: wahahahaha
Chui: ang gwapo mo naman pillow!!![status sa Ym]
Chui: ahahahhaa
Alex: "ang gwapo mo naman pillow!!"
Chui: ehehehe
Alex: hehehehe'
Alex: ganon
Alex: salamat
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: awahahahaha
Chui: ahahaha
Alex: cute pa noh?
Chui: syempre liar ako
Chui: ahahha
Alex: hihihihihihihihihihihh
Chui: joke
Alex: naguusap pa ba kayo?
Alex: ni migo
Chui: ndi
Alex: y?
Chui: di sya nag rereply eh
Alex: kelan pa?
Chui: kasi nga di na nag daw niya ako mahal diba?
Alex: ano sabi niya sa letter mo?
Alex: ganon
Chui: huli nia akong tinext march 23
Alex: wawa naman johann
Alex: hapi bday?
Chui: uu nga eh
Chui: yep
Alex: dnt cry
Alex: dami ka pa naman frends dyan e
Chui: i know
Alex: kip smylin kip shynin.. knowing you cud alwayz count on me.. 4 sure.. DATS WAT FRENDS R 4
Chui: yeah
Chui: tnx
Chui: slamat
Alex: HEHEHE
Alex: ok lang
Alex: in gud tyms in bad tyms. il b on ur side 4evermore.. DATS WAT FRENDS R 4
Alex: DBA?
Alex: pwamiz d2 lang me
Chui: ehehehe
Chui: baka umulan aj
Alex: ano un?
Chui: ehehehe
Chui: joke
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: ok un para lumamig
Chui: uu nga
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: ahhahaha
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: kulit moz!
Alex: hehehehehe
Chui: mo**
Chui: \ahahhaa
Alex: kaw din e
Alex: mzta naman vacation?
Chui: hay
Chui: init eh
Alex: oo nga
Alex: lalo na sa ilocos
Alex: sobra
Chui: wow
Alex: nakakamatay
Chui: sino ba nandun?
Alex: c camz
Chui: bat kau nandun ni cams?
Alex: and ung tita niya
Alex: vacation lang
Alex: and couz nia
Chui: aaaaah
Alex: init sobra
Chui: buti pinayagan ka
Alex: as in
Alex: oo nga e
Chui: ehehehe
Chui: ilang araw?
Alex: 5
Alex: or 4
Alex: yata
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: ahahaha
Alex: magkano ung laruan na yon? [si chui sa webcam]
Chui: alin yung nasa webcam?
Alex: ung gumaganto?[sa webcam]
Alex: bibilhin ko na
Alex: ang cute e
Chui: cant afford
Chui: ahaahha
Alex: aalagaan ko
Alex: naks
Chui: tut mo noh!
Chui: ahahhaha
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: cant afford
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: si migo lang makakabili sakin][\
Chui: ahahhaa
Alex: ganon?
Chui: uu
Chui: ahahhaha
Alex: ok
Alex: pagiipunan ko na lang
Chui: kulit mo sa webcam
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: ganun?
Chui: di pa rin kaya
Chui: ahahhaha
Chui: masyado akong mahal
Alex: nanakawin ko na lang
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: may alarm ako
Alex: hehehehehe
Chui: huhulihin ka ng mga pulis
Alex: ganon ba?
Chui: aahahha
Alex: magaling naman ako e
Alex: heheheh
Chui: asus
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: antok ka na noh?
Alex: nag cmba ka ba?
Chui: oo naman ako pa????
Chui: ahahahaha
Alex: medyo
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: ahahaa
Alex: hehehe
Chui: humikab ka na sa webcam eh
Chui: ahhaha
Alex: kanina ka p ba naka online?
Chui: hinde
Chui: 'mga 9 lang
Alex: ok
Alex: tagal mo na pala
Chui: di ah
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: kulit mo sa webcam\
Chui: aahaha
Chui: pwede ko ba lagay sa blog ko yung mga pinaguusapan natin?
Alex: kahit naman ala sa webcam e
Chui: uu nga
Alex: hehehe
Alex: ok lang po
Chui: ah osige
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: smile nga
Alex: sabihin mo cute
Alex: ko
Alex: hehehehehehe
Chui: tut mo!
Chui: ahahhaha
Alex: hehehehehe
Chui: juke lang
Chui: ahahahha
Chui: sabay taas kilay ah
Alex: hehehehehe
Alex: eat [webcam]
Alex: bulaga
Chui: takot ako
Chui: ahahhahaa
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: bakit?
Alex: ala ka na kasama?
Chui: ndi
Alex: or sa...
Chui: sa bulaga mo sa webcam
Chui: aghahahhaha
Chui: juke
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: san ka nagcmba?
Alex: close open
Alex: ?
Chui: chungak
Chui: echos yun
Chui: ahahhaa
Alex: ano?
Alex: a ganon ba?
Alex: akala ko close open
Chui: sa sta. ana church ako nag simba
Alex: hehehehe
Alex: close open
Alex: aline
Chui: sige
Chui: aghahhaha
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: cute
Chui: ako
Alex: hehehehe
Chui: ahhahaha
Alex: cute [sumusuka]
Chui: kapal mo!
Chui: ahahhaha
Alex: hehehehehe
Chui: ahahhaa
Alex: Oh please, oh please, oh please, oh please. . . .Yes!
Chui: ahahhaa
Alex: Remember that polka dot bow tie you got me last year? (crying) This year take a hint. . . now that's more like it!
Chui: sssshhh
Chui: wag ka maingay
Alex: (singing) I'm hoping I'm getting a Laptop for Xmas. . . I love you!
Chui: wag
Alex: Have you been naughty. . .or nice. . .oooh, very nice!
Chui: wag
Chui: anio ba
Chui: may natutulog
Chui: ahahhaa
Alex: I wish I had some new video games to play. . . WooHoo! Let the games begin!
Alex: hehehehe]
Alex: ingay ba?
Alex: cno 2log?
Chui: uuu
Chui: ung maid
Chui: ahahhaa
Alex: ok
Chui: cute
Alex: hehehehehe
Chui: ako
Chui: ahhahaha
Chui: ble!!!!
Alex: wahahahaha
Chui: antok ka na?
Alex: medyo
Chui: hay nako
Chui: kung marerecord ko lang yung itsura mo sa webcam nakakatawa ka
Chui: ahahhaa
Chui: maya na
Chui: 1am paolang
Alex: hehehehehe
Chui: palang
Chui: 2am ka na matulog
Chui: ahhahaha
Alex: lng?
Chui: uu
Chui: lang!!!
Alex: hindi ko kaya un
Chui: ahahha
Chui: kaya mo un
Alex: tom naman
Chui: di mo nga napansin na 1am na pala
Chui: ahahhaha
Chui: sino kasam mo sa likod?
Alex: couz ko
Chui: aaahhh
BUZZ!!!
Alex: hindi ka pa antok?
Chui: indi pa
Alex: 2log na ko
Chui: ay
Alex: tom na lng pliz
Alex: cge na pliz
Alex: ummmmmmmmm
Alex: huhuhuhuh
Chui: huuhu
Alex: pliz
Alex: pliz'
Chui: ahahha
Alex: pliz
Alex: cge na [pliz
Chui: wut tym ka online bukas?
Alex: pliz
Alex: tx kita
Alex: hindi ko pa sure
Alex: naka dsl naman kami e
Chui: uu nga
Alex: ok
Chui: wala ako load di ita marereplyan
Chui: ahhahaa
Chui: pasahan mo ako load! joke!
Alex: ok
Alex: maya
Alex: b4 i slip
Chui: wink!
Alex: ok
Alex: bye johann
Alex: nyt
Chui: ano ba
Chui: ahahhaa
Alex: oi
Alex: johann
Chui: o?
Alex: slip na ko
Alex: pliz
Alex: antok na talaga me
Alex: sobra
Alex: pliz
Chui: uu nga sige
Chui: slip ka na
Chui: okie
Alex: bye
Alex: bye
Alex: ingatz lagi a
Alex: take care, ok
Chui: sige
Alex: bye
Alex: nyt
Alex: nyt
Chui: nyt
Chui: salamat sa tag mo!
Chui: ahahhaha
Alex: hehehe
Alex: ok
Alex: hehehehe]
Chui: ahahha
Alex: bye
Alex: nyt
Chui: bye
Chui: ingats
Alex has stopped viewing your webcam.

