___~Flip through the pages of my book.. ..You'll see I still Love you~__

; my deepest desire at 7:59 AM

Saturday, May 13, 2006.

BUSY..

yeah ang dami kong inaasikaso ngayon.. haaaaaaaay.. natotorete na nga ako eh.. anyway..nag pakulay ako ng hair.. ahahha.. wala lang.. trip trip lang.. para maiba.. namimiss ko na yung LONG BLACK hair ko.. grabe... as in.. dibale.. gagawin ko ulit one length hair ko.. pahahabain ko ulit.. huhuhu.. kakalungkot..

lam nio ba lately.. ang dami kong napapanaginipan.. really.. kung ano ano.. halo halo.. minsan may about sa, school, friends.. minsan love life... minsan.. may mumu.. ahahhaa.. totoo.. minsan magigising nalang ako.. its only a dream lang pala.. pero minsan.. sasabihin mong "sana totoo yun" lalo na pag ang dream mo maganda.. ahaha.. ewan ko ba kung bakit ang dami kong napapanaginipan ngayon.. siguro sa kakaisip ng mga bagay bagay...

Yoan kasi eh.. masyadong nag aalala...

my mom is sick right now.. sana.. gumaling na sya..

sana.. sagutin na ni GOD prayers ko.. :) i really hope God will give me a chance... haaaaaaaaayy.. basta.. faith in him will lead me to success..

"The life you have... is the choice you made..."

; my deepest desire at 6:56 AM

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Sunday, May 07, 2006.

MACHETE KO

yes... machete ko.. ahahha... I miss him.. si machete.. Kilala niyo ba yun? harharhar.. wala lang... mag kaaway kasi kami eh... eh namimiss ko na siya.. hmmm.. bakit ko kaya namimiss ung lokong yun?!

haaaaayy.. we went to batangas.. nag outing kami.. ahaha.. at medyo.. umitim ako.. huhu... pero sabi naman ng mom ko mawawala din yun... sobrang saya.. sayang hinde ko na picturan yung sand castle na ginawa namin.. ang kyoot na eh... anyway..

Nilagay ko sa status ko sa YM "aalis na ako.. bye guys mamimiss ko kayo huhuu..."

ahaha... grabe ah.. dami nag tanong kung saan daw ako pupunta,,, yihee... mamimiss nio ako noh?!

eto ung mga nag tanong...

+jayson
+simon
+carla
+maico
+erika
+miguel aquino
+alex
+Albert
+tabing
+josh
+ayeth
+mara
+mae
+ianne
+dana

ahahaha.. sa batangas lang po ako nag punta.. ahahhaha... kala niyo kung saan noh?!

sige sige.. babush...

I MISS MACHETE..

; my deepest desire at 9:01 PM

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Wednesday, May 03, 2006.

New Layout..

Yeah.. new layout.. astig.. vintage! hahaha.. anyway.. I feel really sad right now.. Wala lang.. Kasi.. meron akong isang taong i really like.. Pero tipong crush lang.. well.. naging crush ko na siya before pa.. nalagay ko na nga siya sa previous entries ko.. haha.. so i can say na.. hinde siya bago.. ahaha.. sasabihin niyo na naman "may bagong lalaki si yoan" ahaha.. ang panget pakinggan.. well actually.. pag nagkakagusto ako sa guy.. siya lang.. hinde naman ako ung tipong.. palit ng palit.. i admit.. marami akong naging crush.. pero.. matagalan naman.. and.. pag gusto ko ang isang tao.. I'm telling the truth.. siguro.. kaya lang minsan.. umaayaw ako.. dahil siguro.. meron siyang ugaling hinde ko nagugustuhan.. or sometimes.. kinakainisan ko dahil.. ginagawa akong PANAKIP BUTAS.. "hinde ako pang rebound" haha... o diba? ang taray...

Hinde ako nag hahanap ng PATCH! ok? pag may gusto akong tao.. its true.. hinde siya patch.. ok? so dun sa nag aakalang.. pag may gusto ako.. at sinasabi niyong "patch mo lang yun" well.. you're wrong my dear..