Ang haba noh?? ahahaa.. wala lang ako malagay kaya yun.. cge.. 2 am na noh!!

babush!

FRIDAY NIGHT AT GLORIETTA!

2005-04-01T06:40:00.000-08:00

Friday night at G4!

ahahaha... what a wonderful day.. actually.. my plan was just to pass by at OBMCI to get my PORTRAIT aahahha.. then suddenly got bored.. so nicole bea and I decided to go to the mall.. ahahha.. tapos.. we saw dana.. ininvite namin siya.. tapos we went to bea's house.. wala lang.. get some money.. ahahaa.. actually we dont have any money talaga.. so I called my mom and asked permission.. she allowed me.. pero she said I dont have money... so I told her.. na I will go to her office to get money!!! ahahhaa!!.. nice one.. tapos un.. when we got there.. we bought tickets.. we watched the pacifier.. ahahahah.. sobrang funny grabe.. ang sweet nga ni nicole and hans eh! inggit ako!!! naalala ko tuloy yung times na we watched movie together.. and he was so sweet.. nakikita ko ung realationship ko dati with you know... kila hans and nicole.. kaya nga natutuwa ako.. ahahaha.. la lang.. ang sweet nila.. pero mas sweet parin kami! ahahhaha!! syempre! alang tatalo!.. ayun.. so ang daming nangyari kanina.. nakakakaba! grabe.. pero im so happy! kasi.. ang saya nila kasama! ehehhee.. kulit nga eh.. we ate at KFC! favorite.. ahahhaa.. la lang.. ang daming memories talaga.. pareho naming favorite yun gosh!! ahahhaa.. well.. itanong nyo kay bea kung sino lagi namin pinaguusapan! ahahha... the whole day grabe! di ako nag sasawa!.. aahahaha.. wala lang.. kasi namimiss ko ung glorietta days naming dalawa.. ehehee.. oh well.. can't bring back those times anymore.. huhuhu.. we got home late again! as always.. ehehee... sabi namin we're going home by 6 or 7 pm.. pero ano? we're late again.. 10 pm na kami umuwi.. gawddd!! ahaha.. buti di ako pinagalitan! eehehehe.. so ayun.. syempre,.. online ako agad! ehehehe.. at guys.. may nalaman na naman ako.. gosh.. there was this girl kasi.. rumors lang to sa batch namin.. so.. pinrivate message niya yung friend ko.. and she said na inlove na yata sya dun sa love ko! i mean.. i hate her.. kasi pinaniwala niya ako na may crush sya dun sa ultimate crush nya na ka-batch ko.. si.. m _ _ _ _ diba nakakainis? she's a liar.. and she said.. KUYA daw niya lang yun(yung love ko)!.. as if! argh!.. shut up girl! wag ka nga mag salita ng tapos! I thought napatawad na kita! pero sorry! galit ako ulit sayo!!! hmmmpppp!! SUFFER!!

ok.. read this nalang.. kyoot..

*HINDI KO NA SYA MAHAL*

Naranasan mo na bang magsabi nyan??? Kung OO ang sagot mo, pwes! alam mo ba na out of 10 na nagsabi nyan 5 ang nagsasabi ng totoo?? yes! meaning 5 ang sinungaling! Kc, minsan maraming dahilan kung bakit nasasabi yan...

iSiPin MO ito.. Nasasabi ang linyang yan sa mga sitwasyon gaya ng..

*NAGUGULUHAN = ito ung mga taong nasa isang relasyon pgktapos eh may iba pang mahal na iba.. kailangan nilang mapaniwala ang sarili na hindi na hindi na nila mahal ung isa para, mahalin naman ung isa pa. (HALIMBAWA: im sori may iba na kong mahal, HINDI NA KITA MAHAL) pero echos! ang totoo di ka naman syur kung sino pa talga sa kanila ang matimbang... gets mo? (kung hindi kawawa ka naman..=)

*MASAMA ANG LOOB = eto naman ung mga taong katatapos lng hiwalayan o nagawan ng di maganda sa isang relasyon. (HALIMBAWA: bakit nya nagawa sakin toh! HINDI KO NA SYA MAHAL!) pero ay naku dala lng yan ng sama ng loob mo..sige hinga ng malalim..tulog ng mahimbing.. paggising mo bukas naku...sya na naman ang naalala mo..(miz mo noh? =)

*BASTED = as in ayaw nya daw sayo.. PARE OKEI KA LNG? (SAGOT: okei lng ako pre, wala na un hindi ko na rin sya mahal) uyyy pa-macho epek.. SISTER OKEI KA LNG? (SAGOT: yuh im okei, as in hindi ko na sya mahal noh?!) ows? nde kaya rejected ka lang???

*LIHIM NA PAG-IBIG = eto naman ung mga taong ayaw ipaalam sa kanilang minamahal ang totoo, para lang mapagtakpan ang nararamdaman nila, lalo na't binubuking na sila.. (HALIMBAWA: Hindi ko sya mahal ah, friend lng ang turing ko sa kanya.) ay naku! yan din sinabi ni jolina kay marvin!

*PA-I WILL SURVIVE epek = eto ang mga taong gusto ng kumawala sa hawla ng alala ng taong minamahal..(HALIMBAWA: pagod na ko..from now on, kakalimutan ko na sya, hindi ko na sya mahal! smart na ko ngayon, i will survive!) ...hehe sino ka? si kris aquino??

*TAAS NG PRIDE = eto ung mga taong di nila maamin sa sarili nila na mahal nila ang isang person kc nga malayo sa standard nila ung gurl/guy or lets say may ibang dahilan..pero nainlab sila. (HALIMBAWA: yun? hindi ko sya mahal noh. ako pa kilala nyo ko) sabay Nakacross ang mga fingers ng kanilang hands and feet!

*TAKOT = eto ung mga taong dahil ilang beses na nasaktan sa larangan ng pag ibig, eh ayaw ng magmahal kahit na mahal naman talga nila ang isang taong nagmamahal sa kanila. (HALIMBAWA: ayaw ko ng masaktan ulit...hindi kita mahal.) ..o tapos? hehe

*PAGHIHIGANTI = eto naman ung mga taong binabalikan matapos ng hiwalayan...syempre sobra nga naman sila nasaktan kaya sasabihan nya ng "MASYADO AKONG NASAKTAN SA MGA NANGYARI, HINDI NA KITA MAHAL"

o loko bagay sayo! manigas ka!!

***Maraming dahilan, maraming paraan para sabihin natin ito .. pero sana, sa susunod na sabihin mo sa kanyang hindi mo na sya mahal .. eh ung totoo na. Yung kaya mo na, yung sigurado ka, at un talga ang nararamdaman mo..

***At sa ibang taong makakaranas naman neto..pag sinabihan ka ng HINDI NA KITA MAHAL! / HINDI KITA MAHAL!

chin up! and say...

STYLE MO BULOK! LIARS GO TO HELL!!!

Sabi nga, pag bitter pa, mahal pa,DIBA?!

I failed..

2005-03-31T23:55:00.000-08:00

I Failed

yeah.. i failed.. i texted him last night...a nd got no reply.. I dont understand.. maybe he's busy? maybe he's with someone.. maybe he just dont wanna reply.. maybe he's setting his mind to keep his pride up.. MAYBE.. argh!! I hate this life.. tssssss.. yep.. well met new friends.. from CSA.. yes they're nice.. and sweet.. ehehe.. pinakilala ako ni FONZ sakanila... by the way fonz.. thanks ah.. remember?? last night?? thanks talaga.. I owe you.. anyways.. yes I failed.. oh well that's life.. i should.. just you know?? stop it?? give up? oh no! that's really a no no to me... haha.. well.. guys.. pag di ako mapagod.. Patience is a virtue.. I need to be patient you know?.. pero.. if it'll not gonna work talaga.. then.. go.. bye bye.. ehehe.. pero as much as possible.. try diba?? you'll never know.. I just wanna try it all over again.. malay mo it'll gonna work.. oh well..

*Forever as One*

I wish I could turn back time
I wish I'd never have to see that look in your eyes
You really broke this heart of mine
Now it's time to realize it's forever goodbye

So here I am
All alone
Don't understand where did we go wrong
I can't stop crying
Can't take the pain
Knowing you won't ever be back again

And it cuts like a knife
I'm going insane
Wishing you would show me love
Once again
I'm losing my mind
But I have to carry on
We were meant to be together
Forever as one

So this is where the story ends
Gonna take some to dry the tears in my eyes
You told me we could still be friends
Now I know your promises were nothing but lies

So here I am
All alone
Don't understand where did we go wrong
I can't stop crying
Can't take the pain
Knowing you won't ever be back again

And it cuts like a knife
I'm going insane
Wishing you would show me love
Once again
I'm losing my mind
But I have to carry on
We were ment to be together
Forever as one

*I'll Remember You*

It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be,
forever baby
I'll remember you

I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember yooooou,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for yooooou,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be,
forever baby
I'll remember you

If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind 'cause I'll remember you, you

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be,
forever baby
I'll remember you

Forever baby,
I'll remember you

I can't take this any more!!

2005-03-29T00:11:00.000-08:00

I Can't Take this anymore!!

Last Easter sunday.. I texted him.. and of course.. It should take a million of text messages for him to reply.. damn.. I mean.. I'm putting my pride down.. and yet.. he still doesnt care? ano ba yun! nakakainis yung ganun.. nakakatamad na tuloy syang itext.. buti nga naalala ko pa siya noh.. and suplado nun! kasi naman noh.. sobrang taas ng pride niya.. and for your info.. yung hula mong may gusto sakin na 4th year.. yung sinasabi ni Mrs. Delos Trinos ay hindi po tama.. mali po un.. promise.. Dahil akala mo may gusto un sakin dahil sa testimonial niya sakin sa friendsteR? ahaha.. trip lang niya yun.. at friend niya ako ok?? hay... selos kasi ng selos.. wala naman dapat ika selos.. dahil isa lang naman talaga ang love ko noh.. at ikaw yun.. sabi nga ni mara sakin.. iba ang type.. sa crush.. sa love.. diba kuya erick?? ahaha.. naks naman.. nagiging madrama na din ako tulad ni kuya erick! ahaha.. or matagal na yata akong madrama! ahahaha.. ok.. as i was saying yun nga.. nakakatamad ka tuloy i text.. di ka kasi nagrereply eh.. siguro naman.. kilala niyo kung sino tinutukoy ko diba?? walang iba kung di ang aking love.. sabi nga niya di na daw niya ako mahal.. oh well.. wala naman akong magagawa dun.. alanganaman ipag pilitan ko pa sarili ko diba.. oh well.. siguro may mahal na syang iba.. ginive up niya na ako.. ouch! sakit nun ah.. di ako flirt.. pinagseselos lang kita.. kasi i wanna know if you still love me.. sorry sa attitude na yun ah.. nagalit ka pa tuloy sakin.. anyway.. may gusto sana akong sabihin sayo.. itetext ko na sana.. kaya nag dadalawang isip ako.. natatakot ako sa irereply mo eh.. kada text mo di o alam kung ano dapat reaction ko.. haaaayyy...

here's the msg..