I know naman na sasabihin niyong.. "mahal mo pa siya eh" well.. I'm still in the process sa pag move on.. and if you think its easy.. well.. im telling you now.. that it's not.. coz i'm still suffering.. the pain is still there.. okey? There's nothing wrong naman siguro.. kung mag karoon ako ng CRUSH lang..

Dun naman sa mga friends ko.. na pinag dudutdutan na mahal ko pa yung tao.. stop it na! Its annoying me already! I'm sorry to say.. but you're not helping me! you're just making me mad..
I get irritated kasi when you do stuff like that!..

DUN NAMAN SA TAONG GUSTO KO

well.. i like you.. kasi.. mabait ka SAKIN.. ahaha.. just kidding.. anyway.. ayun.. and napaka caring mo.. sweet.. and very thoughtful.. and very funny..

dont think na.. ginagawa lang kitang PATCH.. coz that's not true.. gusto kita dahil sa ugaling pinapakita mo saakin.. iba ka.. iba siya.. I hope you wont compare yourself with him.. because.. there's a difference.. between you and him..

AGAIN.. Hinde kita ginagawang Patch.. ok? Believe me..

; my deepest desire at 7:37 AM

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Sunday, April 16, 2006.

Desperate..

okei.. haha.. meron akong nalaman.. yep.. and.. actually.. i dont care.. pero.. nabadtrip lang ako.. when i knew na he likes the girl.. kasi.. Concern ako dun sa babae.. there are people na talagang desperate magkaroon ng girlfriend.. well.. actually.. napag usapan na namin to ng mga bestfriends ko.. yep.. so hinde na ako na shock.. and.. all that matters to me.. is that.. wag niyang gagaguhin ung girl.. haha.. bagay naman sila eh.. parehong......._______

adik sa text..

ahahahahha..

kaya lang he's really weird.. he courted me.. and.. everyone's telling me.. na wag ko raw sagutin! haha.. because of his past.. and.. may nalaman ako.. from someone close to him.. buti nalang! I dont feel anything for him.. siguro ung sinabi ko before.. is nothing.. naaawa lang siguro ako talaga saknya.. he's saying i love you na.. well in fact.. days palang kami nag uusap.. ahahaha.. weird noh? so yun nga.. pinasabi ko dun sa girl [someone close to me].. he should stop bothering me na.. coz im not yet ready.... and i dont really feel anything for him.. naaawa lang talaga ako.. anyway.. yun nga.. after that.. the guy and the girl.. started talking on the phone for hours.. ahaha.. that's good kasi.. wala ng istorbo.. thank god!! tapos yun... nag sabihan na sila na they like each other.. haha.. okei?? take note.. wala pang 1 week simula nung mag stop siya manligaw.. tapos..nag confess na siya dun sa girl? ahaha.. oh well.. ganyan talaga ang mga desperate.. siya mismo nag sabi sakin nun ah.. na desperate siya.. kasi daw.. hes needs tha CARE.. the LOVE.. haha.. okei? and my friends really do care for me a lot.. nainis sila sa guy.. kasi.. medyo may attitude problem.. na kinainisan talaga nila.. so ayun.. and tinalikuran ko na once yung friends ko.. and i wont do it again.. they know me better than myself.. and alam nila na.. hinde ako ready.. dahil na sa stage pa ako ng Moving on.. half na.. hahhaa.. im such a liar!

To the girl: you know that i love you so much.. and i really do care for you.. ang nakakinis lang.. hinde mo sakin sinabi... well i dont really care about that guy.. pero.. sana you informed me.. this is not the first time na nangyari to.. you have a lot of secrets.. is that how you treat your BESTFRIENDS? you're not sharing.. that's the problem with you.. ikaw ang lumalayo samin.. if you dont have that guilty feeling.. you have the guts to tell it to me! straight to my face.. pero hinde yun ung nangyari eh.. after all na nangyari nung nainis yung ibang friends natin sknya.. inentertain mo pa rin siya... remember mas matagal mo na kaming nakasama kaysa dun sa guy na yun.. but still nag side ka parin sknya.. i understand that you both wanted someone who will love and care for you.. kaya nga bagay kayo eh.. oh well.. I just want you to take care.. and goodluck nalang sayo.. and with that guy.. i wish you happiness and.. im STILL here.. if ever he hurts you.. okei? AGAIN... hinde ako galit.. nagtatampo lang ako sayo.. because you didnt tell me.. this is not the first time.. and i dont think you still have my trust... im sorry.. anyway.. istill do love you!