To: _ _ _ _

"haayy.. wala na ba talaga akong magagawa? ayaw mo ba talaga mag reply?? haaayyy.. Suko na ako.. ginawa ko na lahat just to bring you back.. ako na ang nag aapproach sayo.. pero wala parin.. Binabaan ko na yung pride ko just to let you knoe that I still do have feelings for you.. Pero i guess wala na talaga.. thought i could still bring back the you and me thing.. Pero you gave up already.. I guess you already love someone.. Far better than me.. sabi ko pa naman sa sarili ko na once malaman kong you still love.. I'll change for you.. if that's what you want.. I'll change all the bad attitudes.. Pero wag mong hanapin sakin yung mga traits na hinahanap mo sa isang babae..dahil hindi ako perfect.. I may not be the one you're looking for.. I'm unique.. 1 johann.. pero sana naman.. ma appreciate mo ko.. sana naman tanggapin mo kung ano ako.. I know naman na nag bago ako.. pero.. its because of you rin.. masyado akong naapektohan.. akala mo ba hindi rin ako nasasaktan sa mga pa akbay akbay mo sa girls? mga pa yakap yakap.. pero may narinig ka ba sakin? wala diba? hindi ko un inintindi.. dahil alam kong wala akong karapatan.. pero sana naman.. wag mo akong pag salitaan ng masasakit na salita.. dahil hindi lang ako ang nasasaktan mo.. pati mommy ko.. Gusto ko na mag change.. Pero you said there's no more you and me.. Thought I could get over you easily.. It's hard pala.. Kung ayaw mo na talaga.. I can't do anything about it.. Pero nararamdaman ko na i still have that special place in your heart.. sa dami ba naman ng pinagdaanan natin? Sa tagal ba naman ng pinagsamahan natin? Di ko maintindihan kung sinasaktan mo ba ako or tinitiis eh.. There's a side of me that wants to give up.. and there's a side of me that wants to go on and fight for you.. Gusto kitang ipaglaban.. pero how can i do that if the person I'm fighting for already gave me up? I want to give up.. pero how can I do that if I still love that person?? Tama nga yung mga friends natin.. nag gagantihan tayo.. nag seselosan.. nag aaway.. its because we still love each other.. we care for each other.. pero sila din ang nagsabi na if we're going to let ou prides up, talagang we'll lose each other's company.. Mahal kita _ _ _ _.. mahal na mahal.. But because you dont love me anymore wala na akong magagawa.. Mahirap mag mahal ng taong wala namang pakialam sayo.. ang pinaka masakit ang manatili ka sa buhay ko na wala ka namang nararamdaman para sakin.. Kung may iba ka na talaga.. goodluck nalang sa inyong dalawa... Sana mahalin mo siya.. higit pa sa pagmamahal na binigay ko sayo.. wag mo siyang saktan katulad ng ginawa mo sakin.. kasi hindi mo alam kung gaano mo nasira buhay ko ng mawala ka sakin.. I still do love you.."

Sana naman.. wag kang magalit kung ipost o man dito ung nararamdaman ko.. ayoko na kasing itext sayo.. kasi natatakot ako sa mga isasagot.. gusto kong iwanan itong message na ito na walang kasagutan.. kung mahal mo pa ako.. I will be very thankful.. Pero kung hindi na.. wag mo ng sabihin sakin.. Masasaktan lang ako sa gagawin mo.. mas gugustuhin ko pang iwanang walang kasagutan yan.. kaysa sa masaktan ako ng lubusan..

Sorry ung medyo madrama ah.. ehehe.. ganyan talaga ako when it comes to love.. I know naman guys na ganyan din ang mararamdaman niyo.. kung mangyari sainyo ang nangyari saakin..

I Still Do Love You!!

New Day

2005-03-25T00:00:00.000-08:00

New Day..

ok here we go again.. this morning.. I woke up early.. coz.. I want to chat with someone again.. ehehe.. but.. unfortunately he's not there.. maybe he's still mad at me.. oh well.. or baka naka INVISIBLE nanaman.. and you'll never know.. kung kelan sya susulupot.. he's like a mushroom you know?! ehehe.. ok.. we went to FORT BONIFACIO.. we went to market market.. to meet with someone.. ahaha.. joke.. we went there to buy some things for jia[sister] and I'm with my family.. I'm also looking for the case for my iPod.. it looks like trash already! scratch here scratch there scratch everywhere! oh well.. and I can't find what im looking for!.. I want to meet with him sana there sa market market.. kaya lang.. he's still mad at me.. and daming memories grabe.. kanina we ate Yellow cab.. kainis.. alam niyo bang fave niya yun.. walang kamatayan na PIZZA ahahaha.. ayun.. i bought some blank cds for my pictures,. ehehe.. tapos.. i went to the computer for a min... just to chat with my friends.. ehehe.. nag conference kami! yep.. inivite ako ni kuya erick! tapos.. medyo di maka relate sa chat.. pano naman kasi noh.. tawa lang kami ng tawa ni bea.. ehehehe.. may konting asaran.. bukingan.. tawanan.. and kulitan.. eehehe.. masya naman.. kaya lang... ewan.. ahahah.. basta..

Baka nga pala mag beach ang Incoming 4th year-A of O.B. Montessori Sta. Ana sa april! yehey! triple celebration.. bday ko, bday ni queenie, and bday ni mae.. yeah.. pero di kami man lilibre ha.. baka mamulubi kami.. basta.. contact me sa YM if you wanna come[yohannies 14].. We're planning already.. don't worry guys.. 1whole day lang yun.. para payagan lahat.. okie.. baka walang payagan if overnight.. guys.. we need to bond naman noh.. para happy! diba?! meron tayong memories na itatago.. so when we go to college.. pag binalikan natin highschool days natin.. eh mag tatawanan tayo.. ehehe.. naks... syempre.. dont forget to bring cameras!!!!

Sa Src naman.. nako.. I wanna come.. kaya lang mahirap daw yung PT ahaha.. pero i wanna lose weight and bea said.. its really good.. it'll gonna burn all of my fats! o diba? ewan... mag gygym nalang ako! ahaha.. guys.. di na pala kami punta states this summer.. europe muna daw.. para sure.. ehehehe.. I want to study there!! eehehe.. kasi dun start a new life ulit.. o diba? dito kasi ang daming bad memories.. philippines is already small for me.. pero of corz.. i will treasure the good memories diba.. ayoko lang kasi maalala yung bad memories.. mas naaalala ko kasi un kaysa sa good memories.. huhuhu.. so guys wut do u think?.. drama ko noh?! ahha.. its natural lang naman eh..

My Birthday!!

2005-03-24T17:48:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to me!!

well.. actually MArch 23 is my birthday.. ehehe.. la lang.. daming bumati sakin.. di ko akalain na ganun pala ako ka special sa inyo para maalala niyo ako.. ehehe.. thanks! anyway.. last wednesday.. Nag dinner kami sa labas.. Sa DAD'S and syempre Im with my family lang.. we used to cars kasi masyado kaming madami.. and di kami mag fifit sa one car only.. so.. my dad.. decided to go ahead.. kasi masyado akong matagal mag ayos.. ahaha.. syempre its my day.. kailangan blooming at maganda.. ehehe.. so yun.. nag curl pa ako ng hair ko.. ahahha.. nakakatawa.. sa unang car.. is my dad with my cousins.. (mark, attila, julianna, cj) and my tita... Lani.. dad ko ang pumili kung sino sasama saknya.. di man lang ako sinama.. ahahhaa.. tapos.. pinag pipilitan na sa megamall nalang daw kami kumain.. eh gusto ko sa glorietta nalang.. pero no choice.. kaya megamall nalang... ayun.. so when we're done.. fixing...a nd making paganda.. we decided to go na... sa mall.. pag dating namin sa mall.. ehehehe.. umalis muna kami ng tita ko.. para mag hanap ng magazine.. pag balik namin sa Dad's nandun sila TIFFANY and MADEL gosh nagulat ako.. talagang na surprise ako! ehehe.. kaya nga happy ako nung time na yun! sobra.. nung una nga nasa harap ko na sila naka takip pa yung mukha nila.. tinanong ako ng dad ko kung hindi ko ba sila kilala.. nung.. tinignan ko sila closely.. sila pala un.. gosh.. aahaha.. gulat ako.. ayun.. sorry ah.. malabo lang talaga mata ko! ahahhaa...

ayun.. so.. kumakain na kami.. and yung mga kumakanta dun.. nakakatawa... kasi nag request kami na pumunta yung singers sa table namin.. kasi.. its my birthday.. kung makikita niyo lang yung isang singer dun na lalaki.. matatawa kayo ng sobra.. as in sobrang funny siya.. ehehee.. tawa nga kami ng tawa nila madel eh.. kinantahan nila ako ng happy birthday, sasakyan kita, otso-otso, happy, chocolate! ahahhaa.. corny pero masaya! sobra! so next time sana ulit!

Clearance

2005-03-21T06:03:00.000-08:00

Clearance!

well.. kanina.. maaga ako nagising.. ahaha.. 8am pero pumunta ako sa school ng around 12 nn yata.. ahahha.. and kasama ko pinsan ko si Mark.. ehehe.. pinakilala ko siya sa classmates ko.. actually kilala na siya ni migo, hans and paolo.. oi nga pala.. congrats kay hans and pao.. kasi masaya na lovelife nila.. ehehe... si migo din.. ahahha.. congrats din po.. anyways.. kanina.. I went upstairs.. looking for Erika.. kaya lang.. nakita ko si Suplado.. kaya bumaba nalang ako.. ehehehe.. ayun.. nagkwentuhan lang kami nila nicole, mae, and hans.. and then.. pinasundo ko ung isa kong pinsa na american.. si Attila.. ehehe.. well he doesnt know how to speak tagalog kaya.. kanina.. todo english mga classmates ko.. ehehe.. then nagpunta kami kila bea.. sinundo namin siya.. ehehe.. ayun.. ok lang naman tong araw na to.. Di pa ako cleared.. mr. alegrid kasi ayaw pirmahan clearance ko eh.. ehehe.. sige yun lang pow..

goodbye 4th year!

2005-03-18T03:42:00.000-08:00

goodbye 4th year!

eto na yun.. aalis na sila.. mamimiss ko talaga ang 4th year.. lalo na si... alam niyo na yun.. hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito.. kung kelan pa ok na ako sakanya saka pa siya aalis.. ang manhid pa niya.. ang SUPLADO! yun tawag ko saknya.. ehehe.. marami naman akong sinasabihan ng suplado eh.. yun nalang code name ko saknya.. I will miss him talaga.. yung mga kakulitan niya.. dapat ba niya malaman na may gusto ako saknya? or what? sa bagay.. di na naman kami magkikita eh.. kasi aalis na siya.. pero kung sasabihin ko.. baka once na magkita kami.. iwasan niya na ako.. and ayokong mangyari yun.. minsan ko na nga lang siya makikita eh.. mabuti na siguro na wala siyang alam..

Anyways.. kanina.. gumawa ako ng mga letters.. farewell letter ko sa mga close friends ko sa 4th yr.. ehehe.. wala lang.. ginawan ko si.. ate jepp, iya, jumbo, ate jess, ate kath and siyempre si kuya erick.. ehehe.. nakakainis si kuya erick! sabi niya bibigyan niya ako ng grad pic! pinaasa niya ako dun ah! bad siya! at si jumbo naman sabi niya ibibigay niya ngyon yung letter niya saakin pati yung grad pic niya! pero ano? pinaasa niya din ako.. huhuhu.. binigyan ako ni.. ate jepp, iya, ang kuya erick ng letter.. ehehe.. well thanks po sainyo.. mamimiss ko kayo..

kanina.. nag guitar session na naman kami.. ehehe.. sa 3B ehehe.. saya nga nila kasama eh.. wala lang.. sarap makipag jamming sakanila.. kasi daming nag guiguitar sakanila.. tyaka.. mas close sila sa 4th year.. ehehehe... wala lang.. masaya ako ngayon! kahit last day na of school.. kasi may picture kami! aahha.. and.. inakbayan niya ako! ehehehe.. nakaka kilig nga eh.. oh well.. sana sa monday pumasok siya.. please? kahit na cleared na yata siya.. kasi gusto ko kaming dalawa lang nasa picture eh.. huhuhu.. gusto ko na nga sana sabihin na mag picture kami kaya lang.. nahihiya ako.. baka mamaya.. ayaw niya.. huhuhu.. hay.. o sha.. sa susunod nalang ulit.. pag may kukwento na ako.. tungkol saknya.. ayaw kasi niya akong i-message eh.. busy daw siya.. lagi naman eh..

gawa ni yani!

2005-03-06T05:42:00.000-08:00

GAwa ni yani para sakin!

Yehey! Wala na kami. Wala na akong aalalahanin, wala na akong iisipin... Pero hirap akong matulog sa gabi dahil bumabalik yung mga alaala noong magkasama kami.Naiisip ko kung paano niya hawakan yung kamay ko, yung tipong nagsasabing hindi niya ako iiwanan. Kung paano niya ko yakapin, yung nagsasabing lagi niya akong poprotektahan. At kung paano niya ako halikan, yung nagsasabing mahal na mahal nya ako.
Yehey! Wala na kami. Hindi na ako iiyak pa...
Pero kapag gabi nagagawa ko pa ring umiyak, dahil nami-miss ko siya. Nami-miss ko yung mga ngiti niyang nakakaloko, mga jokes niyang corny, mga tingin niyang nakakatunaw, tawa niyang nakakabaliw, pangungulit niya sa akin at kung anu-ano pang kapraningan na ginagawa niya. Nami-miss ko yun...
Yehey! Wala nakami. Wala na akong tatawagan, hindi na ako magte-text sa kanya, at makakaipon na ako ng pera para sa sarili ko.
Pero sa tuwing hawak ko ang cell phone ko, lagi kong hinahanap ang pangalan niya. Lagi akong nate-tempt na magtext sa kanya, o di naman kaya, tumawag. Nangangati lagi ang darili ko na pindutin ang Write Message i-type ang message ko, i-scroll yung button para makita ko yung number niya, at tapos ipe-press ko yung Send. O kaya naman, i-scroll ko yung button para mahanap yung name niya tapos ipe-press ko yung Call. Kahit na alam ko na dudurugin ako sa pagbayad ng bills ng telepono ko. Kahit na alam kong hindi naman sya magre-reply at hinding-hindi nya ako tatawagan. At kahit kailan hindi na nya gagawin pang magparamdam.
Yehey! Wala na kami. Magkakaroon na ako ng time para sa sarili ko, sa pamilya ko at sa barkada ko.
Pero sa tuwing lalabas ako ng bahay, kasama man ang pamilya o barkada ko, siya lagi ang naaalala ko, na sana, kasama ko siya ngayon. Magkahawak kamay na namamasyal, naglolokohan, nagkukulitan, at nagtatawanan. Tapos, walang katapusang usapan kung saan kakain ng lunch, kung sa McDo, KFC, JapSarap o sa Planet Pita. Kung manonood ba ng sine, kung anong palabas ang panonoorin, or kung mag QT(quality Time) na sa bahay nya or sa bahay ko.Tapos, i-hahatid niya ako or sya ang ihahatid kopapauwi sabay nanakawan ng halik habang nasa biyahe.
Yehey! Wala na kami. Hindi na ako magpupuyat sa kakatutok sa computer, aabutin ng madaling-araw kaka-chat sa kanya.
Pero sa tuwing may ise-search ako sa Internet, bubuksan ko ang Yahoo Messenger, MSN Messenger, ICQ, at MIRC dahil baka sakaling dumating siya. Makausap ko man lang, makikipagkulitan uli at baka sakaling magkaliwanagan kami at maibalik ang dating kami.
Yehey! Wala na kami. Wala na akong ka-on, pwede na akong tumingin sa iba at tumanggap ng manliligaw.
Pero sabi ko sa sarili ko, hindi na ako magmamahal pa uli. Dahil siya lang ang mahal ko. Siya lang ang nakaka-kumpleto sa araw ko, siya lang yung inspirasyon ko sa mga bagay-bagay. Siya lang yung nakakaintindi sa akin kapag may problema ako. Siya lang yung nakakapagpatahan sa akin kapag umiiyak ako. Siya lang ang buhay ko, siya lang, wala ng iba Magmamahal din ako, pero hindi muna ngayon, hindi muna...