To the guy: it's okei naman.. and actually.. Im happy for you.. pero dont you dare hurt her.. if she's happy with you.. then.. We, her bestfriends.. will be happy for her... Sana.. you're not courting her just because you're very desperate having a girlfriend.. I know that you wanted someone who will care for you.. and i tell you.. she's the perfect person.. so dont ever hurt her.. sana you're courting her.. because.. you love her.. i mean.. you should be sincere.. You should mean it.. Remember.. 1st boyfriend ka niya.. [if ever].. why am i telling you this? its not because i care for you.. but because.. i care for my bestfriend.. hope you understand..

Dont be mad at me for posting this.. i have the right to let my feelings out.. since she is my bestfriend.. and this is my blog.. i can do whatever i want.. sana walang ma offend.. Im just trying to be myself.. kung tinamaan man kayo.. im sorry.. but this is me.. you have to accept it..
and I'm happy that finally.. i was able to let my feelings out.. so.. i will end the issue here..

bye..

; my deepest desire at 7:30 AM

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Saturday, April 15, 2006.

What a day...

I woke up @ around 10 am.. ahaha.. Its kinda late.. since i went to sleep @ 3 am.. Alex called me.. around 10 pm.. and finished talking @ 1 in the morning.. I started watching Charmed.. I got addicted watching DVD series.. I'm a charmed fanatic by the way.. ahaha.. so I woke up @ 10 am and my mom told me to get ready because we're going to MArket Market to buy something for my cousins and Buy a gift for Carla Hutchingson's parents.. since His dad and my dad are good friends.. they moved to Marina homes..

While looking for a place to eat.. we went to the supermarket.. looking for a SUBWAY.. I told my mom I wanted to eat sandwich.. haha.. but didnt find any so we decided to go to pancake house... on our way to the escalator.. someone called my name.. ahaha.. its Jayson asuit... He came to me.. then I introduced him to my mom.. ehehe.. Too bad i didnt get a chance to talk to him a little longer since we're in a hurry.. Anyway.. its nice to see him again...

After eating.. we went straight to marina homes.. where carla's family lives.. The house was really nice.. and we ate pizza... did some chitchat.. and everything..

oh well.. got home by 10:45..

; my deepest desire at 7:14 AM

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Monday, March 27, 2006.

I wanted to share you something about love..

Okei… everyone’s looking for their true love.. hmmm.. sino nga ba true love ko? I believe that I will be able to find my true love maybe when I go to work na.. Yes I know that I am very mature at my age.. but still.. diba?? Hinde pa ako ganun ka mature.. there are still lessons to be learned and Experiences to encounter… MAhaba pa buhay ko. I guess… ahhaha… pero…. It can wait naman eh.. ehehhee.. right?

For now, Siguro I wanted to find someone that will make me happy.. someone who will care for me.. Im not saying na.. I wanted to enter into a new relationship.. siguro friends muna.. Coz Im not yet ready for that.. I guess.. But.. you’ll never know.. But as much as possible… Friends muna…

Haaaayy.. They always tell me na.. I can’t move on without someone replacing that pain to love again… I guess they’re all right!... ewan ko.. One reason na rin siguro ung.. I get envious when I see someone with their loved ones... another reason.. siguro kasi.. Napaka lonely ko.. and.. If I will describe myself.. ako ung person na wanted to express my feelings for others… Mapagmahal kasi ako na tao… Pag meron akong isang tao na gusto… I’m doing my best to let that person know that I love him…

Siguro dun sa past relationship ko.. naka move on na ako.. nagyon ko lang na realize na…. kaya ko palang mag move on? Ahhahaha.. unang una.. hinde ko na nakikita yung taong yun.. Alam ko na.. lagi kong sinasabi na naka move on na ako.. pero “hinde naman”.. pero now? I can say na.. naka move on na ako.. haaaay salamat at college na rin ako…

My mom is right! You cannot move on if you see that person EVERYDAY… that’s true… kasi… syepmre.. pag nakikita mo siya.. bumabalik at bumabalik yung feelings mo for that person… hinde mo maiiwasang hinde tumingin saknya.. right?? Tapos.. whenever you see him flirting with someone na sasaktan ka.. diba??