P.S. thanks yani! I like it! mwah!

C.A.T.

2005-03-05T04:00:00.000-08:00

C.A.T. again..

Well kanina.. we had our training.. bad trip!! kasi ginising ako ng maid namin around 5:30 am huhuu.. tapos i told her na dapat 4 am nia ako gisingin coz i need to fix my things pa! and late na naman ako natulog around 1 am.. hahaha.. puyat nga me lagi eh.. i really like the pasa masid! ahaha.. my favorite ever.. kahit na nandyan ang aming bestfriend na sun is ok lang.. kasi enjoy naman.. as usual nangitim na naman ako! ahhaa.. and dinismiss nila GH earlier around 12 kasi every saturday sila nag t-training.. and all.. corp commander si robin garcia! ahaha.. go bea!! and thank you nga po pala kay MJ Funtila for the gloves! well di pa kita nababayaran! sa saturday nalang! papabigay ko kay iris! oi nga pala congrats kay iris! eehehe.. well si bea kanina di nag drills kasi nagtatampo kay Mr. Sawyer.. kasi pinalitan siya ni Migo! ehehe ang excuse nia masakit tummy! totoo ba yun bea?? ehehe.. joke lang.. kanina! ang galing galing ng SAMBISIG NG STA. ANA kasi sabi ni mr. dela pena nag improve daw kami! ehehe.. siyempre si Lirio proud samin.. ehehe.. wala akong food and water kanina kaya naghinge ako kay yani! tinatamad kasi ako bumili! thnx yani! ahaha.. tapos sa bus ang dami naming kalokohan na ginagawa.. yung MGA VIDEOS hahaha.. eeewww.. tawa kami ng tawa! sigawan ng sigawan! ahaha.. and then nung pauwi na.. kulit nila pao at hans.. kasi tinitig nana nila yung vidoes sa cellphone ko ung videos namin before nung 2nd year palang kami! oh well nakakmiss yung mga yun! MEMORIES!! well yun lang naman.. and kanina si desi.. ahaha.. ang cute nila ni ayetits.. naks naman.. ang bait nga ng mga classmates ni desi eh.. well anyways.. grabe kanina.. nakakapagod.. pero ok lang.. kasi enjoy namna eh.. shux.. malapit na mag graduate mga seniors! huhuhu... iiyak talaga ako! coz ang dami kong close friends sa 4th year! huhuhu.. lalo na sila ate jes.. ate kath! kuya erick!! huhuu.. jep jep.. gooco! si jumbo! grabe.. madami pa.. pero sila talaga pinaka close ko! basta yung mga kasama ko pag nag gigitara ako pag uwian! ehehehe.. oi mamimiss ko kayo ng sobra sobra.. wala na akong mapag sasabihan ng problems ko aside from my bestfriends.. kasi u guys... are really special to me.. you give me advices.. and Im really thankful for that.. sobra.. thanks.. for the friendship.. tha bonding!! ehehe.. basta.. text text nalang tayo! at siyempre chat! ehehehe.. lagi naman tayong nagkikita sa ym ryt?! lalo na si kuya erick! ahahha.. adik! sila kasi mga ka jamming ko pag uwian! guitara kami and chuva ever noh! si ate jep nakakatuwa ehehehe.. pareho kasi kaming tinuturuan! pero diba improving naman kami? at least kaht papano nakakatutgtug na kami ng mga kanta! kahit di pa masyadong polished! nakakahiya nga pag tumutugtog ako kasi nakikinig si Kuya erick! tapos maya maya agawin na nia sakin ung guitar ko! ahahha joke lang! tuturuan nia ako pero wala naman akong naiintindihan! ehehe.. pasok sa isang tenga labas sa kabila! ahhaha.. kaya tuloy wala akong natututunan! pano kasi noh! elib ako sa pagtugtog ng guitar! ahaha.. tapos ginawan nia ako ng testi! ahaha.. ang haba nun ah! 4 pages! galing salamat po kuya erick! bait bait mo talaga! idol! eehehe.. well ayun.. kanina.. pinagalitan ako ng mom ko.. ahahaha., and pinagsabihan ako..! huhuhu!!! WAG MUNA DAW AKO MAG KA BOYFRIEND!!!! huhuhu.. oh well! naiiyak na nga ako nung kinakausap ako eh! ahaha.. pano naman kasi noh! bumaba yung grade ko! affected daw kasi ako masyado! ahaha.. well naaawa ako sa mom ko eh.. kaya.. pipilitin ko na magbago for her.. coz that's how i love my mom so much!! talaga promise! she's my bestfriend eh.. kaya yun.. she can sense na i have a problem or what kasi daw late na daw ako natutulog palagi! ahahaha.. at napapabayaan ko na daw ang aking studies because of foolishness! oh my gosh! shiet grabe na talaga itoo.. well anyways! that will be all for today! mwah! bye bye!

Pictures last summer!

2005-02-23T22:30:00.000-08:00

Pictures last summer Vacation

Happiest Day!

2005-02-23T21:25:00.000-08:00

Happy Happy JOy Joy

Im such a vain talaga!!

hehehe.. saya ng day ko ngayon sobra.. Nyehehehe... mas masarap pala yung ganito noh? pag di mo siya pinapakinggan or di tinitignan.. mas gumagaan loob ko.. Its like wala lang siya.. I'm ok na.. ehehe.. saya ko na ulit.. I have fallen but Johann Will rise again.. and this is it.. I have decided to move on.. hehe.. But don't worry.. I will not use any guys.. to forget him totally.. But I really like this feeling.. I am happy for him.. coz whenever I see him happy I feel happiness too.. He should continue mentioning Kams' name.. ahaha coz my feelings for him fades little by little.. continue it.. and I would even thank you.. because you helped me to forget you.. that's why its better to be this way.. I am happy with my friends!! really! that's true.. but.. Whenever Im with my friends.. I dont wanna talk about him.. Gusto ko tulungan nila ako.. wag na nilang palalain.. Haha.. Now I'm almost Over you!! just don't ever make me feel you still care.. and don't ever show me that You love me.. or else.. My plan will gonna fall into pieces ahahha! just kidding..

My mom got mad because my grades went low.. huhu.. and she said.. she will not gonna bring home the laptop on weekdays.. and I can't even go out on gimmicks! huhuhu.. this can't be!!!! oh well!

Peter../ KAms

2005-02-22T05:12:00.000-08:00

The Hell

Ugh... I hate this day.. I mean.. Sobrang lahat ng iniisip ko lumilipad.. and I really don't know talaga.. I'm so sad.. Ang ginawa ko lang is gumawa ng letters and everything.. It really hurts na talaga.. kahit tanong nio pa si MARIANNE buti pa siya pinagtatanggol ako! ahahhaa.. totoo naman ah.. Mahal kasi ako ni yani noh!.. Siyempre pati ung iba kong friends.. anyways.. I just dont want to talk about it.. Kung bakit ako medyo sa sad kanina.. and I was pretending to be happy.. as in sobra.. ahahha.. pero ok lang.. anyways.. hahha.. la lang.. eto.. single pa rin.. and looking.. joke! ahaha.. There's nothing wrong naman ah.. nga pala.. yung picture dyan sa taas.. si Peter yan! hahaha.,.. grabe ang gwapo nia talaga! sobra!!! Matiim ako dyan dahil sa C.A.T namin.. huhuhu.. we're in the cab that time.. and I was like so kilig.. ahahha.. he likes touching my flabs! ahahha... yeah.. and he's so sweet.. really.. kasi sinamahan nia ako sa robinsons.. and kaming dalawa lang sa CAB sobra.. nung papunta kami dun kaming dalawa lang.. huhuhu.. sayang sandali lang kami nag kasama,.. hope to see him soon,., I miss him so much.. Love you friend!! mwah!! take care always ah.. don't worry I'm here always for you... basta gawan nalnag kita ng testimonial.. yung mahaba.. hehehe.. mwah!

Prom- My kilig moment ever

2005-02-20T19:45:00.000-08:00

My Kilig Moment Ever!

uhh.. it was the night we're all waiting for.. the prom.. Oh god.. I was nervous last night.. thinking what will happen.. Nung time pa naman na yun I thought Migo was still mad ehehehe.. di na pala.. Pumayag kasi siya na siya yung makasama ko dun sa picture sa studio.. ehehehe.. ang kyoot nga eh.. Tapos we're practicing our dance.. Kasi My gown is really long and Big! and I was thinking na He might step on my gown.. that's why he told me na we should practice.. and then.. he was so sweet talga.. he has a kyoot smile.. ever..

I didn't expect that I will be nominated as Prom Princess.. But of Course it's an honor to be chosen as one of the elegant prom Lady.. Naks.. Migo was also nominated as prom prince.. That Time.. I saw Dianne paired with the other guys.. and I steped back.. Good thing MIgo was on mY back.. hahaha.. we're so sweet.. He's so sweet.. He's such a Gentleman.. When we are walking showing our Gowns.. We're smiling at each other.. coz he told me so.. ahaha.. We have a lot of pictures taken by photographers.. classmates and the 4th years also! ehehee.. But Unfortunately.. we are not able reach the top 4.. But I really had a good time..

When the emcees anounced the much awaited free dance.. MIgo asked me to dance.. ehehe.. it was my kilig Moment.. and I hugged him so tight.. I really missed him a lot.. especially his hugs.. He asked me twice.. to dance with him.. syempre i said yes.. y not diba?? the song was really nice kasi.. "kahit kailan" by south border.. Kasi kinanta niya sakin yun before.. sabi nia kasi before na "Kahit kailan di kita iiwan, kahit kailan di kita pababayaan, kahit kailan".. diba ang sweet? tapos.. I was crying.. Kasi nga naalala ko siya.. ang sweet nga niya eh.. kasi nung umiiyak ako pinuntahan nia ako.. nagtatanong siya kung bakit ako umiiyak.. tapos sinayaw nia ako ulit.. o diba??

There was this Guy.. Nino he kept on texting me.. and I didn't even know where he got my number.. I was so scared.. kasi sinusundan nia ako ng tingin.. when I was outside the ball.. someone approached me.. he said he was Nino and I was like "ok, sige I have to go kasi Im going to take pictures with my friends.. sabi ko bye" then I was even running.. and he was following me.. Oh no!! tapos I told Mrs. Delos Trinos About it.. and he told Migo to take care of me.. "bantayan daw ako" haha.. medyo natawa ako dun.. kasi nakakahiya.. basta yun na yun.. kaya lang medyo nainis ako saknya kasi ang sungit niya nung time na yun eh.. oh well.. Nag tatampo nga ako sakanya ngayon eh.. pano naman kasi noh! basta secret ko nalang yun kung abakit nagtatampo ako saknya.. di ko sasabhn kahit kanino.. baka sabhn nio pa anong karapatan ko diba?? basta!!! MASAKIT! ouch talaga! nagtatampo ako.. huhuhu..

Note: Di kami ni Migo ah.. Baka Kung ano isipin niyo.. Friends lang kami.. Yehey friends na kami ulit.. Di na siya galit! Saya ko!

Sweet

2005-02-16T06:34:00.000-08:00

So Sweet..

Ei.. I had so much fun today! I'm very happy! gosh!! anyways.. It's Mika's Birthday today!! Happy birthday bebe!! well kanina.. I'm so sad.. I dunno why.. I'm pretending to be happy.. huhuhu.. maybe its because of migo.. kasi he keeps on mentioning KAMILLE DEL ROSARIO that's why i feel sad.. huhuhu.. anyways.. When I got home.. My mom told me to go straight to robinsons to fit my gown.. waaaahh! Im going to rob! yey! alone.. then I was talking to ***** on the phone.. ehehe.. I told him that I'm going to rob all alone.. then he said.. he'll go with me.. and I was like "okey!!" hahaha.. i was so happy..!! he's so sweet..! he's very makulit! ehehe.. I really had a good time with him! hehehe.. I hope this won't be the last!! don't you worry guys.. he's just my friend.. but he's my former crush! ahihihi.. okie bye guys! I'm gonna put his picture here later!

Open divider!