Kasi nga.. sabi nila.. “if a person loved you once, even after a hundred years.. there will still be Some of that love left.. No matter how much that person denies it”…. Hinde basta basta nawawala yun… kaya wag niyong sasabihin na.. “hinde ko na siya mahal” kasi that’s not true… siguro u can say.. na naka move on ka na.. pero… meron at merong paring pag mamahal na matitira…

Ako.. Im not saying na hinde ko na siya mahal… Nag move on lang ako.. ni reready ko lang sarili ko na… if ever that SPECIAL SOMEONE comes.. Pwede na ako mag mahal uli… diba? Hinde naman kasi mawawala yung pag mamahal ko sa isang tao eh… He made me realize that there is someone better who deserves me… a better person who will make me happy… kahit na sinasabi niya he doesn’t love me anymore.. I don’t care… ang alam ko lang.. I gave him everything… Hinde ako nag kulang…

Well Thanks to him kasi.. I learned a lot…

Nung birthday ko lang na realize na… I should stop thinking about him.. Kasi.. ako rin yung mahihirapan.. tyaka wala rin mangyayari if I will still continue to think about him! Magakakaron lang ako ng wrinkles aahahhaa… Joke..

Kaya sa mga taong.. Malungkot because of love.. don’t be! Kasi…. There’s someone better out there… who deserves you!..

Dun sa mga hinde maka move on and galing sa break up… think twice if that person deserves you… kung hinde.. aba.. Pupukin mo sarili mo ng martilyo para magising ka!.. ehehehe pero seriously.. Gusto kong ma realize niyo na… hinde lang siya ang tao sa mundo.. Yun kasi ang na realize ko.. lately lang…

At dun naman sa mga taong in love… be sure.. na love niyo siya… kasi… if you’re not surebaka makasakit lang kayo ng feelings… always remember na when you love.. expect that there will always be pain…

Dun naman sa mga nasa relationship… make sure na ingatan niyo ung relationship niyo.. and be open with each other… be understanding narin.. kasi kung wala kayo niyan.. hinde magiging string relationship niyo… and try to treat each other as bestfriends… if ever na mag break kayo… try to keep that friendship.. don’t be bitter with each other… kasi.. it’s not healthy for your relationship… so as much as possible… keep the flame Burning! Ahahahhaa… Pakaligaya kayo!

eto ung isang bagay na natutunan ko.. that I wanted to share everybody..

ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT… LOVE A PERSON.. WITH OPEN HEART… AND TRY NOT TO HURT THEM.. COZ ONCE YOU HURT THEIR FEELINGS.. THE WOUNDS ARE HARD TO HEAL… AND MOST IMPORTANLY.. IT MAY LEAVE A SCAR IN YOUR HEART…

Ayos ba mag bigay ng advice? Ahahhaa..

; my deepest desire at 7:10 PM

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~~the story~~

I'm Johann Medina, Nickname: Chui-Chui or simply chui, Pronounced as Chuy.. not Chewey, I am a Montessorian.. O.B. Montessori Center Sta. Ana Particularly, I am a Member of the volleyball Varsity, Zodiac Sign: Aries, stand 5 feet 4 inches, 16 years old., MArch 23, I am mistaken of being mataray, maarte, and snob, But I'm really not, I'm a good friend but once you make me angry, you will never like me.. I only become so mataray when I don't feel good, I'm a moody person, I am very emotional..

~~complete page~~

p>I love gimmicks! ehehee.. I love chatting... Texting, going to malls.. shopping.. Talking on the phone for hours.. Volleyball.. Swimming.. and I love singing and dancing.. I LOVE PINK!!

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I hate.. plastic people.. and those people who calls me Flirt.. I hate.. Flirt.. Biatch!!! I hate..Dark Colors!! I hate judgemental people.. I hate projects.. and Assignments.. ahahaha..

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~~the borrowers~~

Ai Pretty Girl
AlBeRt Reklamad0r
Anjo Friend!
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Bea Vain
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Des Creative gurl!
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Korinne Beautiful lady
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Lyka Matalino
Mae Kalog to
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Mia Tita ko/Pinsan tawag ko
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Nikki Secret keeper niya ako
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