2005-02-15T04:08:00.000-08:00

Open Divider!! and Dance for The Prom!!!

haha.. Havent updated my site for how many days.. but.. I'll give you a brief of what happened for the past few days.,.. I am busy fitting my gown.. and prom is already coming.. Yesterday.. I went home late.. beacause I was asked by Mr. alegrid (english teacher) to rewrite my Love letter.. and will send it to greenhills! I was really surprised.. But I'm glad Mr. Alegrid chose my Letter.. he told me to put the name of carlos.. ahahha.. and I was like.. "No!! sir.. baka magalit siya, baka kung ano pa sabihin nia noh!" ehehe.. I have no choice but to write his name.. ehehe.. anyways.. moving on..

I'm late today! coz I did my H.W. in JOURNALISM waaaaaaah! Earlier this morning.. we had our practice for our paso doble.. (for your info.. Its our dance for the upcoming prom!) Since Mr. BAutista Missed our class again.. 3-A and 3-B joined forces!! ahahaha.. They opened the divider.. and teachers were really like goin crazy! beacuse they can't control us all at the same time.. after that.. at 4:00pm we had our practice again.. hehehe.. Nicole was complaining about Junro's style of dancing! and Mrs. Delos trinos paired me to JUnro instead hehehe.. so.. Nicole and I switched partners.. But just for today.. for the prom.. Migo will still be my partner.. ehehe.. well I have no problem with regards to junro.. he's fun to be with.. and very gentleman.. Migo is very quiet.. he doesnt even talk.. we're just gonna have a conversation only if its about the style of dancing, the steps.. anything about the dance.. and he's just gonna say a two or three.. oh well..

Belated Happy Valentines Day!!

P.S. No one gave me flowers! huhuhuhuhu how sad..!!

LOve LetteR

2005-02-11T05:05:00.000-08:00

LOve Letter!

My Dearest Teddy Bear,

Remember the first time we met? When we're in grade five? I fell inlove with you.. but I was just nothing to you. You would even say "YUCK" when your friends tease you to mr. When we reached highschool I never thought you'll also love me as I do, but then there are reasons why we can't be together. You know that I loved you and I will always will that's why it really breaks my heart when I see you flirting with someone. I always hide the feeling that I love you, most of the time I pretend that I don't love you anymore.. but my heart really beats for you. I am happy being with you especially when I feel the warmth of your body touching mine. I will never get tired of loving you. Oh my God! this is really love. I never knew I will love someone like this. I'm sorry for the things i said, sorry for the pain I gave you, sorry I hurt you. I want you to know that you are my one and only love. You are the blood that flows into my veins to keep me alive. you are the reason why my heart beats, why I breathe and why I am here today. You are the star that shines in my sky to make my life brighter. You make my days truly worthwhile. I never get tired of saying I LOVE YOU or hearing you say those words to me. The words may stay the same but the tone of voice, time of day, and changing situations in our lives give them a thousand different meanings. Sometimes those words are spoke in a rush of passion when words are hardly needed at all. Sometimes they are whispered and can become a defense against the outside world, a boost in self-confidence, the peace flag to end a lover's quarrel. I am happy being with you that's why I don't want to let you go but if you're happy without me then it's better to give up, see you happy and let you go.

I'm tired, I already cried an ocean for you, it's enough. I was hurt. I'm tired of hoping that you will still forgive and love me back again but you're showing no care, no love, nothing at all. It's really hard on my part seeing you happy without me, it seems you're ok now. I want to forget you but how? I see your face everyday, I can always see a picture of you in my mind whenever I close my eyes. I want to forget you but how? I really can't hide this feeling that I've got.. I really can't hide the feeling that I love you.. and it's not that easy to forget you.. all those memories that i cherish the most. Maybe it's really a matter of time..

All I can say is you're free, you can fly, fly home, find your happiness. If I could bring back the time you were mine I will never let you go. Remember that if we're really meant to be together no one can take us apart. It only takes one Teddy Bear to make one Johann happy.

From the person who will love you until the end of time,

Baby Yo..=)

Recollection Day!!

2005-02-11T02:52:00.000-08:00

Well.. Actually! at first I dont wanna go to recollection! kasi Yoko mag cry and stuff like that.. coz.. I dont wanna let my feelings out.. I dont want to feel the pain again! I told myself earlier that i will not let my tear drops.. I dont wanna show them that I am still affected.. It's really hard for me to hide my feelings.. but its just that I really can't!! When our facilitator told us to close our eyes.. and try to imagine that we're in the dessert, alone.. and was asked to feel the sand and listen to the sound around us.. the voices of our schoolmates, the presence of my classmates, and the horn of the jeepneys as well.. The next thing he told us was to imagine that we can see our houses.. and slowly enter that house and imagine that we can see our family but this time.. we need to imagine the time that we're still toddlers.. He told us that we should imagine that my family is complete.. then suddendly there was a tear dropping in my eyes.. I can't help it.. I just can't stop crying.. After that activity.. we had this sharing.. I was still kept on crying..
I hope this time.. carlos will forgive me na.. I still love him.. he thought that I really admire ryan.. waaaaaaaaaahh.. I promised that we will be together again when we reach college.. I PROMISED.. I love him so much to let him go.. I want to be with him for the rest of my life.. But.. I think he doesnt love me anymore.. no care, no love.. nothing at all.. he ignores me.. as if I don't exist.. I want to have a good relationship with him.. friendly relationship.. I don't wanna lose communication with him.. it's because i want him back.. Oh god.. what am I saying!! oh well that's life..

I hate Him! I'm Not a FLIRT!!

2005-02-04T19:31:00.000-08:00

hahaha.. Alright!... ok it's been how many months since I last Updated my site [xanga].. ahahaha.. well.. Bea.. helped me... ahahhaa

Anyways,.. Nicole and I had our duty in the Cafe Lycee earlier this morning.. ahahaha... we talked about things.. Like Lovelife.. her lovelife! and My LOvelife!!! well.. When Our classmates.. took their break.. we had some little conversation.. They Told me.. that my ex is telling them that i'm such a flirt! I hate him.. because he always reacts whenever I do something.. and i hate those people.. He was the first one to tell me that! and I hate him for telling me that stupid WORD! I mean he doesnt have the right to tell me that.. coz.. he doesnt even know what i am doing for the past few weeks.. we dont even talk!!! And I don't Flirt with Guys!! hahahha.. Like what bea said awhile ago.. they are the ones whos flirting me hahhah! nah.. that was just a joke..

I've done my part.. I already said sorry to him.. but he cant even tell me why he's mad at me.. I know that he was hurt.. about what I said.. but that was just a joke.. queenie, ianne and I were just joking.. trying to make ourselves laugh.. but.. he wants to believe others than me.. he told me that he cant accept my sorry.. I hate him!!!

My new blog!

2004-12-19T09:27:00.000-08:00

well I just crated my new.. blog.. I was very excited.. coz i already installed my adobe! hahaha i can make my own banners! anyways.. ayeth gave me the sites for the brushes and as well as for the layots... probobly later i'll edit one.. for my blogger! hehehe.. well thanks for ayeth! hehehe she encouraged me to update my blog.. hehehe... tnx bebe!